Roll call 171

bpcyclist · Jul 13, 2020 at 06:55 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Just got this in the mail from my Mom.

Søren died. My betta fish. He was 4 years old.

Sorry, newtus.

bpcyclist · Jul 13, 2020 at 06:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

It's ok, they only moved me to another room. I'm in the middle bed and it's too hot.

Ah, okay. Stay cool!!

bpcyclist · Jul 13, 2020 at 06:59 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Yes added u

Okay, thanks a lot.

newtus · Jul 13, 2020 at 06:59 PM

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Okay, thanks a lot.

U need to add me back to add u to the group

Blue_Bird · Jul 13, 2020 at 07:01 PM

I've been so lazy the past couple of days. I need to get back on track with cleaning my apartment

Desoxyn · Jul 13, 2020 at 07:02 PM

Played guitar for an hour.

Spent a bit learning about neurotransmitters. I plan to learn more about the brain.

Desoxyn · Jul 13, 2020 at 07:33 PM

Yesterday I had weird hypnotic auditory hallucinations when taking a nap. People were talking and then I was listening to music coming from my brain and I'm so used to it - That by then, I was just vibing to the music - Then a small brain spasm I thought to myself.., well, time to wake up..

bpcyclist · Jul 14, 2020 at 12:13 AM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

One of the therapists at PHP tested positive for covid-19.

So no more PHP this week.

Nurse called in my clozaril, and I had labs done this morning

Yeah, it's everywhere, man.

bpcyclist · Jul 14, 2020 at 12:15 AM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

There isn't an electric outlet near my bed. My roommates are going to get mad at me because I don't feel ready to unpack and my stuff is in giant bags on the floor. I'm very depressed.

You'll get settled in, Angelique. See if they can get you an extension cord. Not sure what security level the part of the hospital is at where you are, but they may let you have one.

Hugs.

bpcyclist · Jul 14, 2020 at 12:16 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

CPS is on our *** right now. The house was dirty today. I hope they don't take the kids away.

Hugs!!!!!!!

bpcyclist · Jul 14, 2020 at 12:20 AM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I feel like my mental state isn't normal. I mean like.. There's no one else that feels or thinks the same way. I think it might be a psychosis thing.

The fact that I tripped after being diagnosed with schizophrenia and took chemicals that not many people have taken - Must have changed my brain.

I know I'm not too stupid or too smart - But there's something wrong with me.

I hope this is just a phase. I want to read but I'm either not relaxed enough or too tired to do it - Or most things that I want to do.

Every couple of weeks or months, it's like I'm a completely different person - And I forget what happened to how I felt previously.

I don't know if anyone that posts here - Or even my family are in all the same state - Or if I'm in a transition to becoming like everyone else and I've missed the whole point all of my life.

Des, I am 30 years older than you but you really remind me a lot of me at that age. I took absolutely everything I could possibly find to try to help myself. In retrospect, I am pretty sure this was an error for me. I wonder how you might feel if you could reduce the number of things you are taking, you know? It's just a buncha stuff.

Hugs!!!!!!

Erti · Jul 14, 2020 at 12:25 AM

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Hugs!!!!!!!

we live in a 3 bedroom one bath 1003 sq ft downhouse. There's 2 dogs, a cat. 4 adults and 3 kids. keeping up with everything is hard. especially when all the adults in the house have mental and psychical health problems. They caught us on a bad day. I worry. I know if they do take the kids they'll be with their grandmother. Just ****** situation. their mom is having a hard time keeping a job due to severe ptsd and depression with possible borderline. The kids father being bipolar with PTSD... me with schizophrenia and ptsd... and my friends cousin who has depression and has physical health problems where he can't do or refuses to do cleaning on his own.

Desoxyn · Jul 14, 2020 at 12:41 AM

I really will try to survive

Desoxyn · Jul 14, 2020 at 02:25 AM

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newtus · Jul 14, 2020 at 03:18 AM

I can’t sleep whatsoever

newtus · Jul 14, 2020 at 09:07 AM

Yet again, problems with the house. So not doing with my mom. We didn’t have an argument or anything. She thinks we can’t pay 1400. That’s fine, we probably can’t. So I left it at that.

So MAYBE

if everything falls in the right places, my dad said we can move on his land. We gotta pay for own septic/water system and electricity hook up tho. Already the electric company said within a certain amount of ft, hookup is free. But we will have to probably pay 6k at the most to pay for septic system. Probably not even that. Maybe 3k.

And then I thought just move a mobile home on the property. Cuz a good one new would cost like 80k for a 2k sq ft 4 bdrm/2 bath (for example).

Then we wouldn’t have to pay for land or pay rent I don’t think. And the mortgage would be like 300-500 a month. Or so. Which is doable. Fiancé would be a few miles from work. I’d have more job opportunities. He would too. But be back to my old doctors maybe. But I’d keep my therapist through video chat since she does that now. Hm. I don’t think we’d have to pay property taxes either since it’s my dads property but we can chip in, of course. I’d be closer to him. The plot of land has its own address since it’s technically separate, my dad just owns it too and it’s right next to his. Lots of room for the dogs. More privacy.

I feel like this would be a win/win situation and a lot less money upfront AND down the line.

Idk. What do u guys think?

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 14, 2020 at 09:12 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Yet again, problems with the house. So not doing with my mom. We didn’t have an argument or anything. She thinks we can’t pay 1400. That’s fine, we probably can’t. So I left it at that.

So MAYBE

if everything falls in the right places, my dad said we can move on his land. We gotta pay for own septic/water system and electricity hook up tho. Already the electric company said within a certain amount of ft, hookup is free. But we will have to probably pay 6k at the most to pay for septic system. Probably not even that. Maybe 3k.

And then I thought just move a mobile home on the property. Cuz a good one new would cost like 80k for a 2k sq ft 4 bdrm/2 bath (for example).

Then we wouldn’t have to pay for land or pay rent I don’t think. And the mortgage would be like 300-500 a month. Or so. Which is doable. Fiancé would be a few miles from work. I’d have more job opportunities. He would too. But be back to my old doctors maybe. But I’d keep my therapist through video chat since she does that now. Hm. I don’t think we’d have to pay property taxes either since it’s my dads property but we can chip in, of course. I’d be closer to him. The plot of land has its own address since it’s technically separate, my dad just owns it too and it’s right next to his. Lots of room for the dogs. More privacy.

I feel like this would be a win/win situation and a lot less money upfront AND down the line.

Idk. What do u guys think?

Sounds good but some of that will be cash up front like the septic....I don’t think you can build that into a loan.....

newtus · Jul 14, 2020 at 09:15 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Sounds good but some of that will be cash up front like the septic....I don’t think you can build that into a loan.....

I was sorta thinking maybe the money I get from schools loans idk either that or I will have to put the pedal to the metal with getting a job. Which I think I may have secured one almost. One of them followed up with me yesterday.

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 14, 2020 at 09:22 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I was sorta thinking maybe the money I get from schools loans idk either that or I will have to put the pedal to the metal with getting a job. Which I think I may have secured one almost. One of them followed up with me yesterday.

Can you even get school loans if you owe the school money? I’m not so sure about that. As far as a job it takes a while to save 6k. Wondering if you can do this next year..?

newtus · Jul 14, 2020 at 09:23 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Can you even get school loans if you owe the school money? I’m not so sure about that. As far as a job it takes a while to save 6k. Wondering if you can do this next year..?

No which is why I’m gonna pay it off. 1500 vs 6k. Yea I’ll pay that off. 500 at a time.

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