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Sometimes psychotic · Jun 30, 2020 at 11:12 AM

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She has the money. It’s not about the money for her. It’s just about when.

I’m already crying. Today is her birthday. Like she just told me that just now. But like idk.

She’s been talking about moving there for a few years. I should’ve realized that that’s what she really wants.

What I meant was not about money but stuff is closing quickly so there’s less quality on the market imo...

This is what I’m going to say....most people move away from family at some point....it’s not about the family so much as other opportunities. In your mom’s case she probably wants to see her grand-babies...and you’re doing so well an found a person of your own. There’s a transitional phase where you move from your primary family to a family of your own, the one you choose. You’re at that point now and it can be rough but it comes with freedom as well. If you don’t have ties you can move anywhere....or if you wanted you could move to San Antonio too. Maybe there’s somewhere where you don’t have to worry about as much racism? Think of what you’ll gain not lose.....

newtus · Jun 30, 2020 at 11:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

What I meant was not about money but stuff is closing quickly so there’s less quality on the market imo...

This is what I’m going to say....most people move away from family at some point....it’s not about the family so much as other opportunities. In your mom’s case she probably wants to see her grand-babies...and you’re doing so well an found a person of your own. There’s a transitional phase where you move from your primary family to a family of your own, the one you choose. You’re at that point now and it can be rough but it comes with freedom as well. If you don’t have ties you can move anywhere....or if you wanted you could move to San Antonio too. Maybe there’s somewhere where you don’t have to worry about as much racism? Think of what you’ll gain not lose.....

Yea but I can’t just leave my dad here. I still feel so much like a child when it comes to my parents. But I do have abandonment issues.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 30, 2020 at 11:23 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Yea but I can’t just leave my dad here. I still feel so much like a child when it comes to my parents. But I do have abandonment issues.

Usually you get over that attending college away....a lot of people get homesick though.....I’m not sure if you’ve ever gone away but you get used to it.

bpcyclist · Jun 30, 2020 at 12:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

There's a hard bump on my shoulder that formed just like the other one. I think the pharmacist has been injecting into my muscle tendon or something - That's why it hurts so damn much.

I'm afraid that I'm overdosed on Invega.

Keep an eyey on that thing, Des. It is not draining, is it? Be damn sure the next injection is someplace far away from that site. If you get really concerned about it, shoot me a pic on a PM. I was a dermaatologist for many moons and am happy to have a quick look for you if you wish.

bpcyclist · Jun 30, 2020 at 12:45 PM

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I talked to my brother on messenger about my mom. She's out of control and I'm suffering. We're all suffering.

Constant.. suffering..

What is wrong with her?

bpcyclist · Jun 30, 2020 at 12:49 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I think I’m gonna cry

Why, newtus?

bpcyclist · Jun 30, 2020 at 12:58 PM

Well, finally got maybe 5 hours of pretty crappy sleep, so, that is nice. I am feeling pretty fair so far. Was so very sad yesterday. Just awful. So much badass depression over teh decades. It still scares me. I can honestly say, other than something happening to my kids, the only thing that frightens me today is my own brain. And it scares the sh** out of me. What it is capable of. So bad. I do think I am going to have to change my antidepressants and possibly stope my lithium. I do not think it is helping anymore.

Was able to write for 90 minutes and it was quite high-quality. Hooray!! FIrst time in 4 weeks. So, maybe a little progres? Maybe? It would be so nice. I am still on schedule. If I can finish my edits in the next few weeks, my editor can get it back to me before the end of September and I can then get it on shelves by Christmas, which has been the goal. So, maybe I can still make it happen, if I keep feelign a bit better.

Writing this book is extremely triggeriing of my PTSD, so, it is super tricky trying to balance working on it and not getting too triggered and then freaking out totally. Quite tricky for me, but the book is so important to me and to my recovery that the show must go on. So, onward!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone has a great day!!! Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!

newtus · Jun 30, 2020 at 01:09 PM

I took a nap

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 30, 2020 at 01:12 PM

I think a honeydew blt would be good like bacon, honeydew and toast....

