Voices..new to me

Hello,

Relatively new here still. This topic is also fairly mew to me. I originally went for a psych eval about 9 years ago for memory loss while in the military. They said I had right side issues but never dug any deeper because I went downhill from there, medically discharged, etc, etc. Now, I have neen diagnosed with chronic PTSD and anxiety. Anyway, the last month I've been experiencing some unsettling hallucinations, both visual and auditory. A bird of mine died and the next day I walked up to her cage and was petting and talking to her...until my wife reminded me noone was there. That was scary. More auditory though. These voices are so persistent that my wife has pulled me from beating my head on the wall. I think it's just the fact they are there that's scaring me and I don't know what's wrong. I told the psychiatrist. He doesn't believe it's psychosis and it may just be the PTSD. I'm not sure everything is based around this but I'm not a doctor. My memory of past situations is so bad. I don't remember the situations. For example, I dont remember much of my childhood at all but I was recently told a babysitter abused me at a young age. I remember plates being thrown at doors and someone arguing but nothing actually causing it. Military as well and that was most recent for years active duty. These voices are saying "go" and "they're gone". I don't even know what that means, the voice isn't familiar. It freaks me out.

Sorry if this is the wrong spot

My meds right now are: duloxetine, quetiapine, topiramate, lorazepam

I'm sorry you are having these distressing symptoms. I know it's hard because I have them too. It's hard to know what is real or not. You mentioned that you have a psychiatrist, but do you have a therapist? A therapist might have some ways to help you manage and deal with the hallucinations. My therapists have. My DX is different than yours...mine is schizoaffective depressed type and general anxiety and ADHD inattentive type and autism spectrum, so I don't know if there are different ways to treat hallucinations based on the DX or not. I don't remember much of my childhood either. I don't have a military experience so I'm not sure what to tell you there. Do you get benefits through the VA? Can you ask them about seeing a therapist? Best of luck to you, best wishes, Kit

Hi, I'm fairly new, too. I joined PC because of my voices, & depression. I'm sorry you lost your pet bird. I think your brain tried to do you a favor with that hallucination. And could be a different area of your brain is talking. Brains have incredible abilities & talents. And I think we are mostly of the frontal lobes & are meant to communicate with the outside world, not with other areas of the brain. So I feel I've lost the privacy of my own mind, but I'm getting used to it, though it's extremely stressful at times. I feel sad for what you are going through. Like SlumberKitty said, it's hard. I hope you keep posting. We all can help each other. God bless you.

So sorry you are dealing with all this. I have bipolar 1 and PTSD and have voices all the time. I find getting out of the house helps, often. I like to ride my bike and they seem to usually go away when I can do that. Maybe you might try going for a walk and see if the change of scenery helps.
Psychosis and PTSD is an entire series of books itself. I would only say that, if this continues, please do keep telling your pdoc. I believe there are medications that may help you.

Don't give up! You are not alone!! Others here are dealing with similar stuff and making it. As Breaking Dawn says, we need to help each other. And we do here on this site.

Hope you have a peaceful weekend. Sending you strength!!!!

Thank you all for the responses. I haven't done much recently due to everything going on. I'll definitely take some advice and get myself out of this house. My wife is my rock for pretty much everything.

life happens.

Active duty here (Army). I hear voices a lot of the time but just do my best to not give them peace of mind as they don’t deserve it. On the downside it is like I’m constantly having to block them out. Why I listen to music or podcasts a lot to help block them out easier. I know it may seem selfish of me to be in the military with something like this. Just biding my time and getting out next year. I can do this.

Hi @Gestaabo I don't think it is selfish of you to be in the military and dealing with MI. In fact I say kudos to you. I'm not in the armed forces but I am blessed to be able to work full time and people ask me how I can do it with the severe MI that I have, including my doctors and case workers, and I guess I just have understanding colleagues. But I still do my work and contribute and stuff. So I say kudos to you for being able to be in the military and deal with MI. Way to go!

Thanks for the support. I'm glad you all understand my where I'm coming from. I got 16 months left and figure I can wait my time out and see a psychologist at least once or a handful of times for some answers after I get out. The last one I had diagnosed me with Brief Psychotic Disorder at the age of 16. However, he wasn't any help with anything he said. I understand that everything is possibly all in my head but that doesn't change the fact that it is still all real to me and my reality because that's what I perceive. He didn't understand that. He mocked another patient who was experiencing delusions to me. That lead me to not tell him of any potential delusions as I couldn't trust him to keep confidentiality nor real professional help. Honestly I resent psychologists but just hope to find a decent one some day. Only thing that helped was the Risperidone. Ha. I wouldn't wish that kind of "treatment" on anybody and wish you all the best of luck with your endeavors when it comes to those people.