It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part W!!

cygne · Sep 14, 2019 at 10:51 AM

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I don't know what is fueling the depression. Likely my medication needs to be changed. I'm not thrilled about that because I really don't want to add another medicine but I might have to. Either that or it's some spiritual warfare going on. There is nothing in my life that is happening that could be causing the depression. I'm working. Nothing has changed. So it's not environmental or lifestyle. Just keep feeling like crap. I didn't SH last week when I was feeling suicidal so that's something, but I just couldn't fight it this week. HUGS Kit

Hey, how's it going? Don't know too much about your case or progress, but I though that guided meditation, journaling, or a bit of mindfulness training might help. I know for a fact it works since I tried and it helped a lot with my self esteem. I'm still struggling every once in awhile, but when things get especially tough, I write things down. Jot things down on paper frantically for a couple of minutes, like a a purging process and then I either choose to burn the result or keep it.

SlumberKitty · Sep 16, 2019 at 01:20 PM

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Hey, how's it going? Don't know too much about your case or progress, but I though that guided meditation, journaling, or a bit of mindfulness training might help. I know for a fact it works since I tried and it helped a lot with my self esteem. I'm still struggling every once in awhile, but when things get especially tough, I write things down. Jot things down on paper frantically for a couple of minutes, like a a purging process and then I either choose to burn the result or keep it.

Thanks, I'm still struggling but I'm at 28 days of no self harm. I'm having a lot of sui thoughts though. It's between passive and active. I'm thinking about a way to Sui but I don't have the means to do it. So I am thinking about how to obtain the means. SH would probably help defuse some of these thoughts for a while. But I'm trying other things. Journaling is good. It helps me a lot. I haven't been doing it too much lately but I should start up again. I'm just paranoid my parents would read it. My Pdoc gave me some cds of guided meditation and they did help with the anxiety but not so much with the SH. I'm seeing him tonight though. He has some supplements for me to try. Thanks for asking. HUGS Kit

cygne · Sep 18, 2019 at 11:12 AM

Kit, you don't need to have a regular diary or journal, you could just keep everything in digital format and it's way easier than guarding things under lock and key. Hotmail, which is now Office, has a lot of apps for you to use and write down reminders, daily entries, and so on.

Best of luck!

TishaBuv · Sep 18, 2019 at 12:38 PM

8 months since I got so exasperated I hit myself.

. I am done with that bs.

kumy · Sep 18, 2019 at 12:52 PM

It's great that you're done with it, Tisha

childofchaos831 · Sep 18, 2019 at 12:58 PM

Last time was the 8th so 10 days...

Bill3 · Sep 18, 2019 at 01:04 PM

Well done childofchaos831!

Bill3 · Sep 18, 2019 at 01:06 PM

SlumberKitty: how did things go with your pdoc?

SlumberKitty · Sep 18, 2019 at 01:16 PM

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SlumberKitty: how did things go with your pdoc?

Things went well. He gave me some supplements he bought online for me and he gave me three books. He thinks I might have trouble making something in my body which is why the anti-depressants aren't as effective for me as they should be. He is leaving to go into private practice at the end of the year, but I can still afford his fees so I'll be going with him. I have 30 days self harm free as of today.

Bill3 · Sep 18, 2019 at 01:26 PM

Thanks for the update and congratulations on your 30 days!

SlumberKitty · Sep 24, 2019 at 01:40 PM

36 days, on a goal of 50 days....

Bill3 · Sep 24, 2019 at 04:21 PM

How have you been doing Slumber Kitty?

SlumberKitty · Sep 24, 2019 at 06:00 PM

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How have you been doing Slumber Kitty?

I went through a really rough patch where I was really suicidal. I saw my PDOC twice during that time for emergency appointments. I wasn't hospitalized but I got through it somehow. Now I am just dealing with my depression with psychotic features and anxiety--anxiety mostly from work. But I notice it goes away about halfway through the day normally. I've been opening up more to people IRL. I'm trying to broaden my support base. When I see T tomorrow I'm going to ask her how we can get me more support. But I'm hanging in there. How about you, Bill, how are you doing?

Kit

Bill3 · Sep 24, 2019 at 10:39 PM

I am glad that you are doing better now.

Thanks for asking Kit!

I'm okay, hanging in there. I had a good summer spiritually I think.

childofchaos831 · Sep 25, 2019 at 06:28 AM

Two days...

SlumberKitty · Sep 25, 2019 at 10:36 AM

HUGS @childofchaos831

SheHulk07 · Oct 02, 2019 at 09:59 PM

0 days because I'm a failure at everything lately.

kumy · Oct 03, 2019 at 08:51 AM

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0 days because I'm a failure at everything lately.

You're not a failure. We all struggle and we all sled, but that just makes us stronger.

childofchaos831 · Oct 03, 2019 at 08:52 AM

On day 1

SlumberKitty · Oct 03, 2019 at 12:40 PM

HUGS @SheHulk07 You are not a failure. You are a beautiful person!

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cygne Member Member Since Sep 2019 Location: where it's rainier. Posts: 109 4 66 hugs given	Sep 18, 2019 at 11:12 AM #783 Kit, you don't need to have a regular diary or journal, you could just keep everything in digital format and it's way easier than guarding things under lock and key. Hotmail, which is now Office, has a lot of apps for you to use and write down reminders, daily entries, and so on. Best of luck!
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TishaBuv Legendary Member Since Dec 2014 Location: USA Posts: 10,181 (SuperPoster!) 9 1,869 hugs given	Sep 18, 2019 at 12:38 PM #784 8 months since I got so exasperated I hit myself. . I am done with that bs. __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T
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kumy Grand Magnate Member Since Aug 2019 Location: hanging from a cloud Posts: 3,002 4 192 hugs given	Sep 18, 2019 at 12:52 PM #785 It's great that you're done with it, Tisha
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childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 7 15 hugs given	Sep 18, 2019 at 12:58 PM #786 Last time was the 8th so 10 days... __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 18, 2019 at 01:04 PM #787 Well done childofchaos831!
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 18, 2019 at 01:06 PM #788 SlumberKitty: how did things go with your pdoc?
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 18, 2019 at 01:26 PM #790 Thanks for the update and congratulations on your 30 days!
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Sep 24, 2019 at 01:40 PM #791 36 days, on a goal of 50 days.... __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 24, 2019 at 04:21 PM #792 How have you been doing Slumber Kitty?
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Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Sep 24, 2019 at 10:39 PM #794 I am glad that you are doing better now. Thanks for asking Kit! I'm okay, hanging in there. I had a good summer spiritually I think.
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childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 7 15 hugs given	Sep 25, 2019 at 06:28 AM #795 Two days... __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Sep 25, 2019 at 10:36 AM #796 HUGS @childofchaos831 __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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SheHulk07 Magnate Member Since Oct 2013 Location: CO Posts: 2,305 10 871 hugs given	Oct 02, 2019 at 09:59 PM #797 0 days because I'm a failure at everything lately.
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childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 7 15 hugs given	Oct 03, 2019 at 08:52 AM #799 On day 1 __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Oct 03, 2019 at 12:40 PM #800 HUGS @SheHulk07 You are not a failure. You are a beautiful person! __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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