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I have schizophrenia, and am trying to find my way with what it means for my life. it seems like i am not able to work full time or do college full time because of the symptoms i get when i get stressed. am i the only one who experiences this, or am i just being lazy? i don't think i am... my schizo has made it so i cant travel or fund-raise at our church.

am i being lazy or is this normal for people with schizophrenia (or other mental illnesses)?

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We have Schizoaffective and a dissociative disorder and we can't work at all and can only do one class at a time for school. It's not just you and we don't consider it lazy. We get too stressed if we try to do more than that. we tried to do two classes this semester and ended up having to withdraw from one of them. It was too much.

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Running, it was difficult for me as well. But as I found the right meds, with continual dr appointments, and a good male psychologist who can help with male problems, I got a lot better. I can work full time, and I write stories, I have a blog with many posts, I read books. It's not so bad now. But it took years to recover. I still have psychotic slips but that's it.
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Running, it was difficult for me as well. But as I found the right meds, with continual dr appointments, and a good male psychologist who can help with male problems, I got a lot better. I can work full time, and I write stories, I have a blog with many posts, I read books. It's not so bad now. But it took years to recover. I still have psychotic slips but that's it.
thanks job! i really dont think i could work full time or do full time college right now. itd be too much. and i dont want to end up hurting myself either. maybe ill get better and be more able in the future though

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We have Schizoaffective and a dissociative disorder and we can't work at all and can only do one class at a time for school. It's not just you and we don't consider it lazy. We get too stressed if we try to do more than that. we tried to do two classes this semester and ended up having to withdraw from one of them. It was too much.
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Running, it was difficult for me as well. But as I found the right meds, with continual dr appointments, and a good male psychologist who can help with male problems, I got a lot better. I can work full time, and I write stories, I have a blog with many posts, I read books. It's not so bad now. But it took years to recover. I still have psychotic slips but that's it.
was there a time when you couldnt do those things?

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was there a time when you couldnt do those things?
There were times. I had a year long psychosis in school, and I shouldn't have been there. Also it took me years to recover, I'd say 2 years. I worked but it was hell. I should have gotten disability, but I did get Medicaid and it saved me. It took a lot o fight out of me, and I lost parts of my soul. But this is as good as it gets for me right now. It took me awhile to accept the bad but it is what it is. As long as I can write. That's all the matters.
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There were times. I had a year long psychosis in school, and I shouldn't have been there. Also it took me years to recover, I'd say 2 years. I worked but it was hell. I should have gotten disability, but I did get Medicaid and it saved me. It took a lot o fight out of me, and I lost parts of my soul. But this is as good as it gets for me right now. It took me awhile to accept the bad but it is what it is. As long as I can write. That's all the matters.
ok, thx for replying. right now im almost 26 and still live with my mother. i feel like a big loser. ive had schizo since i was 14. i think i could work part time if the job wasnt stressful. im on disability right now, but you cant really support yourself on it. have you had the same thoughts or experiences? sometime i really wish i was normal...

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ok, thx for replying. right now im almost 26 and still live with my mother. i feel like a big loser. ive had schizo since i was 14. i think i could work part time if the job wasnt stressful. im on disability right now, but you cant really support yourself on it. have you had the same thoughts or experiences? sometime i really wish i was normal...
Everybody's schizophrenia is different. Most people have a decline, my cognition remains intact but my emotions have declined to the point where I mostly feel negative emotions. I lived with my mom for a year and a half, id' still be with her if she didn't have to move to florida. I went through delusions, trauma, panic attacks, anxiety, acute depression, bipolar mood swings, akathasia. anhedonia, most of the time, these things overlap on each other as they do now. If you need to live with your mother that's fine. I love my mom and I loved living with her. We understood each other and cared.

I'm glad that you have disability. I understand feeling about feeling like a loser because that was my biggest fear in life, so I started to write stories and perfect my craft. I still have a ways to go, but I'm improving. I'm on my 4th story now. and I'm feeling good about it. I also have a blog where I share my reflections and art.

Is there a way for you to help others some how? I do it through ideas mostly but others do it through religion, art, love, or truth. Maybe work part time in a nursing home talking it up with the elderly, helping them out. Some way that helps you stay connected, grounded to reality, often it's through social cohesion in some manner. I write stories to share with others.
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I’m almost 26 and can’t work full time. Was diagnosed with Schozoaffective/bipolar when I was 18 and have been on SSI ever since. I’m just now getting to the point where I may be ready to try working part time but I’m going to do that through a supportive employment program so it’s a smoother transition and less stressful for me. You’re definitely not alone!

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I’m almost 26 and can’t work full time. Was diagnosed with Schozoaffective/bipolar when I was 18 and have been on SSI ever since. I’m just now getting to the point where I may be ready to try working part time but I’m going to do that through a supportive employment program so it’s a smoother transition and less stressful for me. You’re definitely not alone!
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i dont think i could work full time. but probably part time if the job wasnt too stressful. i dont want to be lazy and use my illness as a crutch.. on the other hand i have limits most people dont have because of my mind. trying to find my way with all this...

