FAQ/Help |
Calendar |
Search |
Elder
puzzclar
has no updates.
Member Since: Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
Posts: 5,621
101 hugs
given |
#1
My anxiety is higher, and I've already had sui thoughts in the past 24 hours. Then you throw in grad school and a job that is in limbo. Which has led to higher anxiety enough where my focus is out the window.
I have already texted a counselor. I feel like the world is closing in on me. keeping me isolated. I've tried meditation but then my mind wandered too much. I have been up since 5 and it's almost 9. I have a school phone call in 2 hours. and I will hope to hear back from my boss's boss about what to do there. I'm in limbo. and I hate it!!!! And people expect me to study?! I have so much to do, I"m overwhelmed. I'm trying to take it two assignments at a time but that's not working. I have had thoughts of withdrawing from the term. but I can't do that. Did I mention I hate HATE being in limbo? |
Reply With Quote |
downandlonely, hvert, MickeyCheeky, Travelinglady
|
Elder
puzzclar
has no updates.
Member Since: Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
Posts: 5,621
101 hugs
given |
#2
Limbo is a great plat to be. Well, now it is.
I have learned a lot about me since this morning. I started off the day thinking I needed to change Master's programs. I made some calls and found out that I need to stay in this term to keep my loan status. I emailed my mentor and the one above her. I got my emotions out. Here is what I discovered 1, confidence is a big part of the solution for me 2, I can learn what I need to, to become stronger mentally. 3, I am NOT my illness 4, I am in control, not fear 5, watching less TV is helpful 6 exercise is very important for mental health 7, I have more tools to use, after finding an article about self-confidence on Zen Habits 8, I have enough time 9, both programs will work for what I want to do! 10, I need to relax and trust in my abilities and in God It's been a big and eventful day. And I almost submitted an application for a new job. Believing that it would lead me closer to what is best for me. I started the day with a question. And ended the day with more introspection and thought in a while. |
Reply With Quote |
MickeyCheeky, Travelinglady
|
MickeyCheeky
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Travelinglady
is feeling tired.
Member Since: Sep 2010
Location: North Carolina
Posts: 47,786
(SuperPoster!)
22.8k hugs
given |
#3
Good for you! I think folks understand.
|
Reply With Quote |
Legendary
downandlonely
has no updates.
Member Since: Mar 2018
Location: United States
Posts: 10,760
(SuperPoster!)
10.6k hugs
given |
#4
Sounds like your day has improved. Glad you are feeling better.
|
Reply With Quote |
Elder
puzzclar
has no updates.
Member Since: Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
Posts: 5,621
101 hugs
given |
#5
And then I get an email... cue scary music...
The supervisor over the program suggested a NON-clinical program. What does she think? Can I handle all of this? IS she Gatekeeping me!!! I"m really low right now, not as low as I have been. I need exercise. but will it be sunny enough to go out for a bit? Being outside would help. I think I need too. The last week I spent 2 hours and 30 minutes walking!!! and it did help some. But I have a lot to do today, before tomorrow's meeting with my mentor. Do I have enough time to not?? |
Reply With Quote |