[CurlyDodds]

Recently ive been having a lot of suicidal thoughts, it’s all I can think about. No matter what I’m doing during the day it keeps popping up in my head and especially at night when I have trouble sleeping. I can’t stop thinking about it and have even googled and searched the different ways to do it.

How does everyone else stop these thoughts and urges??

[pixiedust72]

I was exactly the same. All that helped me was medication (ssri's). Depends on where you are. If deep down you don't want to attempt remember that and remember your reasons for not doing it. If you do want to deep down, that can be harder (not to say it's not hard either way, it definetly is). I also watched this video https://youtu.be/J20V1qo87KY

[CurlyDodds]

Thank you for your reply and the video.

I think most days deep down I don’t want to. I don’t want my life to end just this current one if that makes sense. I feel useless and a burden and just feel like if I wasn’t here then everyones lives would be better. On the days when I’ve just had enough and don’t see the point in carrying on anymore, I feel like that’s the best choice and it scares me how it’s always on my mind I might do it

[katydid777]

Originally Posted by CurlyDodds

Recently ive been having a lot of suicidal thoughts, it’s all I can think about. No matter what I’m doing during the day it keeps popping up in my head and especially at night when I have trouble sleeping. I can’t stop thinking about it and have even googled and searched the different ways to do it.

How does everyone else stop these thoughts and urges??

I try to think of all the people that are being helped through PC, and maybe some of my posts. Hang in there, we are all here with you.

[Wild Coyote]

When someone is depressed, these thoughts and urges are very common. This is a common topic in several PC forums. You are not alone.

I use distraction a lot, directing my attention toward other things.

Please call for help or go to an ER if the urges become overwhelming.

I hope you can keep yourself safe from harm.

WC

Originally Posted by CurlyDodds

Recently ive been having a lot of suicidal thoughts, it’s all I can think about. No matter what I’m doing during the day it keeps popping up in my head and especially at night when I have trouble sleeping. I can’t stop thinking about it and have even googled and searched the different ways to do it.

How does everyone else stop these thoughts and urges??

Have you told someone about these urges? I recommend telling a close family member and/or medical professional (do you have a primary care doctor that you see on a regular basis?) about your feelings. If it is all you ever think about, you need to figure out what is causing the problem. I am not an expert but some people find medications helpful while others have a "root problem" that is triggering the behavior. For me, suicidal thoughts were like a distraction. It was easier to fantasize about fantastical ways to end my life rather than think about what was really bothering me. I ended up finally admitting that I was suicidal and then was put on medication but I wonder if it would have been better to talk about the problem (to a friend like my sister or therapist) prior to starting medication. The medication did help but perhaps just facing what was bothering me would have been enough. I am not sure.

What I am sure about is that it would be helpful for you to ask someone for help. These thoughts can be really serious. Be careful!!

[JesusGeek]

Originally Posted by CurlyDodds

Recently ive been having a lot of suicidal thoughts, it’s all I can think about. No matter what I’m doing during the day it keeps popping up in my head and especially at night when I have trouble sleeping. I can’t stop thinking about it and have even googled and searched the different ways to do it.

How does everyone else stop these thoughts and urges??

For me fear of dying stops them. Like, I have a mind that wants to take me down, and it's serious. I didn't take it seriously until recently, when I messed up my health in an attempt. I'm Christian and believe God spared my life, which I am grateful for. But now I worry every day about dying any moment, and it's become so real to me. It's not worth it. Ever. Please get some help <3 Deep down you're searching for a solution to your pain. We all want long happy lives, if they could be happy. Suicide ruins any chance of having a long, fulfilled life. If nobody has told you they love you today, I do. Hang in there until things get better. Age actually helps. Life gets better the older you get.

[Baci]

I hope you are feeling better with all these wonderful replies.
People care and you matter.
I get where you are at times but I’m fearful of death.
I also really want to figure my purpose for having these mental health issues.
Has to be more than to make me think I’m crazy all the time.
We can get through this.
🌟

[Fuzzybear]

Meds are often suggested and help many

But I can’t tolerate them

I wish you luck Keep posting

[shygrapes3375]

Originally Posted by CurlyDodds

Recently ive been having a lot of suicidal thoughts, it’s all I can think about. No matter what I’m doing during the day it keeps popping up in my head and especially at night when I have trouble sleeping. I can’t stop thinking about it and have even googled and searched the different ways to do it.

How does everyone else stop these thoughts and urges??

