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I'm looking at all the different yarns available.. omg.. I see I'm gonna someday accumulate a huge collection, so many crocheting possibilities

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Took an alprazolam cuz the coffee gave me high blood pressure. I don't want my heart valves to loosen cuz then I'll have to get open heart surgery =]
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Took an alprazolam cuz the coffee gave me high blood pressure. I don't want my heart valves to loosen cuz then I'll have to get open heart surgery =]


I think I have that same issue U do. The awareness of my heart. Sometimes I feel like I have to make it manually function which is obviously not true but it’s an anxiety thing. And I gotta check it a few times a day. Make sure it’s not skipping beats n stuff.

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If my heart stops I will be pulled out of the matrix and I’m just not ready to do that and live in a bleak, dystopian world. The cord is attached directly to my heart and spinal cord. And when I get that headache from, in the back of my neck, it’s because in the matrix I am being pumped something into my body. Idk, maybe like new blood or maybe they are pumping out something like blood and that could be why I am being harvested blood, because I am one of a kind.

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If my heart stops I will be pulled out of the matrix and I’m just not ready to do that and live in a bleak, dystopian world. The cord is attached directly to my heart and spinal cord. And when I get that headache from, in the back of my neck, it’s because in the matrix I am being pumped something into my body. Idk, maybe like new blood or maybe they are pumping out something like blood and that could be why I am being harvested blood, because I am one of a kind.

You ok????

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Yea I was temporarily entertaining those thoughts that I fight every single day. I shouldn’t entertain them tho. Just texted my T and said I’m trying to fight those thoughts.

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I think I have that same issue U do. The awareness of my heart. Sometimes I feel like I have to make it manually function which is obviously not true but it’s an anxiety thing. And I gotta check it a few times a day. Make sure it’s not skipping beats n stuff.
Yeah I think whenever I feel a "palpitation" (If that's what it really is - And not my chest muscles moving), I press certain parts of my chest in certain areas because I feel like I can control it by using the power of GOD and my MIND cuz of OCD or magical thinking..

I used to check my pulse 200-300 times a day but now I only check it 20-30 times a day. I put my finger in between my ribs or on my wrist and after a certain beat, I'm feel good enough to take my fingers off the pulse.... Sometimes it doesn't feel "just right" so I check it again (Even though I feel no palpitations - It's just how I feel about counting)..

If I live shorter, it's worth having the Vyvanse for quality of life.. I've learned not to take extra anymore though..

When I lie down, I feel my heart beating less and less until it goes "bloop".. And I think to myself "This is it.. This is how it ends"...

But I have to rest my mind often. Sometimes I feel a pressure and keep having to sit up and lie back down over and over again until I fall asleep from exhaustion - But that's only if I don't take my meds properly.

My childhood friend had open heart surgery. My mom is going to have to have it. My parents friend had a quadruple bypass. I don't think I have to worry about cholesterol though cuz I eat healthy.. It's just the rhythm... Beat beat beat.. That's all I want it to do..
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Hm I put 2 fingers on my neck to check

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Yea I was temporarily entertaining those thoughts that I fight every single day. I shouldn’t entertain them tho. Just texted my T and said I’m trying to fight those thoughts.
I feel the same way - I thought I was leaking spinal fluid last night because I cracked my neck near my brain stem and then my neck started feeling cold/chilled (My aunt had spinal fluid leaking from her nose).

I think about each heart beat that it ends and stops during the pause in a new multiverse every time.
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turns out the doc may have wrote the script wrong, he wrote it so I was re-titrating even tho I already got to 150mg.

I'll call the clinic tomorrow I guess

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turns out the doc may have wrote the script wrong, he wrote it so I was re-titrating even tho I already got to 150mg.

I'll call the clinic tomorrow I guess

Sucks falcon.....

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turns out the doc may have wrote the script wrong, he wrote it so I was re-titrating even tho I already got to 150mg.


I'll call the clinic tomorrow I guess


That’s so dangerous

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These threads are going way too fast! There's no way to keep up.

I'm getting very tan very fast with this exterior. Really digging DARK on Netflix, and the book i bought. I have a pdoc appointment on the 14th, so I'm taking a half-day. Not sleeping well anymore.

Some ladies on bumble liked me, not really getting conversations going though. I can't believe how many women I dig on that site compared to other sites. I can't get anything to stick though.
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