[randomuser101]

I'm sure sexual fetish issues have been covered plenty of times before. But I've suddenly become overwhelmed with guilt and shame about mine, so I just need some reassurance that I'm not a sick person or an awful person.

From a young age, I was turned on by bondage scenes in the movies I would watch. I would even gag myself and rubber band my hands and legs in my room as a child. This was long before I understood what a fetish was or even masturbation.

As I started masturbating, I masturbated to plenty of conventional stuff, but I also found myself starting almost every masturbation session with a bondage scene from the animated Aladdin. I don't know why this particular scene was/is so appealing to me but it was. I always felt disgusted by what I was doing on some level, but never enough to make myself stop. Just recently, the shame hit me and it was overwhelming. I'm now 22 years old and I feel like it's really bizarre that I have masturbated for so long to the same scene from an animated movie. I'm going to try to stop using it because it seems like it's almost an addiction of some sort. Being dependent on one specific video is probably not healthy.

I understand that bondage is a common sexual fetish, but my particular experience seems like it might be unique. I just feel totally disgusted and ashamed. Like if people found out that I got off to a scene from a children's movie and used it over and over again, what would they think of me? I'm also a completely heterosexual male which is weird that I find a male bondage scene erotic. And in general, I'm very conventional in my sexual desires, I don't really even look at porn, just some mild sex scenes from movies.

Sorry for being redundant. I just don't know why but my sudden realization of my abnormality has plunged me into a severe bout of anxiety/guilt/shame/depression. Any helpful words would be appreciated.

[Webgoji]

Doesn't seem like there's anything to be ashamed of there. There's been a lot worse done with Aladdin than someone getting turned on by one scene of it. Just look up all the anime porn that came from it.

I think your shame really is coming more from what others would think than from any "abnormality" at all.

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by randomuser101

I understand that bondage is a common sexual fetish, but my particular experience seems like it might be unique ... I'm also a completely heterosexual male which is weird that I find a male bondage scene erotic. And in general, I'm very conventional in my sexual desires, I don't really even look at porn, just some mild sex scenes from movies.

It is a very common fetish , enjoyed by all kinds of people , and yes it is unique , but that is true of all of us , each one of us is unique in our own way , everyone needs and experiences' there sexuality differently , being a male and being turned on by a male scene is not strange in any way and does not mean "your gay or anything like that" , but if you were what's wrong with that ... if you find what works for you , and it doesn't hurt another , then I say go for it ... life is to short to not enjoy it ...

[randomuser101]

Originally Posted by Webgoji

Doesn't seem like there's anything to be ashamed of there. There's been a lot worse done with Aladdin than someone getting turned on by one scene of it. Just look up all the anime porn that came from it.

I think your shame really is coming more from what others would think than from any "abnormality" at all.

Yes, you're definitely right about that. I'm the type of person who cares deeply about what others think of me. It really scares me that people might think I'm perverted or something if they knew about this. But that's something that I guess I just have to work on. I'm guessing/hoping that everyone has an unusual fantasy that they just don't talk about, but I sort of wish people could be open about this stuff, so it wouldn't feel like there was so much stigma. Thank you for your comment, it has helped me.

[Webgoji]

Originally Posted by randomuser101

But that's something that I guess I just have to work on. I'm guessing/hoping that everyone has an unusual fantasy that they just don't talk about, but I sort of wish people could be open about this stuff, so it wouldn't feel like there was so much stigma.

Just check around this forum. You'll find numerous people who are struggle to accept their own sexuality and own sexual interests. Lol, when I was younger I had a thing for Darci (a doll who was a competitor to Barbie ... and way hotter ). Especially in the United States, we've still got the mentality that sex is something sinful and perverse. In many religious texts, sex is taboo, but kill the heretic! What!?

We censor sexuality on TV and even movies like Fifty Shades of Grey are afraid of male nudity. And yet, cable TV will show gratuitous violence without so much as a blink of an eye. The church lady down the street who has a leather whip, bridle and plenty of oddly shaped accessories is scared to death of talking about her sexuality, but not afraid to talk about bombing Syria? Which one really hurts?

No, your fantasy isn't even unusual. No more than my thing for Darci or the church-going mother down the street having a bi-sexual voyeur thing.

[orderdis]

As a man with my own fetishes, I would say that it would be great to say to yourself: yes, it turns me on, but I need to live further. I think the very fact of "abnormality" scares, so you think even more about this and turn on even more.

[tragicterror]

This isn't anything unusual or disgusting. Ever looked into BDSM? Bondage is a common common fetish in the realm of bdsm. Don't feel ashamed, just do some research on what I said, you seem like you'd be into it and maybe after you realize how many others are into you'll feel better