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I just had my 4 year anniversary. SI free. It's possible.
__________________ What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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Really depressed. Want to self harm.
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#746
2 days.
I get so filled with bad feelings and anxiety that I feel I am going to explore, mostly as I am trying to go to sleep. I just want to release the badness but have fought off the urges for months. And I haven't sleep well for at least that long. Then two nights ago I gave in. I'm telling my family the two swipes on my thigh is from the dog running me into a fence. But I have been able to sleep the entire night through for the past two nights, so somehow I feel like it worked. I feel like if I tell T then I would be doing so in a matter of fact manner, which would fail to show the pain beneath. |
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2 days. I saw the pdoc at PHP on Friday and he prescribed a prn for psychosis. It's really helping. Without constant hallucinations, I'm able to fight the urges better. I'm hoping to be able to go back to PHP tomorrow morning and report no SH.
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Thanks for the update childofchaos831! |
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1 day. I lapsed yesterday. I should have gotten it stitched, but I didn’t want to go to the hospital. So I didn’t. Now it’s too late.
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1 day. Tried going to the ER to prevent it but it didn't help. The voices got the better of me... Again...
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But great job getting over 50 days again! |
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10 days right now. I hope T isn't disappointed tonight because I was supposed to make it until the end of this month. =/
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Ten days is good! 🙂
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Thanks Bill. I'm not too triggered at the moment so 10 days is a good start. Hopefully I can get a lot more.
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Zero. I only made it to 23 days. I've been very depressed lately.
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I’m really sorry that you have been depressed. 23 days sounds pretty positive in the face of a lot of depression. What do you suppose is fueling the depression? |
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I don't know what is fueling the depression. Likely my medication needs to be changed. I'm not thrilled about that because I really don't want to add another medicine but I might have to. Either that or it's some spiritual warfare going on. There is nothing in my life that is happening that could be causing the depression. I'm working. Nothing has changed. So it's not environmental or lifestyle. Just keep feeling like crap. I didn't SH last week when I was feeling suicidal so that's something, but I just couldn't fight it this week. HUGS Kit
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105! Today's a tough one in regards to urges though, but I'm sure I'll make it.
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Congratulations spikes!
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