Roll Call 175

Angelique67 · Oct 10, 2020 at 03:23 PM

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I fixed my painting that was a failure yesterday. I think it looks okay now

Tapatalk is still doing that thing where it gives me a broken outline of a frame. @Blue_Bird found a way to post images though, so maybe she'll chime in.

Angelique67 · Oct 10, 2020 at 03:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Dissociating during a panic attack

Blue_Bird · Oct 10, 2020 at 03:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

Tapatalk is still doing that thing where it gives me a broken outline of a frame. @Blue_Bird found a way to post images though, so maybe she'll chime in.

I use the add attachment feature on the website

Blue_Bird · Oct 10, 2020 at 03:38 PM

I don't use tapatalk anymore though so I don't know how that particular app works

Blue_Bird · Oct 10, 2020 at 04:44 PM

Had to take a klonopin

Desoxyn · Oct 10, 2020 at 05:59 PM

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Had to take a klonopin

I'm not sure if the dissociation goes away over time after an increased dose of SSRI - You should ask your prescriber about that..

*hugs*

Blue_Bird · Oct 10, 2020 at 06:00 PM

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I'm not sure if the dissociation goes away over time after an increased dose of SSRI - You should ask your prescriber about that..

*hugs*

Thanks

I'll see what she says next time I see her

Blue_Bird · 08:20 PM

I talked to my sister on the phone for awhile tonight, helped. She reassured me again that my apartment is very clean and that I'm doing a good job with it. Also playing Animal Crossing helped

She's gonna give me a bottle of Valentino perfume (my sister). And I'm getting a round brush and heat protectant spray when I go to Walmart so I can blow dry my hair. I feel really girly lol I don't typically do stuff like hair and makeup, etc.

WastingAsparagus · Oct 10, 2020 at 08:45 PM

Was going to do an online meetup today, but I did not end up doing it. I was a little anxious today. Not bad, but a little bit.

bpcyclist · Oct 10, 2020 at 09:06 PM

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Substance craving trigger.

Possible trigger:

And I want a cigarette. My copd is bad because I can't leave the room and walk around. If I start smoking again I won't live much longer. But if I'm gonna die horribly maybe I should do it now when I'm not that old instead of hanging on until I'm old and hooked up to an iron lung. I want to go home and have a rum and Coke, and look at and touch my favorite things. And watch tv with the sound on. And order all kinds of snacks from Peapod. I want ice cream, and Cheetos, and potato chips, lots of different kinds of candy and drinks. I want everything. I want to roll a few cigarettes and smoke for a few hours. I feel sure that if I went back home I could smoke without falling back into it regularly. I miss everything about smoking. Even hand rolling my smokes. Hated doing it when I still smoked. I need an empty cig box with my rollie's in it. Oh my g, my menthol tobacco is so good!

When I first started vaping it was magical how each time I lit a smoke it tasted bitter and poisonous. It kept me from going back to cigarettes. But this past year I had a cigarette and it tasted like they used to taste, and I really enjoyed it.

Right now I'd be happy to vape but first I'd like to smoke some tobacco.

Addiction, my woman. Euphoric recall. Be strong.

Hugs!

bpcyclist · Oct 10, 2020 at 09:08 PM

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Originally Posted by 12AM

Been up all night. Restless legs and racing thoughts. I’m sick with this pandemic.

me, 2! Hugs!!

WastingAsparagus · Oct 10, 2020 at 09:12 PM

I am realizing that I am succeeding in certain ways. I haven't thought about bad things like dropping out of school lately, so that's good. I also haven't had impulsivity lately. Wow is that a relief. I am (kind of) able to live life.

Blue_Bird · Oct 10, 2020 at 09:28 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I am realizing that I am succeeding in certain ways. I haven't thought about bad things like dropping out of school lately, so that's good. I also haven't had impulsivity lately. Wow is that a relief. I am (kind of) able to live life.

That's great!

Blue_Bird · 10:07 PM

I'm dyeing my hair a deep red/fuchsia, I hope it doesn't cause my bathroom to look like a murder scene. I've had that happen before lol

I think I might do my walmart trip tomorrow. I was gonna wait till Monday but why not go tomorrow? I have nothing else going on. I feel hyped up anyway and will probably be up all night

Angelique67 · Oct 10, 2020 at 10:33 PM

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I use the add attachment feature on the website

Oh, that sounds easy! I'm pretty sure I have no issues posting images too, from within Tapatalk.

Angelique67 · Oct 10, 2020 at 10:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Had to take a klonopin

Angelique67 · Oct 10, 2020 at 10:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I'm dyeing my hair a deep red/fuchsia, I hope it doesn't cause my bathroom to look like a murder scene. I've had that happen before lol

I think I might do my walmart trip tomorrow. I was gonna wait till Monday but why not go tomorrow? I have nothing else going on. I feel hyped up anyway and will probably be up all night

Post pictures please!

WastingAsparagus · Oct 11, 2020 at 08:56 AM

Anyone else ever noticed someone else's anxiety? I noticed when my mom and I went to the grocery store the other day she was like super nervous. Walking around like super fast and stuff. I don't blame her for it because she hadn't been there for a while due to the pandemic. I sometimes feel like I can sense other people's emotions pretty easily.

Blue_Bird · Oct 11, 2020 at 10:04 AM

So I was on the bus, and it gets halfway into downtown and then the driver asked if anyone was going to Walmart, because they’re closed today due to electrical problems from the storm the other night. So I get off, walk to CVS, grab a few things, and had to walk all the way back. I’m more mad that I put money in the fare box and yet didn’t find that out until downtown that they’re closed. So that’s a wasted $1.50. I know it’s not much but I set aside a certain amount each month for bus fare and it adds up over time.

Anyway, I was able to get a few things at CVS. A round brush, eyeliner, eyeshadow, lipstick , and hair dye. I’ll still need to go to Walmart at some point when their electricity is fixed to get the heat protectant for my hair for when I blow dry it. Sorry, this is kind of a rambling post.

Blue_Bird · Oct 11, 2020 at 11:27 AM

Oh yeah, CVS sells masks now. At least, the one by me does. They have a big selection. I'll definitely go there when I need a new mask

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,740 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Oct 10, 2020 at 03:38 PM #544 I don't use tapatalk anymore though so I don't know how that particular app works __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,740 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Oct 10, 2020 at 04:44 PM #545 Had to take a klonopin __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Oct 10, 2020 at 08:45 PM #549 Was going to do an online meetup today, but I did not end up doing it. I was a little anxious today. Not bad, but a little bit. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Oct 10, 2020 at 09:12 PM #552 I am realizing that I am succeeding in certain ways. I haven't thought about bad things like dropping out of school lately, so that's good. I also haven't had impulsivity lately. Wow is that a relief. I am (kind of) able to live life. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,740 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Oct 11, 2020 at 11:27 AM #560 Oh yeah, CVS sells masks now. At least, the one by me does. They have a big selection. I'll definitely go there when I need a new mask __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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