I'm gay, and I love to masturbate in public.

Hello, my name is Liam.

I have been masturbating in public since I was a teen. There's just something about it that turns me on so much. I do this frequently, and I'm scared I'll get into more trouble.

When I was 16, I went out to go masturbate during the middle of the night. A couple of guys passed and saw me playing with myself. This one guy saw me, and he was disgusted. He started to say stuff then he left. I got so turned on. A couple of minutes later, he came back asking me what the hell I'm doing. I thought that he was going to beat me up, but turns out he wanted some action. He asked me if I was gay, but I kept denying it because I was scared. Then he asked me if I wanted to suck it. I never gave a guy fellatio before. I was really curious so I said sure. We went to this place where it was pitch black. He whooped it out, and I started sucking it. I was disgusted. It was one of the most disgusting experiences in my life. I tried to leave, but he was forcing me to stay. He was about to penetrate me, but a red car came. He got alarmed so it was the perfect time for me to run. When I got home, I started vomiting and crying. I keep on thinking to myself that if I hadn't gone out that night to masturbate. That would've never happened. It's because of this weird fetish I have that I almost got raped.

I want to stop, but I don't know how. When I don't do it for a while, it builds up. And I start getting frustrated.

Thanx for reading.

Liam, i'm sorry you almost got r*ped. Also, it sounds like this fetish is dangerous and interfering with your happiness. Have you
considered therapy? Maybe a therapist could help you find a safer way to get satisfaction.

Hey, Liam. I am gay. I agree that you should go for counseling. It appears you might be an exhibitionist and/or turned on by dangerous situations. Sex is good enough that it does not require danger. Please see a T and work on this issue so that you can find love in your life rather than risky danger. Good luck to you!

I agree with the others you should get into therapy and find a safer way to express your sexual feelings. Its also illegal and can make some very mad. I think some of this comes from the forbidden idea - its thrilling to be bad and get away with it.

I agree with what the others have said too, Not judging you btw but what if a child was to catch you? If my child was to see you then I would be furious, Please get help and I am sorry that you almost got raped

So, i don't completely relate, but I kinda do. If I'm understanding you right, you're looking for advice with handling your fetish without risk to your well being, and a sideline of advice for how to handle what's already happened?

I'm bi, and I'm an exhibitionist. I find what helps me as a safety net is my friends. I've masturbated and even had full on sex with my friends just being around. They don't even need to be watching, or even in the room or what have you (though personally when someone casually walks in and comments in the middle of something I just go crazy, good crazy). It gives me a safe place to still have my fetishes, but where I'm not at risk of being arrested or taken advantage of. Somewhere public but safe. Like bungee jumping is safe. (can expand on this with personal examples if it helps)

If it's more the feeling of being outdoors for you, you can find or arrange similar things like a person who knows where you are and what you're doing and stuff, and keep them updated if anyone comes around, who can come bail you out if you send them a blank text or something. Thought that's significantly more risky and I don't recommend it.

My two main points of advice are this 1: don't be scared of your fetishes. Acknowledge them, don't be ashamed of them, and find a safe place and safe way of exercising them. There is a lot of safe places out there for fets of all types where you can find support and freedom to explore or be yourself. Personal note: Try not to lose yourself with cheep thrills that aren't really you. I had a lot of issues with that and finding outlets for my fets.

I think that trying to ignore or 'get rid of' fets you have is akin to ex gay ministries. If it's become unhealthy, find a way to make it healthy. Don't be ashamed that it actually turns your crank though. (at the same time, don't tell everyone who doesn't need to know)

And 2: I completely agree with those above. You should seek out a T, and try and get some help sorting through what happened and why, and how to handle that. Because that's pretty big, and will likely affect you for your whole life. If you let it sit and not find a healthy way of working through it it could be a very negative affect.

Hope this helped, and feel free to PM me if there's something specific you want to say, but not on the forum. Though I'm totally cool with sharing anything (appropriate) on here.

KLove

Though I should point out, I'm not saying that you shouldn't try and rid yourself of this if you truly just don't want to have this as a fet at all. Just that that's not the only way of dealing with it; this isn't an all or nothing topic! There's a whole community of people with the strangest in sexual flavors who have been there and aren't scary people (once you get past the initial shock of meeting them/us).

If you truly just want to not be an exhibitionist anymore, all the power to you man, and again, if I can help, just ask.

KLove

I have heard that some gay clubs have a "public" room where voyeurs can watch exhibitionists do their stuff in comparative safety.

Your fetish is heavy with consequences, as you already know. It could get you brutalized and killed. Like any diet, quitting something cold still leaves the memory of the craving. Maybe you could step down gradually with one of them online virtual communities, like Second Life.

Good luck.

I'm not gay, but would masterbate in public if someone was doin it with me. I've done it in my car driving at night on way home or to somewhere.

i have been masturbating and going naked where i can be caught. i knew that i was gay but, had never sucked a penis. one day i went to a park restromm. the toilet had no partions around it at all. i was wearing only shorts and flip flops. i took off my shorts completely. sitting on the tiolet naked and masturbating was so exciting, waiting for someone to catch me. i was 14 at the time. after a few minutes a man about 30+ came in. he was surprised. he stood there pissing, i think he was afraid because of my age. i kept pulling my penis. as he faced me, he was playing with himself. i reached out and touched his cock, i had never felt anyones cock before. after playing with it i asked him if i could try sucking it. he stepped closer. i opened my mouth and started sucking and licking his penis head. i loved it. he came real fast and i swallowed his sperm

Well obviously you know the consequences of being caught - and from that very traumatic experience you had i think it would be wise for you to get some sort of help so that you don't end up risking being put into that situation again. I hope you manage to find peace and stay safe. All the best.