It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part V!

PsychNitrous · Sep 02, 2017 at 03:34 PM

3 days now, I think the worst of my depression is starting to lift. But to a degree I'm not really sure I can count today or yesterday. Instead of physically SH'ing, I've been going a little overboard with drugs, and not even the ones I usually use.

PointOfNoReturn · Sep 03, 2017 at 03:30 PM

99 days...

03/09/17

Diai · Sep 04, 2017 at 01:12 AM

7 days. Longest streak in more than one month, proud!

Sep 04, 2017 at 08:55 AM

12 weeks

childofchaos831 · Sep 04, 2017 at 09:59 AM

27 days... I dunno, this is weird.

Bill3 · Sep 04, 2017 at 11:23 AM

Congratulations childofchaos831!

What do you find helps you keep going?

Fizzyo · Sep 04, 2017 at 02:47 PM

Congratulations PointOfNoReturn that's really good work.

Fizzyo · Sep 04, 2017 at 02:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Diai

7 days. Longest streak in more than one month, proud!

Good work Diai, I hope you can be at least a bit proud of yourself.
You deserve to be.
Best wishes as you try to make it 8.

Fizzyo · Sep 04, 2017 at 02:52 PM

Good job scaredandconfused!
That's a great achievement.

Fizzyo · Sep 04, 2017 at 02:54 PM

Currently 0 but still avoiding the worst behaviours.
I need to get back on track but feeling ambivalent. Hmmm

childofchaos831 · Sep 04, 2017 at 11:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Congratulations childofchaos831!

What do you find helps you keep going?

For a couple weeks, mom was okay to be around. Today has been awful. I can't keep living in this house, but I have nowhere else to go. I was starting to have hope that I could do it, could make it until I was able to move, I'm losing that now.

PsychNitrous · Sep 05, 2017 at 12:37 PM

I'm closing in on a week. I really want to hurt myself today, but I don't want to get out of bed and my tools are in the living room.

childofchaos831 · Sep 05, 2017 at 03:22 PM

0 days.

I don't feel as out of control as I did last night. And I managed to not do anything last night, cuz I would have probably gone too far.

So, here we go, gonna try to get back to where I was. But I think I will start with just a week as the goal.

Bill3 · Sep 05, 2017 at 04:10 PM

You did well childofchaos831 to stay safe last night and for several weeks before that. Good job!

You can start another good run. Hang in there!

childofchaos831 · Sep 05, 2017 at 07:28 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bill3

You did well childofchaos831 to stay safe last night and for several weeks before that. Good job!

You can start another good run. Hang in there!

I always tell other people that the time they accumulate doesnt go away because they slip up, whether with SH or using. Learning takes place during those periods that helps later on. But when it comes to myself, it's hard to not beat myself up, and talk down on myself, for the same slip ups. Right now, I am trying to just be gentle, and keep moving.

I see T tomorrow, unless her office is still messed up. It got flooded with some of the rain from Harvey (which I'm trying to picture cuz she's on the 3rd floor, but I'm assuming the ceiling leaked or something). I also have some medical stuff that is stressing me cuz Thursday I'm gonna need an IV, and I don't like the looks I get with it...

Bill3 · Sep 05, 2017 at 08:07 PM

Good job being gentle with yourself!

I'm really sorry that you were affected by Harvey.

How are you doing now?

I hope that all goes well tomorrow. Hang in there!

childofchaos831 · Sep 05, 2017 at 10:37 PM

Mostly, we just got rain here. Far enough inland for nothing too bad. I have my T appt and then a CT scan scheduled tomorrow. My ear has been feeling weird, tho. Trying to decide if I should call my ENT or not... I don't want to go in and have in be nothing, but I don't want to ignore it if it is something. Gonna try cleaning it out before I go to bed and see how it is tomorrow, I think. I've got a condition with my ears that will eventually make me deaf, but the ENT us doing what they can to prolong my hearing for as long as they can. So far, I'm still right around normal, tho at one point I needed hearing aids. Treatment got my hearing back.

4428247 · Sep 05, 2017 at 11:59 PM

66 days now

Bill3 · Sep 06, 2017 at 12:55 AM

Congratulations 4428247!

What helps you stay away from SI?

4428247 · Sep 06, 2017 at 11:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Congratulations 4428247!

What helps you stay away from SI?

I honestly don't know. I've had a long stretch before and the urges just stop for a period. I have very little control over urges, so it's odd

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PsychNitrous Poohbah Member Since Feb 2016 Location: At Home Posts: 1,398 8 106 hugs given	Sep 02, 2017 at 03:34 PM #761 3 days now, I think the worst of my depression is starting to lift. But to a degree I'm not really sure I can count today or yesterday. Instead of physically SH'ing, I've been going a little overboard with drugs, and not even the ones I usually use.

PointOfNoReturn Member Member Since Feb 2016 Location: Secret Posts: 150 8 12 hugs given	Sep 03, 2017 at 03:30 PM #762 99 days... 03/09/17 __________________ Isolated, I succumb to the weight of the world Separated, I fall from the sky

Diai Junior Member Member Since Apr 2017 Location: Somewhere Posts: 19 7 12 hugs given	Sep 04, 2017 at 01:12 AM #763 7 days. Longest streak in more than one month, proud! __________________ You are more than the mistakes you've made -D.

Anonymous55397 Guest Posts: n/a	Sep 04, 2017 at 08:55 AM #764 12 weeks

childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 7 15 hugs given	Sep 04, 2017 at 09:59 AM #765 27 days... I dunno, this is weird. __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 04, 2017 at 11:23 AM #766 Congratulations childofchaos831! What do you find helps you keep going?

Fizzyo Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2015 Location: UK Posts: 3,282 9 3,980 hugs given	Sep 04, 2017 at 02:47 PM #767 Congratulations PointOfNoReturn that's really good work. __________________ We're people first, anything else is secondary.

Fizzyo Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2015 Location: UK Posts: 3,282 9 3,980 hugs given	Sep 04, 2017 at 02:52 PM #769 Good job scaredandconfused! That's a great achievement. __________________ We're people first, anything else is secondary.

Fizzyo Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2015 Location: UK Posts: 3,282 9 3,980 hugs given	Sep 04, 2017 at 02:54 PM #770 Currently 0 but still avoiding the worst behaviours. I need to get back on track but feeling ambivalent. Hmmm __________________ We're people first, anything else is secondary.

PsychNitrous Poohbah Member Since Feb 2016 Location: At Home Posts: 1,398 8 106 hugs given	Sep 05, 2017 at 12:37 PM #772 I'm closing in on a week. I really want to hurt myself today, but I don't want to get out of bed and my tools are in the living room.

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 05, 2017 at 04:10 PM #774 You did well childofchaos831 to stay safe last night and for several weeks before that. Good job! You can start another good run. Hang in there!

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 05, 2017 at 08:07 PM #776 Good job being gentle with yourself! I'm really sorry that you were affected by Harvey. How are you doing now? I hope that all goes well tomorrow. Hang in there!

4428247 Member Member Since May 2017 Location: Fort Dix Posts: 274 6 59 hugs given	Sep 05, 2017 at 11:59 PM #778 66 days now __________________ ---- I am not throwing away my shot Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, Self-Harm, ADHD-Inattentive, Dermatillomania

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 06, 2017 at 12:55 AM #779 Congratulations 4428247! What helps you stay away from SI?