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Trig Apr 04, 2019 at 09:06 PM
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Hey everyone. This is my first post so here it goes

I've been self harming for a few years now, usually razor blades but recently I didn't have any fresh ones so I used a knife. Worked all the same but instead I tried stabbing myself and its left a puncture wound in my arm that is pretty deep.
Usually this kind of wound would satisfy me enough but since this is my first time self harming in almost a month. It seems like it isn't enough and I want to keep going. I don't want to stop self harming but I do want to understand the urges to go deeper and damage myself more, also I want to know how to care for an open wound that hasn't dried up with blood, I usually just go to bed and let the blood dry up and just go to sleep, this time I've wiped all the blood away so its just open and exposed, What should I do with it?

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Hello ddark: I'm sorry I don't think I can really advise you with regard to your wound, or tell you what it is that makes you want to go deeper & do more damage (although I've had some similar sorts of experiences myself in the past.) Hopefully there will be other members, here on PC, who will be able to offer some advice as well as insights. I noticed, though, that this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

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Hi ddark. You should get your wound checked by a doctor. Especially if it hasn't stopped bleeding. I understand wanting to do more but it doesn't really help in the long run. I know because I've had those very same thoughts and actions. Do you have a therapist you can talk to that might help you understand what is behind the self-harm actions and urges? I would highly recommend that. I hope you're doing okay now. Sorry for the late post. HUGS Kit.

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I used to have a therapist 2 years ago. My school was paying for it I believe but once I got out of school well, the therapist visits just ended suddenly and I was just left by myself with the same thoughts. Still when I did have a therapist, she didn't(my therapist) help me that much anyway so I don't know if another therapist will do me any good. The bleeding has stopped but still an open sticky wound, my parents know I self harm but this one is deeper. I don't want to worry my parents is all.
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Yeah, I get not wanting to worry your parents. This may be one time that you need to though. If the wound is open it is more susceptible to infection. It may be time to get it looked at. I know that's hard and it's intrusive but an infection could be dangerous. If you see any red lines coming from your wound then it's definitely time to go to the doctor as that could be blood poisoning and that could kill you!


Yeah, my therapists haven't helped me that much with the SH either. They give advice like snap a rubber band on your wrist. Really? Is that all you have to offer? But they have helped me explore what is behind the need for me to SH. The one I see now in particular has challenged some thoughts I have about myself that is forcing me to see myself in a different light. Would your parents be willing to help you pay for a therapist? It might be worth another shot?


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Default Apr 10, 2019 at 09:14 AM
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I can really relate to the feeling of not being satisfied and wanting to keep going. But please try and take care of the wound!
Totally understand not wanting to tell your parents. I've been cutting since 15 and have never told my mum. If the wound gets worse though, you definitely need to let someone know. You don't want to risk it getting infected.
I agree therapists are not very helpful when it comes to self harming, but they could help you understand the urges.
Honestly therapy is always worth a shot; especially if you're in the UK and can get it for free. Depending on your age, your parents don't even have to know about it, which I think makes you feel less pressured.

I'm here if you ever need a chat! Best wishes
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