Okay, so I was writing this in 1st period at about 9am, and now it's 2:30..so yeah..

I'd been pondering some things..just a whole bunch of unanswered questions..

Why is it so much easier to take out all the hatred and hurt on my body? Why is it so much harder to show how I really feel? Why can't I just let it all go for once, and let the tears stream down my face? What has happened in the past 5 years that I can stop the urge to cry and relieve some pain, better than hurting my body and let these feelings wait for another day, just as it starts again? Ugh..nevermind..

One other thing is, the next time I start to ask myself why I'd want to quit, the first question should be why NOT? Seems the easier way around..

K

[kax25]

((((k)))))
hey K i dont think we've really talked but i also find myself thinking about those same questions. im sorry i cant answer any of them for you but i just want you to know you're not alone when it comes to thinking about them.

max

[Rapunzel]

Physical pain is easier to deal with than emotional pain. It's tangible, you can look at it and see it and understand it. Especially if people have invalidated your emotions time and time again, it feels like what you feel is wrong or unacceptable somehow, but it's still how you feel. If you transform it into something physical, then you have proof that you hurt. But it doesn't work for long. Eventually the emotions catch up with you anyway.