Roll Call 172

newtus · Jul 21, 2020 at 02:19 PM

Just got back from therapy. Another really, really good productive session! There’s only been a handful of those.

Desoxyn · Jul 21, 2020 at 02:24 PM

Had a really sedating sleep. I felt like my bed was a black hole. Vyvanse helps my brain go faster than the speed of light so I managed to escape again from my bed.

I'm gonna try practicing mindfulness as well cuz I'm quite depressed.

Thinking of microdosing a psychedelic 2-3 days a week and taking a dissociative every 2 weeks.

Gonna drink a coffee and figure this out. Depersonalization isn't too bad. I had it last night - Didn't get derealization. Sleep helps.

Desoxyn · Jul 21, 2020 at 02:29 PM

Lion's Main mushrooms are pretty interesting as well. It's cognitive enhancing mushroom that doesn't make you trip. Some vendors mix it with extreme low dose of psilocys cubensis.

Blue_Bird · Jul 21, 2020 at 03:05 PM

Ordered a replacement ID with my new address on it so I'll be able to vote in November.

newtus · Jul 21, 2020 at 03:05 PM

Oh shyt. I forgot about that. Omg.

falcon09 · Jul 21, 2020 at 03:09 PM

this clozaril makes me so tired ugh

anxiety is better though

cogladaid · Jul 21, 2020 at 03:32 PM

Less than ten minutes until my exam!

See you guys on the other side.

Erti · Jul 21, 2020 at 04:19 PM

Uncertainty for the next few days. Homelessness, wondering if we have enough for Food. Money for basic needs. It’s scary

newtus · Jul 21, 2020 at 04:40 PM

Omg no emails today and it’s Tuesday. Antici-paaaayaaay-tion.

bpcyclist · 08:35 PM

[QUOTE=Erti;6894591]Uncertainty for the next few days. Homelessness, wondering if we have enough for Food. Money for basic needs. It’s scary[/QUOT

Erti, hugs!!!

Desoxyn · Jul 21, 2020 at 04:48 PM

I haven't checked my pulse in a long time *checks*.. 71bpm...

It is beating nicely. I have tamed it. And I still get to use a stimulant.

Before atenolol, I used to lie down on the floor all the time and check my pulse because the slower beating made my OCD go away - But I had to be constantly checking my pulse.. and when I wasn't checking, I had anxiety about checking.

I told my doctor that I'll stay on the atenolol for another year or so. He said that I can go off of it any time I want and if it doesn't work, just go back on it.

I have so much to write about and so much to do but I have to chose what to do with my time wisely.

I'm gonna focus on mysticism, spirituality, philosophy and meditation while listening to music. I want to keep a balance of that and amateur scientific research and logic (Cuz I'm out of the matrix now).

I bought 1-2 months worth of medicinal fungi.

Desoxyn · Jul 21, 2020 at 04:51 PM

I'm gonna go for a hike. The coffee helped with my depression.

Stimulants are my love.

newtus · Jul 21, 2020 at 04:58 PM

I’m feeling good today, too.

cogladaid · Jul 21, 2020 at 05:58 PM

Exam went well. Ate tacos. Going to be impatiently waiting for my exam mark.

English exam on Friday! Gotta start reviewing for that.

Blue_Bird · Jul 21, 2020 at 06:07 PM

I think I'm going to stop the metformin. I don't think it's making much of a difference and also the pills are so big every time I swallow them I panic and think I'll choke

Blue_Bird · Jul 21, 2020 at 06:13 PM

Can you crush metformin? I read that you can't crush the extended release version but I'm on the regular version

Desoxyn · Jul 21, 2020 at 06:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I think I'm going to stop the metformin. I don't think it's making much of a difference and also the pills are so big every time I swallow them I panic and think I'll choke

No. Take. Give them to me then! It's an anti-aging/anti-cancer drug. Everyone should be taking it =/

Desoxyn · Jul 21, 2020 at 06:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Can you crush metformin? I read that you can't crush the extended release version but I'm on the regular version

"Riomet" is an option if you can't swallow. It's a 500mg/5ml solution that tastes nice. Ask doctor.

Blue_Bird · Jul 21, 2020 at 06:22 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

"Riomet" is an option if you can't swallow. It's a 500mg/5ml solution that tastes nice. Ask doctor.

My insurance doesn't cover the liquid forms

Desoxyn · Jul 21, 2020 at 06:26 PM

Guys.. I'm feeling sooooo great. I went for 1-2 hour hike (Idk I didn't notice the time). Listening to music.

Eventually I wasn't sure where I was so I went on a cut off and just started running down a hill for 5 minutes. I was also afraid of bears - But I passed two people coming towards me so that helped.

I came back and checked my heart rate - While standing up, it was 143bpm and sitting down it was 114bpm. Now it's 93bpm.

I took another shower. Everything around me is clean and organized.

I had thoughts to write down. There's so much thoughts in my head and I can't organize all of them - I have to write everything down.

I'm thinking of reading or researching things now.

I might go for a hike every alone at least twice a week - Cuz I can't be around my mom and her friends anymore - They're too dramatic.

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 02:19 PM #41 Just got back from therapy. Another really, really good productive session! There’s only been a handful of those. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,980 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,908 hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 02:29 PM #43 Lion's Main mushrooms are pretty interesting as well. It's cognitive enhancing mushroom that doesn't make you trip. Some vendors mix it with extreme low dose of psilocys cubensis.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,723 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 03:05 PM #44 Ordered a replacement ID with my new address on it so I'll be able to vote in November. __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 03:05 PM #45 Oh shyt. I forgot about that. Omg. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 04:19 PM #48 Uncertainty for the next few days. Homelessness, wondering if we have enough for Food. Money for basic needs. It’s scary
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 04:40 PM #49 Omg no emails today and it’s Tuesday. Antici-paaaayaaay-tion. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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bpcyclist Legendary Member Since Sep 2019 Location: Portland Posts: 12,681 (SuperPoster!) 4 40.2k hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 04:40 PM #50 [QUOTE=Erti;6894591]Uncertainty for the next few days. Homelessness, wondering if we have enough for Food. Money for basic needs. It’s scary[/QUOT Erti, hugs!!! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield Last edited by bpcyclist; Jul 21, 2020 at 08:35 PM..
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,980 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,908 hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 04:51 PM #52 I'm gonna go for a hike. The coffee helped with my depression. Stimulants are my love.
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 04:58 PM #53 I’m feeling good today, too. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Jul 21, 2020 at 05:58 PM #54 Exam went well. Ate tacos. Going to be impatiently waiting for my exam mark. English exam on Friday! Gotta start reviewing for that.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,723 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jul 21, 2020 at 06:13 PM #56 Can you crush metformin? I read that you can't crush the extended release version but I'm on the regular version __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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