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Location: MI
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I'm having an issue lately. I mean, a few, but let's stick to one right now.
Im bipolar type 2. I have been bouncing around from low to hypomanic and back again repeatedly since my recent move, new job. This makes sense. I wasn't adjusting meds either, to try to help, because the move was far enough I was without a pdoc and was not having a lot of luck when I had the energy to pursue a new one. A lot of that is just background. I talk to a therapist, but I am hesitant to bring this up because I find her attractive. We have talked about sex, and we have talked about how I'm craving it from my wife and feel like at times if someone asked, I would very possibly say yes. I know this is not going to happen but I get a bit anxious picking up my son, 3, because one of the teachers is very cute. I almost think I might get anxious seeing my therapist at times but I don't wonder if it's because there is so much I want to talk about. Never seems to be as much as you think when you are there talking for ~1 hr. I don't know where all that fits in. I want to have sex, but my 8 months pregnant wife is hardly interested and in engaging in any sexual activity. I masterbate every night while I watch porn. It's momentarily relieving, but almost worse in the end as I almost feel ashamed of the act afterwards. Especially that I'd love to be engaging in sex with my wife, not a computer screen. None of this makes any sense. I can't really get down to what I'm looking for. I don't know what it is. Probably me reaching out for someone to say that it isn't abnormal, but I need to keep it in check. I think my therapist says that. Kinda. It's good to know that it's happening and why and that it's something I can use to identify if I am in a hypomanic state. I need interventions though. Not sure how to end this, none of it seems to elicit any sort of response that I think I'm looking for. We will see I guess. __________________ "Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become your character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -Frank Outlaw |
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Should I have posted this in bi-polar? Wasn't sure if I should talk sex stuff in there.
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Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become your character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -Frank Outlaw |
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Can a mod move this?
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