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The Dopamine Flux
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#301
Morning
Took my meds AND my fish oil this morning. Gonna give it to fiancé too if he will take it. Gotta get back on track with that. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#302
I was talking with my mom and she says when I get a fancy job we can move and she’ll help me get a mortgage if I let her have a room
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#303
My tongue feels bigger than normal
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#304
Good morning..
Going to talk to the owner of the restaurant today about the dish washing job. I feel like my cognition is garbage. Better make a coffee. |
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The Dopamine Flux
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#305
I think this flavor of Vape juice is making my tongue feel bigger than normal. Like an allergy. Either that or it’s cuz my mouth is dry from meds. Idk I’ve had allergic reactions to certain juices before.
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#306
I walked into the place and got so anxious. The owner walked me into the kitchen and there was so much going on that I couldn't focus and I met her husband. I forgot that people can't shake hands anymore. He said "Do you want to work today or tomorrow?" and I said "Tomorrow". So I start tomorrow at 9am. I work Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
Then I went to the table where my moms friend was and the owner was talking to someone at another table. I thought we were supposed to talk but I guess they just wanted to see what I look like or something. I drank half of the coffee and then left. It has left me with such anxiety. Idk if I can function because I feel bad about myself trying to do my last job that I quit cuz the guy that was training me was an asshole. They're supposed to be really nice people but I'm terrified right now. |
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#307
Walked to the pharmacy and picked up my meds, plus a dark chocolate bar (90% cocoa).
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The Dopamine Flux
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#308
Took an Ativan. Feeling anxiety.
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#309
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#310
Feeling rotten. Might just stay in bed forever.
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HUGS @bpcyclist
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#313
Hi friends, back at work today after two days off. Next week I'm going to have one day off but I'm going to have two half days. I really hate this furlough. I'm going to be making less than $500 a week (take home). Reminds me of when I worked in retail. I'll get a little help from unemployment but after the 24th or 25th it won't be much. Luckily I have some money saved up so I need to just not buy anything that I don't absolutely need and just try to make ends meet. I'm a little worried but hopefully all will be good. My parents might help me out a little.
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#314
I took the dose increase of Trilafon yesterday, no problems, today I'm starting the dose increase of metformin. So instead of 500mg metformin just in the morning I'll be taking another 500mg in the evenings
And I turned in the paperwork for getting the cat, will find out if it's approved in the next couple weeks __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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I hope I don't end up quitting cuz then I'll feel like a failure. I feel like I'm going down mentally and things will just get worse. I don't believe that I will live long - It's not possible with this mental state. My mind is torture. All I want is for people to stop messing with me. The torture never ends and my mental health is worse than when I was 16. I should be admitted to the hospital in comparison to back then but right now it would just make me worse. There's no going back. I think this is the end of ever getting better. All the good things about myself are gone or they were never there in the first place. It was all lies. But I'll try until I can't take anymore. |
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#316
Feels like there's something in the air in my life... something really ****ed up
I feel like the older I get, the more negative stuff I focus on and it all just piles up. I can't imagine myself being 40 and having to deal with double the amount of crap. I'm going to go on a hike with the community outreach worker on monday. I talked to him on the phone half an hour ago and vented. Idk what's wrong with me but it's bad - Or I'm just stressed out that I'm thinking worse about myself than I could. I'll try the job. If they stress me out then I'll have to quit. Things don't have to be so hard and complicated but people make it like that. I also hate when people make jokes in hell. |
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#317
You can't be happy all the time
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#318
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