I think about the people I love, and how much it would hurt them if I went through with the thoughts. Usually that's enough to make them go away. I care more about them than I do myself or my wants.

[Shazerac]

I used to be deeply disturbed, and sometimes still am, by suicidal thoughts. What has helped me is viewing them as a symptom like having a really bad headache. Am I stressed out? Am I taking care of myself? Sometimes they just come out of nowhere. I take a deep breathe and try to let it go.

[Deejay14]

Good to see you back, Shazerac!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by CurlyDodds

Recently ive been having a lot of suicidal thoughts, it’s all I can think about. No matter what I’m doing during the day it keeps popping up in my head and especially at night when I have trouble sleeping. I can’t stop thinking about it and have even googled and searched the different ways to do it.

How does everyone else stop these thoughts and urges??

I am sorry that you are struggling right now. I been there myself. I went to YouTube and look up celebrity who been there I look up what to do when you feel this way. I went to Teal Swan what to do when you want to blank. It help me because it described how I felt and why I felt this way. Have you thought about looking for quotes about suicide that gives you a reason to want to live? I am currently do that myself. I hope this help you out in more than one way.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Shazerac

I used to be deeply disturbed, and sometimes still am, by suicidal thoughts. What has helped me is viewing them as a symptom like having a really bad headache. Am I stressed out? Am I taking care of myself? Sometimes they just come out of nowhere. I take a deep breathe and try to let it go.

That is some great advice. I wish that I had thought about asking myself those kind of question. I felt this way plenty of times.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by CurlyDodds

Recently ive been having a lot of suicidal thoughts, it’s all I can think about. No matter what I’m doing during the day it keeps popping up in my head and especially at night when I have trouble sleeping. I can’t stop thinking about it and have even googled and searched the different ways to do it.

How does everyone else stop these thoughts and urges??

Have you thought about meditation? As a way to relax. I lost my brother in law to suicide, I watch two of my mentally ill brother attempt suicide myself included. For me? I was in more pain then I could cope with at that point. Then I begin thinking about all those who had hurt me emotionally would it matter to them? Would it hurt them or would it made them feel better? It matter to me. So I decided it would affect those who didn't realized how far they push me over a bad rumor who were glad I didn't harm myself. It will affect people.

[CurlyDodds]

Thanks everyone for replies. Sorry I haven’t responded until now. I am on medication but I’m not sure it’s helping.

I don’t have anyone I can talk to. I’ve tried counselling before in the past and I’m currently on the waiting list for it again.
I try and do meditation/ mindfulness things but my mind always wanders, relaxation breathing does helps when I get myself into a panicky state tho.

My mind keeps racing and I just want to shut it up. I keep thinking about the past and things that has happened and things I wish I could change. I just feel so down and alone. Every time I start to feel happy something happens. It feels like I don’t deserve to be happy

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by CurlyDodds

Thank you for your reply and the video.

I think most days deep down I don’t want to. I don’t want my life to end just this current one if that makes sense. I feel useless and a burden and just feel like if I wasn’t here then everyones lives would be better. On the days when I’ve just had enough and don’t see the point in carrying on anymore, I feel like that’s the best choice and it scares me how it’s always on my mind I might do it

I completely understand how you feel I been there myself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by CurlyDodds

Thanks everyone for replies. Sorry I haven’t responded until now. I am on medication but I’m not sure it’s helping.

I don’t have anyone I can talk to. I’ve tried counselling before in the past and I’m currently on the waiting list for it again.
I try and do meditation/ mindfulness things but my mind always wanders, relaxation breathing does helps when I get myself into a panicky state tho.

My mind keeps racing and I just want to shut it up. I keep thinking about the past and things that has happened and things I wish I could change. I just feel so down and alone. Every time I start to feel happy something happens. It feels like I don’t deserve to be happy

I feel like this all the time.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by JesusGeek

For me fear of dying stops them. Like, I have a mind that wants to take me down, and it's serious. I didn't take it seriously until recently, when I messed up my health in an attempt. I'm Christian and believe God spared my life, which I am grateful for. But now I worry every day about dying any moment, and it's become so real to me. It's not worth it. Ever. Please get some help <3 Deep down you're searching for a solution to your pain. We all want long happy lives, if they could be happy. Suicide ruins any chance of having a long, fulfilled life. If nobody has told you they love you today, I do. Hang in there until things get better. Age actually helps. Life gets better the older you get.

I feel like this all the time. At that time I had no idea what was wrong with me.