Roll Call 161!

Feeling really sedated today--slept about 12 hours but that's okay. Probably won't do yoga today but I did some yesterday. Feeling upbeat anyway....

That's great SK! I hope you can move towards replacing SH with self-care.

Looking up ideas for desserts to make for st. Patrick's Day

Pleased with my little parakeet...

Had nice day skiing sunny BBQing

I’ve been feeling stressed. I’ve been stress eating, finding some comfort in food. I gained 5 kilos.

Why stressed?

Beautiful SP!

No I didn’t unfortunately

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

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Hopefully you can get some better sleep tonight

That’s gorgeous SP! 😃

Thanks bluebird and SK....occasionally something turns out well...I threw away like five bears this morning then switched to birds lol.

You should sell your artwork if you don't already SP. It's beautiful.

I’m afraid of getting a surgery. They put you on anesthesia, and I have horrible experiences with APs that force you to sleep immediately.

You know I tried selling prints...never got any bites....

When I had surgery they give you something that will just make you drowsy and then asleep later...of course I fell asleep on the first med....I’m a lightweight.

Did you feel any pain because of stitches when you woke up?

Nope they give you painkillers in the IV while you’re asleep and then you’re supposed to take the pills when you wake up.....my stitches were so painless I switched to ibuprofen from Percocet they gave me....it was making me nauseous.

I need to pump u up..

Do the surgery. Fight the good fight! All doctors are trusted...

Then you take pain, killlerrrrsss

Then it's all good. No more pain. A little pain for the right reasons is good.. It means you're healing.. We need to sacrifice things and face dangers to live.. Some have it easier than others.. You don't right now..

You will live and you will live ecstatically! Little exercise.. Or a lot.. No carbs just fatty meats and no sugar..

The good life starts now and you'll be looking back at the surgery after facing it with your wills to fight the madness of reality...... And you won't go psychotic.. Because you understand what is happening...

Working for a ****** company that makes too much money and doesn't pay its workers like Walmart is plaguing me with horror.

I don't want to be a janitor or something. I'm too smart to have a job like that. And I'm asexual so I don't want to have a normal life like 99% of people that want a partner, kids, etc.. And maybe I won't even find good supportive cool friends.

Maybe one day I'll be working for the machine and live a meaningless life when my parents die - That's what I fear. I want to do something for the world, be an entrepreneur, find and do what I love for just enough to survive or get a good education and do research. I want to travel and learn as much as I can.

I'm also afraid of my cognition becoming unrecoverable and not be able to do anything I want to do. I'm afraid of losing my cool genius thoughts. I don't want my consciousness to be nothing.. Because it's close to that now..

What will I do if I'm not myself? Not able to learn or even as fast as anyone else.. It's becoming that.. I don't want to be alone, poor, have no meaning.. I get suicidal easily.. I NEED help to not go down a dark road of a ****** life with no meaning.. Where my spark will be gone.. If that happens, I might as well just end it.