It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part W!!

SlumberKitty · Aug 29, 2018 at 10:16 AM

Day 7. Wow, one whole week.

Bill3 · Aug 29, 2018 at 02:10 PM

Congratulations SlumberKitty!

SlumberKitty · Aug 31, 2018 at 03:07 PM

9 days....I feel like an episode is coming but I'm trying to distract myself, focus on other stuff, and basically not give in to it.

Bill3 · Aug 31, 2018 at 11:08 PM

Nicely done SlumberKitty!

What helps best for not giving in?

SlumberKitty · Sep 01, 2018 at 07:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Nicely done SlumberKitty!

What helps best for not giving in?

Emailing my T--but that won't be an option for much longer. Playing with my dog or snuggling with my cat. Doing artwork. Taking a walk. Listening to music that's positive and upbeat. Acknowledging what I want to do usually helps me not doing it whereas suppressing it makes it worse. Thinking about the damage I'll do. All of these things help to varying degrees at different times.

SlumberKitty · Sep 01, 2018 at 07:53 PM

Made it to day 10. The wanting to has died down a bit.

Bill3 · Sep 01, 2018 at 09:54 PM

Well done SlumberKitty!

You have a lot of helpful tools and insight. That's great!

SlumberKitty · Sep 04, 2018 at 03:08 PM

Back to zero. It's okay. I made it 12 days. I know today and tomorrow are going to be rough. I just need to remember not to be too rough on myself.

Bill3 · Sep 04, 2018 at 04:08 PM

Twelve days is a fine achievement! Good job!

You can start another good run!

What will make today and tomorrow especially tough?

SlumberKitty · Sep 04, 2018 at 04:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Twelve days is a fine achievement! Good job!

You can start another good run!

What will make today and tomorrow especially tough?

Tomorrow I say goodbye via phone to my therapist of 10 years. She got MS and can't see me (or any clients) anymore. She allowed phone contact this Summer so I could find a new T which I have, so now it is time to say goodbye. This T let me email her between sessions which my new T hasn't, and that was really helpful with dealing with SH urges, so I have to get out my other coping skills and get back to not SH-ing so much. New T doesn't seem to have regular appointments, it's just whenever she can fit me in, so it's not as ideal, but I'm hoping as things get going with new T that the loss of old T won't be so strong. Right now it's horrible. I didn't want to SH because I wanted to honor the work we did together in a better way but in the end the pain and sadness and sorrow won out and so I SH-ed. I know I probably will SH tomorrow too but then after that I need to be strong and use my coping skills, and get back to not SH-ing for like a month at a time, where I was before. This hasn't been the best Summer for me in terms of SH, but it hasn't been the worst either.

Bill3 · Sep 04, 2018 at 04:50 PM

I’m so sorry that you have had to say goodbye to your therapist. No wonder it is a rough time right now.

SlumberKitty · Sep 04, 2018 at 04:55 PM

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I’m so sorry that you have had to say goodbye to your therapist. No wonder it is a rough time right now.

Thanks

childofchaos831 · Sep 05, 2018 at 08:27 PM

7 whole days

Bill3 · Sep 05, 2018 at 08:50 PM

Well done childofchaos831!

What helps you stay away from SI?

childofchaos831 · Sep 05, 2018 at 10:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Well done childofchaos831!

What helps you stay away from SI?

Right now, I'm not feeling like doing much from having surgery other than lying around or sitting on the computer or my phone. Plus, if I ended up needing medical attention, I would have to have my mom drive me or call for help because I am not cleared to drive yet (from the surgery). I had a friend take me to get cigarettes on Monday, and a 15 minute trip to the corner store exhausted me... and caused my pain to jump quite a bit.

Bill3 · Sep 06, 2018 at 12:54 AM

Best wishes for a speedy recovery!

(((((childofchaos831)))))

whisperingskye · Sep 06, 2018 at 02:41 AM

Three whole months!

Sep 06, 2018 at 02:54 AM

Less than a day

SlumberKitty · Sep 06, 2018 at 11:18 AM

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Originally Posted by whisperingskye

Three whole months!

Great job whisperingskye!

SlumberKitty · Sep 06, 2018 at 11:18 AM

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Originally Posted by whispershadow

Less than a day

(((whispershadow)))

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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 29, 2018 at 10:16 AM #341 Day 7. Wow, one whole week.
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Aug 29, 2018 at 02:10 PM #342 Congratulations SlumberKitty!
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 31, 2018 at 03:07 PM #343 9 days....I feel like an episode is coming but I'm trying to distract myself, focus on other stuff, and basically not give in to it.
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Aug 31, 2018 at 11:08 PM #344 Nicely done SlumberKitty! What helps best for not giving in?
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Sep 01, 2018 at 07:53 PM #346 Made it to day 10. The wanting to has died down a bit.
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 01, 2018 at 09:54 PM #347 Well done SlumberKitty! You have a lot of helpful tools and insight. That's great!
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Sep 04, 2018 at 03:08 PM #348 Back to zero. It's okay. I made it 12 days. I know today and tomorrow are going to be rough. I just need to remember not to be too rough on myself.
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 04, 2018 at 04:08 PM #349 Twelve days is a fine achievement! Good job! You can start another good run! What will make today and tomorrow especially tough?
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 04, 2018 at 04:50 PM #351 I’m so sorry that you have had to say goodbye to your therapist. No wonder it is a rough time right now.
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childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 7 15 hugs given	Sep 05, 2018 at 08:27 PM #353 7 whole days __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 05, 2018 at 08:50 PM #354 Well done childofchaos831! What helps you stay away from SI?
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 06, 2018 at 12:54 AM #356 Best wishes for a speedy recovery! (((((childofchaos831)))))
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whisperingskye Grand Poohbah Member Since Feb 2017 Location: - Posts: 1,526 7 1,177 hugs given	Sep 06, 2018 at 02:41 AM #357 Three whole months! __________________ Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Failure. Failure - Breaking Benjamin
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Anonymous32891 Guest Posts: n/a	Sep 06, 2018 at 02:54 AM #358 Less than a day
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