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Trig Mar 19, 2019 at 07:52 PM
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I can not want scars as I wear short sleeves as a personal trainer so I bash my head when overwhelmed or turning anger back onto me.

I have never self harmed because of an empty feeling. I self harmed because of overwhelming emotions that my system can not handle.

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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.

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Default Mar 20, 2019 at 11:42 AM
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I cut mostly, to let bad out. To punish myself, I burn. I self harm because of the innate feeling of bad I have, which I am working on in therapy. HUGS Kit

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Default Mar 23, 2019 at 11:12 AM
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I used to cut alot but for the last 3 years I've been burning
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Default Mar 23, 2019 at 10:25 PM
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I cut because burning hurts far worse. I have burned twice in the past though. I also used to punch myself in the face.
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Default Mar 25, 2019 at 06:30 AM
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I do what ever I feel I need to do at the time (also depends what's around me and what I'm working with)

I do it for blood though, not pain

sometimes pain is enough, but most of the time blood is required to make me feel like it's succeeded
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Default Apr 11, 2019 at 06:27 AM
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I used to starve. but since I can’t do that anymore (school stuff and my gpa falling, also no social interaction since people apparently bonding through food) I cut now. It’s still spring so it’s easy to hide.
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I used to starve. but since I can’t do that anymore (school stuff and my gpa falling, also no social interaction since people apparently bonding through food) I cut now. It’s still spring so it’s easy to hide.


thankfully i've learned not to starve myself
especially after what happened last time
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Default Apr 11, 2019 at 09:28 AM
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Cutting, burning, starving
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Default Apr 11, 2019 at 11:59 PM
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Cutting, burning or punching walls to break bones.

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thankfully i've learned not to starve myself

especially after what happened last time


what happened?
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Default Apr 12, 2019 at 12:26 AM
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punishing myself by withholding food and sleep, and making myself work to the point of sickness.
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Default Apr 17, 2019 at 03:32 PM
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Whenever there is too much going on and my brain hurts, I resort to Cutting, punching/hitting, banging head.
I haven't cut in about a year, but I've been thinking about it a lot.

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Default May 09, 2019 at 10:05 PM
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Mostly cutting but recently started banging my head in to walls. Dealing with a mild concussion now.
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Default May 12, 2019 at 08:05 PM
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I've done cutting in the past with blades... but I will not say where because I know what we are doing is not good. And as much I want to right now... it has been over a yr and half and I know I have to strong, and I am going to hold out as much as I can. I am a female think about it.. wherever I cut is visible in a bathing suit people will judge you, I've had stares. I say, when you feel sh coming... do exactly this. That's what these forums are here. Let out all your feelings on here. We will never judge, just the opposite we can all help each other. I hope you feel better, concussion suck I know and remember just talk here
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Default May 12, 2019 at 08:13 PM
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Cutting with scissors. I’m really struggling right now.
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Default May 14, 2019 at 12:11 PM
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Cutting for the most part. I used to punch walls when i was younger.
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Default May 14, 2019 at 01:03 PM
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Cutting with kitchen steak knives. I haven't done it since Feb of this year since I was sent to the hospital for hitting an artery. I'm so embarrassed now that warmer weather is here. I've gotten a tattoo to cover the scars on the bottom half of my arm, but not the top ones yet. Everyone stay strong! Thanks for listening
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Default May 19, 2019 at 05:44 PM
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How do you hold out and not do it?
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Default Jul 22, 2019 at 01:03 PM
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I cut to release the pain in my body. Yes I know that does not sound right but the cutting takes the back pain away for a few minutes. I cut below the belt that way it is hidden.
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Default Aug 04, 2019 at 10:24 AM
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[QUOTE=MoxieDoxie;6474320]I can not want scars as I wear short sleeves as a personal trainer so I bash my head when overwhelmed or turning anger back onto me.

I have never self harmed because of an empty feeling. I self harmed because of overwhelming emotions that my system can not handle.[/

I don’t self harm much anymore but I used to take a brush and whack my leg until it got red. It was a sharp stinging pain and I liked seeing the red. For me was not a release as much as I liked pain because I felt so bad about myself.
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