Roll Call 156

The problems is I am not INTP (Thinking) anymore.. I am an INFP (Feeling). Only the feeling of a job will satisfy me.. I could go into pharmacy but I'd be looking at all other things I'm interested in and go down windy roads.. I'll never really stop.. I'll be constantly unsatisfied with what I'm doing..

It was about zantac (ranitidine) and another major one ....

I've read that Prilosec is a good med

I also have GERD from years of purging .

Have u played the sims

I love animal crossing

SP u should check out animal crossing ocket camp on your phone apps

I went to work at 8:30am. They told me to go home and come back at 11 because theres nothing that needs to be done until the afternoon.

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

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Omg my cat smells so bad

She just got out of the kitty portapotty.

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I didn’t think Zantac causes cancer on its own though, there was contamination with something recently. Nexium is really good too, especially for long term use.

There are multiple class action lawsuits against the makers of zantac for it causing cancer.

I see it says an impurity in it

Right it was contaminated with something that was known to cause cancer so they recalled it but the general class of agent like Zantac doesn’t cause cancer.

Going to the laundromat in a bit. Bringing my crossword puzzle book so I have something to pass the time while I'm there

Has anyone ever just woken up one day and realized that it's somehow been some inordinate length of time since you last had any shred of lucidity and you do not even have any idea what your life is like anymore or who the hell you are?

I am lost. A lot happened. I do not expect anyone to take me seriously or believe a word I say. I am resigned to and have accepted the fact that unless I start over entirely at this point, I do not have a chance in hell of being seen as anything but completely evil.

Going skiing =] Sunny day

Luckily I’ve only had a month of that kind of loss...like why did I think/do that so it didn’t impact my life in a major way in that I still had my job and people around me. But I changed enough with psychosis that I had to redefine who I was, what I liked and valued.
I did some bad things like trying to claim a friend had raped me because I thought he was the devil.. I believed it to be true but it was still horrible.

Anyway I’m sorry this has happened to you, we’ve missed you here in roll call.

Oh man the house really smells.....I made the frosting which only required egg whites so the yellows have been in the trash for two days, I should’ve taken them out right away, yuck!

I did not think anyone cared that I was gone or that if they did, they were glad to be relieved of my presence. I would not have blamed anyone, I scare the hell out of myself ... lol ...

I have lost pretty much everyone in my life that was in my life before 2013 and has made the mistake of trying to get close to me since then. My schizophrenia is evil. I do not know how else to describe it considering the sheer level and scale of catastrophic destruction it has left and will continue to leave in its wake.

I was convinced I was the devil as opposed to the victim of the devil at least twice that I recall. Once earlier this year, and in 2018. Both around the same times of the year now that I think about it, late winter through most of spring. I have a semi ironic theory that grandiose delusions are why I never fell into any kind of substance abuse.

Sorry to hear about all that has happened to you. It must be terrible to believe you are the devil. From what I remember meds are not always working for you. Have you tried therapy....not so much to deal with the psychosis but how you think about yourself? Like for me I had therapy right after that episode and they made me feel like a normal human again. I had thought I was terrible but they said it was actually and indication of how good I was that I wanted to stop the devil etc. obviously my mind was confused but that’s not my fault anymore than it’s yours, psychosis is a living nightmare even at its best, but the best is still better than the worst.

Supposedly psychosis is a bit like drug use where the setting has influences so if you go in with a positive attitude like you’re chosen to be a healer like in other countries where they believe this is how shamans are chosen then you’re going to have a better time. I believe it because most of my delusions had to do with being a shaman and I say the experience was decent like 80% of the time. It was when I veered Into the western way of thinking...good vs evil where the badness began.

I just wonder if you’re religious or not? For me I was an atheist before the psychosis. If you’re not particularly religious maybe exploring other religions without a dichotomy would be beneficial. For example Hinduism or Buddhism....they are much more neutral.

Anyway sorry to ramble on, just throwing out some ideas that might work for you.

Laundry is done, back home relaxing now

I'm sorry for what you're experiencing Atypical Disaster, I had always wondered how you were and where you went since you stopped posting, it's good to see you

Great bluebird! I’m trying to gear up for a trip to the pharmacy....not sure it’s gonna happen today.

Yeah, I had to force myself out. lol I feel really tired for some reason today so didn't feel like going but it's done thankfully. One thing that helps is it's autumn and chilly out so I'm not pouring sweat while I carry my laundry there and back

I hope you're able to get to the pharmacy soon