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Please be gentle with yourself... one time of SI does not have to turn into a complete relapse...

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Please be gentle with yourself... one time of SI does not have to turn into a complete relapse...
I know. Thank you for the words of encouragement. I'm working to fight it. Still manic. Majoring in clinical psychology has some advantages; that night, the mania overruled logic, but I can kind of monitor my behavior.

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I know. Thank you for the words of encouragement. I'm working to fight it. Still manic. Majoring in clinical psychology has some advantages; that night, the mania overruled logic, but I can kind of monitor my behavior.

Thank you again.
I agree, I majored in psych at University, but never finished. About to finish an Associates in social work... definitely makes it different...

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2 days... I am really really urgy right now... in physical pain, been arguing with mom all weekend, haven't seen my friends since Friday, wanting to get drunk and/or SI... starting to feel more su also... I am feeling overwhelmed and I need a break, I don't know what to do...

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Haven't posted much here lately as I'm not doing so good at trying to stop. I know that I need to quit, it's getting bad. I hope I can stop one day but for now a big fat zero.

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Last time was this evening... pretty much as soon as we got home... I rescheduled my T appt tomorrow for later in the week (will get exact day tomorrow, when she can look at her work computer) because I know I need to rest... I am so tired, and I think it's a depressed/fibro tired more than anything. Hoping to go to bed soon...

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It's been 4 days since I last hurt myself
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I broke a good run this morning, I don't even remember how long it's been since the last time. But I can feel that downward pull already, and I'm just so sick of going there.
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Just dropping by, always good to find you in here, Bill3.

So, it was a mother's day a short while ago? I didn't notice that. If you're a boy or a girl, it doesn't matter. How you got your life f-ed up, how dysfunctional your family is, these have nothing to do with what I'm going to post here. From my own experience, I have tried or I went through a little, sorta cathartic moments that made me realize what a mother/parenthood should've been in my life, I still hate her. Before you think along with me, *think/fill in "the best part about your parents" here*, I can't even do that right now even if I tried.

You know, we sometimes hear that kids self-harm just to get attention. I don't believe in none of the bull crap. I won't hear of it even if you claim that is why you do it. I'm not saying this to change anyone's minds, logically speaking, the actual harming will cause cascade reaction in emotional harm in everyone involved, I'd ignore that though.

"No, that's not what I'm doing....", JADE would work, justify, argue, defend and explain to your self to the best of your ability, you needn't to be perfect. It's perfectly understandable that you'd be able/unable to say NO, smart parents would know that that is part of the reason, that's something that should be understood without a single word/blame uttered from their ugly mouths/faces.

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I'm doing the best I can at this point... not coping well at all... the last time I SIed wasn't entirely SI, and it scared me after the fact... I see my T tomorrow, I'm just so tired at this point.

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Have a good talk about it with t tomorrow.
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Good job everyone. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I offer everyone a gentle hug and a soft embrace. Be Safe!

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