I wish i didnt have to

This sounds different from other posts. I've came to an understanding I hate my sexual frequency of getting horny all the time when I'm home or alone. I touch or masturbate a lot. It's something like it's not a bad habit going wild. This doesn't include public or anywhere other than my house and or mainly a girl I am dating.

Rather, I find it frustrating my body is so sensitive to the sensations. I can't concentrate and it gets worse the more I don't do it. Only two ways stop it in the moment which requires lots of immediate distraction. And texting and writing posts help, but I feels like a anticipation amazing sex is coming and I am not comfortable how my body springs from just from just fabrics wind whatever cause me to have an erection.

It caused me confusion in a recent friendship that it may could of well been sexual, but it got too much rather she isn't the type of person at all I'm sexually attracted to. It's gotten that desperate. It feels unhealthy and it causes lots of pain. I can't ask my mom to have me see a dr. She will shun me as a ***** again, asking paranoid questions if I'm on drug or did someone give me aids.

If I was gay my mom would shun ne despite acting like she supports me. She hides her true feelings from arrogance ik when coming out trans it happened.

See I'm sexually attracted to mem as a woman not a guy. It's simply not working as a guy having sex with one. With a girl i get a huge high that's intense through all of it.

Rather I hate how I'm stuck alone all the time and I don't feel comfortable talking about my feelings on my sexual stuff period. Anything with strangers and people ik personally I find very attractive. People say I look great and wouldn't have a problem, but yes I get very put off by girls "flirting" with me.

I'm done having my body enslave me.

It sounds like you are in a tough situation. Honestly I really think you may need to see a doctor about this hypersexuality. Not a mental health professional but an actual medical doctor. Its not normal for everything that happens to brush against your penis to cause an erection. Heck, in your position I would be afraid of public places in the fear that my pants may turn me on. There are medical conditions that cause what you are describing and there may be treatments for it. It happens in both men and women and the biggest complain due to it is the pain that it can cause from constant stimulation. I know that you really don't want to discuss this with your mother. Is there someone else you might be able to ask to schedule and appointment for you?

Yeah the worst is after masturbation the pain is worse.

Oh and the longest it stops is after sex for average 2 hours but I think that may had change. That only happens if I have had sex for 6 + hours