Roll Call 159!

Illvoices · Jan 17, 2020 at 09:48 PM

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Jan 17, 2020 at 09:59 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I think I'm gonna start writing in my blog 2 days a week. I've been doing it every Monday, but I feel like it's not enough. So maybe friday too.

I wish I had that kind of inspiration. I sometimes don't even publish in 2 months on mine. There's been a guy on Twitter lately, reaching out for those who been reaching in to #mentalhealthmovement on there. He's been a really positive force, reminds me of you!

newtus · Jan 17, 2020 at 10:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

I wish I had that kind of inspiration. I sometimes don't even publish in 2 months on mine. There's been a guy on Twitter lately, reaching out for those who been reaching in to #mentalhealthmovement on there. He's been a really positive force, reminds me of you!

Thanks so much! Yea, I have a lot going on, so I have a lot to say. But also, my views start to dwindle on Wednesday's or Thursdays, and go really high on my posting day Monday. So I'm thinking, on fridays I could write, and itll pick back up.

Jan 17, 2020 at 11:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

What’s everyone up to? I just had to do a biography for class....it almost seems like I was successful so why didn’t I stay a scientist you know....but I have not published since I got sick. It just derailed me.

Who was the biography on? What are you taking classes for? I've been missing all week...

Jan 17, 2020 at 11:32 PM

5-8 inches tomorrow morning, followed by rain all day. This is going to be a lame Saturday, but overall I can't be too disappointed since this is only the second snow storm. I bought groceries for a week, paid my cell phone and internet bill. I did a load o laundery and began cleaning my room but I didn't finish it.

Jan 17, 2020 at 11:36 PM

I need to find a way to build more story for my next book. I wish I had more adventuring experiences.

I saw my psych Tuesday... it went well. I'm still a wreck though. I'm glad that I have my writing to explore my ideas though.

I read the book of Job in the bible for part of my short story. I love where im taking this, it brings closure to my own story.

Sometimes psychotic · Jan 18, 2020 at 09:38 AM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

Who was the biography on? What are you taking classes for? I've been missing all week...

Oh just me it’s basically just an intro so people know who you are in the class.

Sometimes psychotic · Jan 18, 2020 at 09:40 AM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

I need to find a way to build more story for my next book. I wish I had more adventuring experiences.

I saw my psych Tuesday... it went well. I'm still a wreck though. I'm glad that I have my writing to explore my ideas though.

I read the book of Job in the bible for part of my short story. I love where im taking this, it brings closure to my own story.

Yes they say that people with more experiences have more creativity because it’s recombining those experiences that leads to new ideas.

Ceara1010 · Jan 18, 2020 at 12:32 PM

Good morning

I went out to dinner with my sister last night and then we came back to my apartment and watched some episodes of The IT Crowd which is a British comedy series. (We've got the DVDs.) She and I have a regular date to get together on Fridays and we always have a good time. Right now most of my social life is with family, but I've been thinking of joining a social Meet Up group for singles over 50 in my city--there is a big one here.

I had a good session with my T yesterday and it helped me begin to process the death of my friend.

Possible trigger:

I've been feeling stuck because I never believed S. would go through with suicide; she was always trying to get attention when she harmed herself in the past or made threats about harming herself. My T thinks her suicide was accidental, that it was another cry for help and they just weren't able to revive her this time. And I know that S. hadn't lost the things she was passionate about so she had a lot to live for. Somehow, knowing it was an accident makes it easier to start to process.

Today will be a lazy day--I slept in, finished a book, will probably watch some Orange is the New Black, start another book, etc. Saturday-type stuff.

Hang in there everybody

Hugs, Ceara

Desoxyn · Jan 18, 2020 at 02:06 PM

I feel absolutely terrible. I want to run away.

I'm gonna ask my dad if I can visit him in Mexico as soon as possible.

Atypical_Disaster · Jan 18, 2020 at 02:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I feel absolutely terrible.

I’m sorry to hear that.

Desoxyn · Jan 18, 2020 at 02:18 PM

I feel like I'm going insane. I'm afraid that I'll be admitted to the psych ward.

Desoxyn · Jan 18, 2020 at 02:24 PM

It's just that I've made all these things to do and I don't know what to do. I'm not able to take care of my mom. All she wants is a relationship. She ignores her heart condition and drinks anyways. She doesn't care. I'm still held up on the past and what happened. I can't keep track of the drugs and meds that I'm on. It's like I'm having a mental breakdown. My moms ex bf used me to get closer to my mom. My mom's friend with bipolar is doing coke right now. I did coke last year. Why? I flushed it. It's all so scary. My friend my age that could be friends with me is doing his own thing. I have to get a job and I'm a mess. I don't know how I'll be able to function. I let myself go deep into convictions that I should have developed but ignored. I don't stand up for myself. People walk all over me on the internet (Soldiers and crypto investor in my mind). They are right and wrong.

My Te is garbage.

I have a future to plan but my cognition is broken. I can't do anything but so much to do. I should have said things back then to people. I had my head in the clouds.