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I can't work full time either. I take seasonal jobs and work about 20-30 hours a week, take a few months for a break, and start up again if I can. If I go through a season I can't work, no big deal, I'll just wait it out and go back when I can. It's a difficult disorder in regards to working (in addition to, well, everything). By no means are you lazy, you are dealing with a serious mental illness that disables many who have it.
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I can't work full time either. I take seasonal jobs and work about 20-30 hours a week, take a few months for a break, and start up again if I can. If I go through a season I can't work, no big deal, I'll just wait it out and go back when I can. It's a difficult disorder in regards to working (in addition to, well, everything). By no means are you lazy, you are dealing with a serious mental illness that disables many who have it.
thx for replying spikes! its very easy to beat myself up and think just lazy, but that isnt the case. i have a serious mental illness that makes me have boundaries most people dont have..

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I was able to do college full time. But have a harder time working full time. I kind of want to try again but than again I'm doing well part time and with ssd. Why wreak a good thing.

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I can't work full time either. I take seasonal jobs and work about 20-30 hours a week, take a few months for a break, and start up again if I can. If I go through a season I can't work, no big deal, I'll just wait it out and go back when I can. It's a difficult disorder in regards to working (in addition to, well, everything). By no means are you lazy, you are dealing with a serious mental illness that disables many who have it.
hope you dont mind me asking spikes but how do you support yourself if you arent working full time? you cant really support yourself with ssi or ssd alone..

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Have you considered partial disability or disability? It isnt an easy process but I heard that with everything that is going on the usual rejections/appeals may not be as much of an issue now with the current state of things in the US> You can work and still receive disability. Do you have doctors and other care workers who would be willing to help you fill out the paperwork? If you do go this route and need suggestions 0r advice about it feel free to PM me.

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I have schizophrenia, and am trying to find my way with what it means for my life. it seems like i am not able to work full time or do college full time because of the symptoms i get when i get stressed. am i the only one who experiences this, or am i just being lazy? i don't think i am... my schizo has made it so i cant travel or fund-raise at our church.

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I've been in your situation and TBH I still am, within your experience of schizophrenia it is very commonplace, as its not even understood what it even is, ( sometimes I think I am on Remote and live streamed with a mobb hazing me too shreds behind my back)

We all live like this, I've had brief moments of trying to work part time ( I got workplace mobbed) though you may have an postive e4xperince than me as I am being covertly Gang Stalked.

Your not lazy dealing with 'voices' properly 24/7 at times, as they can have marathons at times.

So, if you consider that some people kill themselfs over a smart phone abuse or Instagram, they would not be able to handle the pile-up, at its most brutal.

So if you consider this its easyer to let it go,

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I currently go to graduate school and work some, but it's taken a lot of effort and trial and error with meds to get to this point. I am hoping to be able to hold a full-time job when I graduate from grad school.

Oh, and also, don't beat yourself up for having an illness. It is an illness. It's not your fault.

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I currently go to graduate school and work some, but it's taken a lot of effort and trial and error with meds to get to this point. I am hoping to be able to hold a full-time job when I graduate from grad school.

Oh, and also, don't beat yourself up for having an illness. It is an illness. It's not your fault.
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I am working about 20 hours a week and want to work about 25 hours per week. I am getting stressed out but am balancing my work with time off. I believe, schizophrenia affects people differently. However, how the individual handles the illness is paramount to being able to work or not. I went to a graduate school and got a doctoral degree in a healthcare field but it took my twice as long as an average student to graduate. I hated it and am glad I got out of the healthcare field. I was sick off and on throughout graduate school and was not good at performing in the healthcare field. I am now teaching and making as much as a full-time teacher per month teaching at a school. I work for a company now and my performance is based on customer satisfaction. So, I am always at the whim of the students which is very stressful. Despite this I am happy at times. I like teaching a lot so am much happier than in the healthcare field. I am planning to do this job for awhile but not until I retire. I am hoping to go into business for myself doing property investments eventually. This will be stressful too. I probably will only work part- time again but hopefully will earn more money than being a teacher. I think schizophrenia is disabling but if you find the right treatment, i.e,. the right medication and therapy, you should be able to work to some extent and live a full life. At work I have not asked for accommodations nor told anybody about my illness. I realized in the long run, people tend to hire people and keep people who can work without asking too much in return. I don't let the illness define me and just think of it is as a responsibility which needs to be taken care of by taking my medication and seeing the doctor. I have to say this though- when I am off my medication, I am very ill and impaired. I can't function at all by myself. So, it is a necessity for me to continually take my medication no matter what. I diverge but I was homeless once because I was not compliant. I also was unemployed for a long time because of my non-compliance. As a result, I am very grateful for my current situation and cannot stress the fact that my compliance has made a big difference in whether or not I can be independent and work. I would like to add I have been at this job for seven months so far and never have taken an absence nor have been late so far. I am hoping I can continue working like this but know that taking it one day at a time is the best approach.
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