Roll Call 163!!! Dancing Chili

Blue_Bird · Mar 31, 2020 at 06:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Job 30 26

Today was another day in quarantine.

Negative: I'm not as productive writing as when I'm in a café away from screens. I need to be more productive with my writing! I'm feeling more trapped than ever because my living room is at max capacity. Tomorrow, I'll go on a walk to get the mail, it's pretty far back. I should have my last check in the mail from last week. Then I'll warm up the engine and cash it. I don't have much money anymore, but I'm sure all of us share this problem. I can't even watch the news anymore. I swear im going to get critical muscular dystrophy by the time this all said and done.

Positive: I made a frozen dinner and it was so good. I subscribed to HBO Now, and I have my computer game Alan Wake to keep me busy for the coming month. Rent is paid, and the next bill is due on the 19th.

I need to stay more focused.

Alan wake is a great game

newtus · Mar 31, 2020 at 06:31 PM

Wow. Just getting opportunity after opportunity. Got 2 today.

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 31, 2020 at 06:36 PM

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Wow. Just getting opportunity after opportunity. Got 2 today.

Nice! Glad to hear

Blue_Bird · Mar 31, 2020 at 07:02 PM

Podcast time then bed. Therapy appointment tomorrow afternoon

Desoxyn · Mar 31, 2020 at 07:17 PM

I love how it's bright outside for longer now all of a sudden. It should be dark by now and I still have like 2 hours of light left.

I want to write like job and newtus but I have to make a topic.. Plus I want to read more.. etc etc etc

There's so much etc's that my head is full. I don't know how Joe Rogan talks to different people for 3 hours a day and keeps all of the information in his head.

Erti · Mar 31, 2020 at 07:32 PM

Yeah... if you're not struggling you're not living

Angelique67 · Mar 31, 2020 at 07:50 PM

My almost used up disposable is a nice watermelon cucumber with menthol. I only took two puffs since it's almost gone, and it might be done now. I'm wondering if I dare to open my last one. If I do, I can only have 7 or 8 puffs per day. And it will be used up within 6 or 7 days.

Angelique67 · Mar 31, 2020 at 07:55 PM

I'm really depressed about how much candy I've eaten since last week. I really don't want to gain back the 12 pounds I lost.

Angelique67 · Mar 31, 2020 at 08:18 PM

I took a half Ativan and a half tiz so maybe I'll feel better soon.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 31, 2020 at 09:11 PM

I feel like smoking the cigarettes I bought in Argentina.

I am now back in the USA, where I see that Covid-19 cases are ballooning.

This is making me quite nervous.

Also I think being back at my parents' house is destroying my self-esteem.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 31, 2020 at 09:12 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I feel like smoking the cigarettes I bought in Argentina.

I am now back in the USA, where I see that Covid-19 cases are ballooning.

This is making me quite nervous.

Also I think being back at my parents' house is destroying my self-esteem.

That was all negative -- now I'll do a positive.

I got back on PC after a hiatus after traveling...

Desoxyn · Mar 31, 2020 at 10:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

Yeah... if you're not struggling you're not living

Every time my anxiety and awareness goes down and I feel like nothing is going to happen, - Right before that happens, BOOM.. (Something happens to annoy me or stimulate my frustration and problem solving), then BOOM (It happens again), BOOM..

It's constant drama in my reality... lol..

I suppose that's life.. Life is suffering as Buddha says lol

Desoxyn · Apr 01, 2020 at 02:15 AM

I'm really worried about my mom.. She's getting a cancer check up.. If she didn't get oxygen last year, she would have died from the flu.. Cuz she could breathe.. How can she handle coronavirus? And my dad.. He's so fat.. How will he survive.. He had cancer..

I guess I just have to let go,.. But also make it more comfortable for them and solve problems to make their lives last longer..

I'm gonna take half a zopiclone this time cuz I have a melatonin to take with it.. But I think the coffee, l-tyrosine and phenibut are keeping me awake idk..

My mind is constantly crunching solving problems every day.. Like nothing ever before except when I was a kid.. Overachieving in math..

I can't stop watching Lindsay Stirling videos

newtus · Apr 01, 2020 at 10:07 AM

Thought you might like this bb. It’s all online.

