I threw out my razor blades

SlumberKitty · Feb 19, 2020 at 10:52 AM

Hi all. I threw out my razor blades today. It is our garbage day so they are in the trash can by the curb. It's a weird feeling. In a way, I feel proud of myself for doing that, like it is a step towards freedom and away from self harm. On the other hand, I'm losing my security blanket.

I know I can always get more. But it will require me going to the store and having to buy them, or ordering them online and waiting for them to come. So maybe that time frame will be enough to make me think through the actions.

What scares me though, besides losing my security blanket, is that I'll be desperate and I'll use something less safe to hurt myself with. So that's a concern that I'm going to have to figure out down the road. Honestly, right now, I mostly feel scared. It's not a good feeling, but I'm hoping that I am doing the right thing.

Hugs to anyone who wants one and to anyone who is struggling today.

Kit

Jester's Rags · Feb 19, 2020 at 11:46 AM

Hi Kit. That’s a big step. Stay strong and best wishes to you.

Bill3 · Feb 19, 2020 at 05:43 PM

Buffy01 · Feb 20, 2020 at 05:55 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Hi all. I threw out my razor blades today. It is our garbage day so they are in the trash can by the curb. It's a weird feeling. In a way, I feel proud of myself for doing that, like it is a step towards freedom and away from self harm. On the other hand, I'm losing my security blanket.

I know I can always get more. But it will require me going to the store and having to buy them, or ordering them online and waiting for them to come. So maybe that time frame will be enough to make me think through the actions.

What scares me though, besides losing my security blanket, is that I'll be desperate and I'll use something less safe to hurt myself with. So that's a concern that I'm going to have to figure out down the road. Honestly, right now, I mostly feel scared. It's not a good feeling, but I'm hoping that I am doing the right thing.

Hugs to anyone who wants one and to anyone who is struggling today.

Kit

That is great start. Congratulations! Have you tried a mediation for self harm? It just talk to in a compassion voice and give suggestion on how to get through the moment.

LearnToLoveTheRide · Feb 29, 2020 at 01:36 PM

Well done SlumberKitty.

That was a very courageous thing to do. I understand your fear that you might end up using something worse, but it's an opportunity not to hurt yourself at all.

Wishing you all the strength possible. LTLTR.

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Jester's Rags Member Member Since Oct 2017 Location: USA Posts: 386 6 37 hugs given	Feb 19, 2020 at 11:46 AM #2 Hi Kit. That’s a big step. Stay strong and best wishes to you. __________________ Dust in the breeze it always comes Blocking out the Sun Up from the Ashes a Phoenix flies https://psychcentralforums.com/creat...er-s-rags.html https://psychcentralforums.com/creat...innocence.html
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LearnToLoveTheRide New Member Member Since Feb 2020 Location: South Africa Posts: 4 4	Feb 29, 2020 at 01:36 PM #5 Well done SlumberKitty. That was a very courageous thing to do. I understand your fear that you might end up using something worse, but it's an opportunity not to hurt yourself at all. Wishing you all the strength possible. LTLTR.
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