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My roommate says she wants to get high to get through the days. I said I understand. But I couldn't say anything further. Every night and morning and afternoon I think about self harming. Just to feel better, or to stop everything. I need to be wounded. I am so done with life. If I don't find a new opportunity, what's the point?

I am a failure. And success is never enough.
For me, addiction and self harm are very much the same thing. Both change how I feel, the current state in my brain. I am very much where you are... I wonder tho, instead of "finding" a new opportunity, what about "creating" one? We are truly the only ones who will fight for us... no one else can really be depended on completely... the point, for me, is to show myself that I am NOT a failure and that I am worth fighting for.
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Today could have been one, but I found the last bandaid in the house.
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I am sorry you are struggling. Just don't give up. You can beat this. It isn't easy but it is possible.

I offer you a gentle hug and a soft embrace. Please be safe! I am available if you want to contact me...
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23 hours... don't quite think I'm going to make it to a day.
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23 hours... don't quite think I'm going to make it to a day.
Do you want to talk? This is very hard to beat without help...

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It would seem it's impossible to beat without help. But that's ok. I accepted that a long time ago.
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It would seem it's impossible to beat without help. But that's ok. I accepted that a long time ago.
Can you see that is an issue? You have accepted something that should not be accepted. You can beat this. Do you want to beat this? I would understand if you said "no." I was there. I for a long time like what I was doing. It took others to help me see I could beat this and so can you.

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I don't like it but I'm not in a place where I could stop. I know it's wrong to accept but for now it's easier to do that than trying to stop and failing repeatedly.
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I don't like it but I'm not in a place where I could stop. I know it's wrong to accept but for now it's easier to do that than trying to stop and failing repeatedly.
I understand. It is very sad but I know the story. Try to be safe...
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