Blue_Bird · Apr 01, 2020 at 10:07 AM

Not much going on. Therapy appointment at 3, then my sister is dropping off some of my money

Blue_Bird · Apr 01, 2020 at 10:08 AM

@newtus , thanks, that's cool!

Job 30 26 · Apr 01, 2020 at 11:05 AM

I'm glad I checked the mail today! The Michigan unemployment agency sent me a letter saying I need to provide then with Social security ID and State liscence. I didn't know how I was going to do that since I cant fax it due to the library being closed. So, since my final paycheck came in the mail, I went to the bank, and I asked them to cash, but also make a photocopy of my state ID and my social security card and they did it!

Then I sent it in the mail, so everything should be okay now... However, it's going to take longer since I'm waiting on mail and filing…

Negative: Since I was going to use my car today, I Checked the oil, it's good, checked the coolant, still good (which means I really did fix the leak), and started it. And then I gave it gave and turned the wheel... holy ****, it sounded like screeching and grinding, but it stopped after a few moments. I guess I have to drive it around the block every day so the rust on my brakes don't build up, because that was bad!

Positive: I'm glad that I was able to problem solve getting my id's in order to mail so soon. That was really nice of the bank to do that for me. My roommate is making fun of my grocery list and what I've been eating lately, because it's all military meals, but that's what I grew up on because my step father was a naval officer, but the food was great so I don't understand her gripes! I'd prefer corn beef hash, Navel red SOS, or Cream chip beer, over her honeybun any day! I need to get stuff for chili as well. I'd make rice to put underneath the chili but Im going to put toast instead to make it easier for me.

Blue_Bird · Apr 01, 2020 at 01:53 PM

Tomorrow it will officially be 1 year of recovery from my eating disorder! Will probably get some kind of chocolate/dessert to celebrate

newtus · Apr 01, 2020 at 02:17 PM

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Tomorrow it will officially be 1 year of recovery from my eating disorder! Will probably get some kind of chocolate/dessert to celebrate

Congrats!!!

Blue_Bird · Apr 01, 2020 at 02:40 PM

Thanks! @newtus

Therapy appointment over the phone went really well

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Mar 31, 2020 at 06:31 PM #542 Wow. Just getting opportunity after opportunity. Got 2 today. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,724 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Mar 31, 2020 at 07:02 PM #544 Podcast time then bed. Therapy appointment tomorrow afternoon __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Mar 31, 2020 at 07:32 PM #546 Yeah... if you're not struggling you're not living
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Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,112 (SuperPoster!) 9	Mar 31, 2020 at 07:50 PM #547 My almost used up disposable is a nice watermelon cucumber with menthol. I only took two puffs since it's almost gone, and it might be done now. I'm wondering if I dare to open my last one. If I do, I can only have 7 or 8 puffs per day. And it will be used up within 6 or 7 days.
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Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,112 (SuperPoster!) 9	Mar 31, 2020 at 07:55 PM #548 I'm really depressed about how much candy I've eaten since last week. I really don't want to gain back the 12 pounds I lost.
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Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,112 (SuperPoster!) 9	Mar 31, 2020 at 08:18 PM #549 I took a half Ativan and a half tiz so maybe I'll feel better soon.
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Mar 31, 2020 at 09:11 PM #550 I feel like smoking the cigarettes I bought in Argentina. I am now back in the USA, where I see that Covid-19 cases are ballooning. This is making me quite nervous. Also I think being back at my parents' house is destroying my self-esteem.
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Apr 01, 2020 at 10:07 AM #554 Thought you might like this bb. It’s all online. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,724 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Apr 01, 2020 at 10:07 AM #555 Not much going on. Therapy appointment at 3, then my sister is dropping off some of my money __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,724 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Apr 01, 2020 at 10:08 AM #556 @newtus , thanks, that's cool! __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,724 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Apr 01, 2020 at 01:53 PM #558 Tomorrow it will officially be 1 year of recovery from my eating disorder! Will probably get some kind of chocolate/dessert to celebrate __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,724 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Apr 01, 2020 at 02:40 PM #560 Thanks! @newtus Therapy appointment over the phone went really well __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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