Desoxyn · Jan 18, 2020 at 02:28 PM

The biggest thing is that I don't care if I lose control. I just don't want to lose control in front of people because then I have to explain everything. I NEED to explain everything perfectly and I can't. There's too much to say. My therapist is always on holidays.

Sometimes psychotic · Jan 18, 2020 at 02:42 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

It's just that I've made all these things to do and I don't know what to do. I'm not able to take care of my mom. All she wants is a relationship. She ignores her heart condition and drinks anyways. She doesn't care. I'm still held up on the past and what happened. I can't keep track of the drugs and meds that I'm on. It's like I'm having a mental breakdown. My moms ex bf used me to get closer to my mom. My mom's friend with bipolar is doing coke right now. I did coke last year. Why? I flushed it. It's all so scary. My friend my age that could be friends with me is doing his own thing. I have to get a job and I'm a mess. I don't know how I'll be able to function. I let myself go deep into convictions that I should have developed but ignored. I don't stand up for myself. People walk all over me on the internet (Soldiers and crypto investor in my mind). They are right and wrong.

My Te is garbage.

I have a future to plan but my cognition is broken. I can't do anything but so much to do. I should have said things back then to people. I had my head in the clouds.

You can’t change your mom, she’s and adult and she’ll only allow for you to care in certain restricted ways. I’m sorry your cognition is broken I know how that is...it’s got this adhd like vibe where you try things then change or give up entirely.

Desoxyn · Jan 18, 2020 at 02:45 PM

Feeling slightly better. I talked to my mom and said a few things. She wants me to go have coffee with this man in an hour to help his nephew (He has schizophrenia). This man is a millionaire and owns a lot of property in this expensive town. He wants me to visit him in Greece (He's Greek) but I said no because all the women are going and I think it should just be a girls holiday.

I'm not doing well right now and said to my mom that I can't explain things but she said that I'm explaining very well right now.

The 2g of phenibut is going to kick in and then I will be happy but idk if that's a good thing compared to my mindstate and setting about what I'm thinking about. It would be like throwing glitter on the devil.

Desoxyn · Jan 18, 2020 at 02:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

You can’t change your mom, she’s and adult and she’ll only allow for you to care in certain restricted ways. I’m sorry your cognition is broken I know how that is...it’s got this adhd like vibe where you try things then change or give up entirely.

I know I can't change her but I'm still deeply depressed about how she neglected me so she could be with the man that abused me and she hasn't changed. Maybe I should just accept it and focus on how to have a future.. Oh wait I can't because my cognition is screwed up.

But yeah maybe it is ADHD and lots of people with ADHD get depressed, anxious, hard on themselves....

Blue_Bird · Jan 18, 2020 at 03:08 PM

Not much going on. It's snowing, getting anywhere from 3 to 12 inches depending on what forecast you look at

Doing a 30 day challenge of no junk food and also praying the Rosary daily. I'm trying to get back into my faith, lost touch with it the past year.

Hanging out with my friend tomorrow

Desoxyn · Jan 18, 2020 at 03:21 PM

Just posting to see what time it is on here

newtus · Jan 18, 2020 at 03:24 PM

I got accepted to the ArtDash here! I gotta pick up my canvas and its gonna hang on one of the local businesses walls. I find out what business I'm matched to this next week! And then theres an artist reception. And then at the artdash event someone will buy my piece!

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Illvoices Member Member Since Jan 2017 Location: bronx,ny Posts: 153 7 17 hugs given	Jan 17, 2020 at 09:48 PM #881 Yo illvoices in the house trying to check in if anyone wants talk about why chat is down pm me.
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Anonymous40796 Guest Posts: n/a	Jan 17, 2020 at 11:32 PM #885 5-8 inches tomorrow morning, followed by rain all day. This is going to be a lame Saturday, but overall I can't be too disappointed since this is only the second snow storm. I bought groceries for a week, paid my cell phone and internet bill. I did a load o laundery and began cleaning my room but I didn't finish it.
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Anonymous40796 Guest Posts: n/a	Jan 17, 2020 at 11:36 PM #886 I need to find a way to build more story for my next book. I wish I had more adventuring experiences. I saw my psych Tuesday... it went well. I'm still a wreck though. I'm glad that I have my writing to explore my ideas though. I read the book of Job in the bible for part of my short story. I love where im taking this, it brings closure to my own story.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,980 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,908 hugs given	Jan 18, 2020 at 02:06 PM #890 I feel absolutely terrible. I want to run away. I'm gonna ask my dad if I can visit him in Mexico as soon as possible.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,980 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,908 hugs given	Jan 18, 2020 at 02:18 PM #892 I feel like I'm going insane. I'm afraid that I'll be admitted to the psych ward.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,980 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,908 hugs given	Jan 18, 2020 at 02:28 PM #894 The biggest thing is that I don't care if I lose control. I just don't want to lose control in front of people because then I have to explain everything. I NEED to explain everything perfectly and I can't. There's too much to say. My therapist is always on holidays.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,980 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,908 hugs given	Jan 18, 2020 at 03:21 PM #899 Just posting to see what time it is on here
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