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Blue_Bird · May 29, 2020 at 11:40 PM

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I wonder if there are any other benzos I could take PRN for anxiety.

I've been on klonopin (up to 2mg) xanax (up to 1mg) and valium (up to 15mg)

my psychiatrist doesn't like to prescribe ativan

i would just like something to take when I panic

I take klonopin prn for panic and it works really well for me. Has for years.

Blue_Bird · May 29, 2020 at 11:43 PM

No sleep. Again. Going on 48 hours now.

falcon09 · May 30, 2020 at 12:11 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

No sleep. Again. Going on 48 hours now.

does your thorazine not make you sleepy anymore?

Desoxyn · May 30, 2020 at 01:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

No sleep. Again. Going on 48 hours now.

I think the longest I've ever stayed awake was 42 hours.

I'm sorry you're dealing with this. It really sucks when you can't sleep.

As much as I complain about sleeping too much, - Not being able to sleep is torture.

falcon09 · May 30, 2020 at 01:55 AM

I stayed up five days once, although about halfway through I got 30 minutes in

newtus · May 30, 2020 at 02:52 AM

I can’t sleep.

I’m agitated and upset cuz I don’t have nicotine.

Sometimes psychotic · May 30, 2020 at 08:21 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

No sleep. Again. Going on 48 hours now.

Sorry bluebird.....

newtus · May 30, 2020 at 08:34 AM

So I may be hypomanic now after no sleep.

Went 2 places before 8am. And took my hair down and combed it and styled it a bit. Thinking about putting a few dreads in since I won’t be seeing my stylist for awhile cuz COVID scare and money issues.

newtus · May 30, 2020 at 08:35 AM

Got fiancé McDonald’s brekkie. He’s been asleep still. So it’s cold now. We sold some stuff last night. Well he did. A desk and a chair to his friend.

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Blue_Bird · May 30, 2020 at 09:03 AM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

does your thorazine not make you sleepy anymore?

Yeah but I stopped taking it a few days ago. I want to be able to sleep without it.

newtus · May 30, 2020 at 09:07 AM

Nvm the dreads too much

Sometimes psychotic · May 30, 2020 at 09:15 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Yeah but I stopped taking it a few days ago. I want to be able to sleep without it.

Did you taper at all? Are you working with your pdoc on this?

newtus · May 30, 2020 at 09:52 AM

Well
He’s mad at me for buying him breakfast cuz I bought it with the money we got last night from selling the furniture.

Can’t do shyt right.

newtus · May 30, 2020 at 09:56 AM

Just wanted to surprise him and make his day a little easier. Idk what I’m doing anymore. I was having a good day. Now, it’s just shyt.

Sometimes psychotic · May 30, 2020 at 09:58 AM

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Well
He’s mad at me for buying him breakfast cuz I bought it with the money we got last night from selling the furniture.

Can’t do shyt right.

I think honestly one of the things you don’t necessarily know is what is optional and what is essential....when you grow up without much money you learn these things automatically. When it gets to the point where you sell stuff, you’re in essential mode as in keeping the electricity on and bare bones food on the table.

Sometimes psychotic · May 30, 2020 at 09:59 AM

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Just wanted to surprise him and make his day a little easier. Idk what I’m doing anymore. I was having a good day. Now, it’s just shyt.

Find a way to do stuff that doesn’t cost money....you can show your love without making your finances worse.

newtus · May 30, 2020 at 09:59 AM

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I think honestly one of the things you don’t necessarily know is what is optional and what is essential....when you grow up without much money you learn these things automatically. When it gets to the point where you sell stuff, you’re in essential mode as in keeping the electricity on and bare bones food on the table.

Yea I get that. I never grew up having to worry about money. Even living with my dad the past 10 years. I obviously can’t do shyt right. It’s very obvious.

Sometimes psychotic · May 30, 2020 at 10:00 AM

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Yea I get that. I never grew up having to worry about money. Even living with my dad the past 10 years. I obviously can’t do shyt right. It’s very obvious.

It’s not that you can’t do stuff right, you just don’t have a certain type of knowledge of being poor.

newtus · May 30, 2020 at 10:06 AM

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It’s not that you can’t do stuff right, you just don’t have a certain type of knowledge of being poor.

Yea I’m sure.

I already didn’t like how much he sold it for. 200 dollar desk for 60. We’ve only had it since November. Gaming desk. And chair! For which we are still paying on. I told him to go up in price and he’s like “I already told him 60...”

He never listens to me. Never about anything. Not this, not the mask/COVID situation. not about school, work, spending time with me. He doesn’t listen to me at all. He wants to do what he wants to do in life. And then he has the nerve the complain about things or say I’m nagging about spending time together, when I’m at my breaking point of loneliness. I’m closer to my fckin dad at this point for god sakes. I tried to get him to take care of school for 4 or 5 months now. “I’ll do it tomorrow I promise”. Etc etc. me: can we be intimate? “Tomorrow”. Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. Put this shyt off. Put me off.

Fck around and I’ll get up and leave.

Sorry...

Sometimes psychotic · May 30, 2020 at 10:09 AM

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Yea I’m sure.

I already didn’t like how much he sold it for. 200 dollar desk for 60. We’ve only had it since November. Gaming desk. And chair! For which we are still paying on. I told him to go up in price and he’s like “I already told him 60...”

He never listens to me. Never about anything. Not this, not the mask/COVID situation. not about school, work, spending time with me. He doesn’t listen to me at all. He wants to do what he wants to do in life. And then he has the nerve the complain about things or say I’m nagging about spending time together, when I’m at my breaking point of loneliness. I’m closer to my fckin dad at this point for god sakes. I tried to get him to take care of school for 4 or 5 months now. “I’ll do it tomorrow I promise”. Etc etc. me: can we be intimate? “Tomorrow”. Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. Put this shyt off. Put me off.

Fck around and I’ll get up and leave.

Sorry...

Just be careful, if you’re hypomanic you could do something you seriously regret. I know how much you love him.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,742 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	May 29, 2020 at 11:43 PM #562 No sleep. Again. Going on 48 hours now. __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	May 30, 2020 at 08:35 AM #569 Got fiancé McDonald’s brekkie. He’s been asleep still. So it’s cold now. We sold some stuff last night. Well he did. A desk and a chair to his friend. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	May 30, 2020 at 09:52 AM #573 Well He’s mad at me for buying him breakfast cuz I bought it with the money we got last night from selling the furniture. Can’t do shyt right. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	May 30, 2020 at 09:56 AM #574 Just wanted to surprise him and make his day a little easier. Idk what I’m doing anymore. I was having a good day. Now, it’s just shyt. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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