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 30, 2020 at 01:31 PM

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Well, finally got maybe 5 hours of pretty crappy sleep, so, that is nice. I am feeling pretty fair so far. Was so very sad yesterday. Just awful. So much badass depression over teh decades. It still scares me. I can honestly say, other than something happening to my kids, the only thing that frightens me today is my own brain. And it scares the sh** out of me. What it is capable of. So bad. I do think I am going to have to change my antidepressants and possibly stope my lithium. I do not think it is helping anymore.

Was able to write for 90 minutes and it was quite high-quality. Hooray!! FIrst time in 4 weeks. So, maybe a little progres? Maybe? It would be so nice. I am still on schedule. If I can finish my edits in the next few weeks, my editor can get it back to me before the end of September and I can then get it on shelves by Christmas, which has been the goal. So, maybe I can still make it happen, if I keep feelign a bit better.

Writing this book is extremely triggeriing of my PTSD, so, it is super tricky trying to balance working on it and not getting too triggered and then freaking out totally. Quite tricky for me, but the book is so important to me and to my recovery that the show must go on. So, onward!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone has a great day!!! Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!

Glad you got some sleep...so dangerous to go without...

Also glad your book is on track.....let us know when it’s released

bpcyclist · Jun 30, 2020 at 01:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Glad you got some sleep...so dangerous to go without...

Also glad your book is on track.....let us know when it’s released

Thanks, Sometimes.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 30, 2020 at 01:50 PM

Grilled Chicken and Peach Saltimbocca Skewers Recipe | Serious Eats

This looks so good! If only I had a personal chef, lol. Not much of a griller myself, usually leave that up to the bf and we just do the basics.

But ... reason I’m posting is I know a few of you guys cook...how would you feel about a sz recipe thread? Stuff that we want to make or favorites or whatever. I mean assuming it doesn’t get moved....let me know if you think it sounds ok? Last thing I want is some orphan thread....

Blue_Bird · Jun 30, 2020 at 01:52 PM

That's a great idea SP!

bpcyclist · Jun 30, 2020 at 01:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Grilled Chicken and Peach Saltimbocca Skewers Recipe | Serious Eats

This looks so good! If only I had a personal chef, lol. Not much of a griller myself, usually leave that up to the bf and we just do the basics.

But ... reason I’m posting is I know a few of you guys cook...how would you feel about a sz recipe thread? Stuff that we want to make or favorites or whatever. I mean assuming it doesn’t get moved....let me know if you think it sounds ok? Last thing I want is some orphan thread....

What a fun idea--super fun!!!!!!!

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 30, 2020 at 01:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

That's a great idea SP!

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist

What a fun idea--super fun!!!!!!!

Ok cool I’ll make one 😀

Blue_Bird · Jun 30, 2020 at 02:01 PM

I ordered the game guide to Animal Crossing: New Horizons. I had a guide for Animal Crossing: Wild World and it was very useful for keeping track of what you have in the game so I think this one will be too.

And a few more Kindle books

newtus · Jun 30, 2020 at 02:05 PM

Cried myself to sleep/nap

Having coffee now and talking to my dad

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 30, 2020 at 02:13 PM

Ok I named the new thread so it can’t be easily moved lol......

Blue_Bird · Jun 30, 2020 at 02:19 PM

I'm getting a garmin smartwatch next week instead of a fitbit. My sister has a 40% off coupon for any Garmin product. Original price is $189

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 30, 2020 at 02:23 PM

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I'm getting a garmin smartwatch next week instead of a fitbit. My sister has a 40% off coupon for any Garmin product. Original price is $189

Nice! My cousin uses garmin to track her runs.....

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 30, 2020 at 01:09 PM #68 I took a nap __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Jun 30, 2020 at 01:12 PM #69 I think a honeydew blt would be good like bacon, honeydew and toast.... __________________ Hugs!
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,723 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 30, 2020 at 01:52 PM #73 That's a great idea SP! __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 30, 2020 at 02:05 PM #77 Cried myself to sleep/nap Having coffee now and talking to my dad __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Jun 30, 2020 at 02:13 PM #78 Ok I named the new thread so it can’t be easily moved lol...... __________________ Hugs!
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,723 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 30, 2020 at 02:19 PM #79 I'm getting a garmin smartwatch next week instead of a fitbit. My sister has a 40% off coupon for any Garmin product. Original price is $189 __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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