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#701
I had too much caffeine today so I'm probably having a panic attack , that's likely what it is
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#702
too much caffeine and not enough sleep and that equaled voices tonight. I'm just distracting myself from it
I keep saying I'm gonna draw, really need to. I did yesterday. there's a few things I want to work on, I need to come up with designs for 3 Christmas cards Someone is talking really loud it sounds like they're arguing on the phone, aggravating,weird since my neighbor is an old guy who goes to sleep at like 7 and there's a brick wall on the other side __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#703
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Dear One, you are focusing way to much on who you think you should be, and way to much on what you think your life is suppose to be like. What you should be focusing on right now - - is this precise - - precise - - precise - - moment - - not how other people perceive your life. Bring your attention to what you absolutely can control in this moment- - in this moment- - in this moment. Try “Instead of working on changing what people think of you - - I am going to work on mastering my mind moment by moment. I will practice non-resistance. I will imagine one day being free from this dynamic. I will imagine feeling confident. That you are exactly where, what and who you are supposed to be at this precise, exact moment. There are no mistakes in the universe. We are all parts of the universe. |
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#704
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#705
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I wonder if a part of what makes psychosis so frightening is the mind trying to resolve the universal fear of the unknown ... I wonder if what I conceptualize as "evil" is what I cannot understand and thus what is unknown to me. I like your idea of redirecting the psychosis. Far too many simply want to focus on eliminating it ... and that option is not feasible for me. But directing it in a less frightening way is at least in theory far more realistic. |
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Angelique67, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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The Dopamine Flux
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#706
I've been depressed past 2 weeks, at least.
I'm starting to wonder if that gap, past 2-3 weeks when I didnt have my vitamin d, if it's making me depressed. I have it now but I don't feel good yet. But I been feeling lethargic past 2 days. I know many doctors have said my labs say my vit D is extremely low. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#707
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It definitely makes a difference why did you stop? __________________ Hugs! |
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#708
I was so deficient in vitamin D at one point that I had to take prescription vitamin D to get back to normal. I made a point to go outside way more often after that (and I take vitamins regularly now). Lol.
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Metaphysic
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#709
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Cuz I went on an INTP forum and they complain about negative symptoms a lot.. It's a "Logician" personality type. I only got my personality and sanity back after I did psychedelics which is weird because they seems to cause psychosis in most people and definitely did in me. I can't explain much of it idk.. But this is all theory because anyone can get schizophrenia. I do believe that schizophrenia is a set of mathematical equations which is why the right therapy should work instead of just draining the brain of dopamine and serotonin with antipsychotics.. |
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#710
"There's a phenomenon called "SAS - Stimulant-Antipsychotic Syndrome" and psychiatrists don't know about it. I'm one of the few to be on both. I didn't take ADHD med in 48 hours and I was dying of tiredness. Intense tiredness and mental pain that manifests itself as physical pain in my mind like someone was pulling out my organs. I don't know how else to explain it. When I took my morning meds, within half an hour, I was completely normal again.
Sometimes a psychiatrist says "Stimulant addictive blablabla" and take me off of it without tapering down. What needs to happen is to TAPER DOWN. Not take me off the stimulant completely and make me suffer of movement disorders like dystonia or parkinsons symptoms or take me off the antipsychotic completely and make me suffer of full blown psychosis and anxiety. Everything needs to be handled with severe caution. I'm telling - (You crazy Facebook people) - About my problems so I have proof if any doctor does malpractice." |
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The Dopamine Flux
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#711
__________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#712
I was having symptoms of psychosis from not taking my stimulant. But it was because I was so tired and in a trance state.. so the type of hallucinations that people with narcolepsy get. I saw my sister transforming into a demon thing in the doorway.
But I was thinking.. About how we are brains and we know nothing about the brain and it's all just neurotransmitters and we're just energy or someone's hallucination.. that we are hallucinations.. or a simulation.. I looked at the sun while going skiing and thought.. yeah this is a simulation.. and what about GOD? Is an orgasm GOD like the mantra or what shamans do with their voice to simulate the universe ranging from all vocal chords and then a climax? What about our arms? Everything was made with the "hand".. It's all crazy stuff if you go deep into the meaning of things.. |
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#713
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I am an INTJ, which usually makes a few people do an obligatory, "oh **** please do not eat me" due to rampant stereotyping, heh. The Machiavellian mastermind thing is overdone by now. Though, that said I do have ridiculously excellent foresight, and I use my powers for good ... most of the time ... I have never done psychedelics, though the purely scientific part of my mind is curious about what that kind of thing would do to a brain like mine that is continuously psychotic as it is. For me, it seems that my schizophrenia is maintained by and has a foundation built upon fear at an extremely basic level. Not anxiety or panic. Not some nonsensical emotional overly personalized subjective abstraction of the word "fear" either. I am talking about fear in a more cerebral sense of the word and also the very primal/instinctive sense of the word simultaneously. This of course is not a complete idea, it is still being tossed around in my mind. |
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#714
I have low vitamin D as well. For a while I was taking prescription vitamin D. Then I switched doctors and the new one doesn't check that so I don't worry about it anymore. I'm rather fair skinned and skin cancer runs in my family so I try to stay out of the sun. I've already had to have some suspicious moles removed.
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#715
Work was pretty stressful for a while this morning. Tense like. The guy in the next office was having a "discussion" with the General Manager but the General Manager wasn't being very quiet or very kind. So even though the door was closed, I could still hear most of what the General Manager was saying. Whenever people seem to be arguing it upsets me. The other guy was keeping his cool and was very quiet and I know that was probably hard for him not to lose his cool. Now there is a meeting in the office on the other side of me, with some different people but also this same employee. I turned on my heater so I don't hear as much. I don't want to be really anxious at work today.
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#716
Hey SP, keeping your family in my prayers.
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Atypical_Disaster, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#720
I'm tired today and hungry. It's almost lunchtime. My dad made me potatoes and eggs for breakfast but IDK, I'm just hungry today. Probably the stupid AP. Last night I was so hungry too. Like I hadn't eaten all day, even though I had, though small portions.
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