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4 days. had a violent reactions with my lithuim so idk how this will last until I see my pdoc

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0. I have needed this for so long.

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I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. If you need to talk I'm available.


:hug:

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0 days This last week or so have been really hard on me.

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You will be in my thoughts and prayers... I offer you a gentle hug and a soft embrace... Please Be Safe!

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2 days... I don't think I can do this... I really really feel like I need to SH right now... and it's the middle of the night here, so there's really nobody, except one person that I could text irl... if I could get up the nerve to text him...

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Way to go... High Fives...

I know it is hard. We believe in you...

If you ever want to talk I'm here for you.

Big Hug...

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SHed today, another ER visit... but feeling calmer now. Saw pdoc, and left there a mess... I was able to say some of the stuff I had wanted to say, but nothing really got done. Kinda "wait and see, come back in 2 weeks" mentality... my pain doc adjusted my gabapentin ER about 8 or 9 days ago, to help with anxiety... it's not helping yet... really hoping to sleep well tonight... I need it.

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5 days. if I didn't run out of room from my shoulder to my wrist, I would continue. these days, its all I think about

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I suppose I've done ok. I'm back to 0 this morning, but I hadn't SH'D in a week, not since my birthday. I'm just feeling so stressed and overwhelmed and guilty about everything.

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(((((PsychNitrous)))))

A week was a really good job under very challenging circumstances. You can start another good run!

(((((PsychNitrous)))))

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It sucks trying to hide SH wounds in the summer

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Yes, It does. I finally stopped and let it just go. Some people stop and ask me, other look but I know these are battle scars. I am in a war with myself. Sometimes I win and sometimes I lose but I am not afraid to show others and share with others the battles I am facing.

My arms are the worst but that doesn't stop me. If someone gets rude I usually say "I was in a life and death struggle with some fairies and these are the wounds of battle. I walk with my head up and my eyes forward. In the end, it is really your call. Are you going to let people determine your self-worth or will you determine that for yourself?

I know this is not easy. If you ever want to talk feel free to PM me. I am here often and I will respond to you as soon as possible.

Please, Be Safe!

Amanda

Re: It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part V!
 

This exact thing is a big motivator for me to not start SHing again. I know how uncomfortable and self-conscience this can make you feel. (((hugs)))

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The more I think about it now, it was so very impulsive today. I know it was early in the morning and I wasn't completely awake, but as the day is passing I'm having a harder time remembering doing anything.

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6 days, I'm setting a short goal for 30 days and a long goal for 365 days

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I'm cheering for you... You can do this... High Fives...

and a :hug: