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Default Apr 02, 2018 at 10:21 PM
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I am a lesbian with a female psychiatrist that I have always kinda crushed on. I am in the midst of a wicked Mixed Manic episode requiring hospitalization. In addition to spending $ we don’t have I was in a constant state of arousal thinking about my PDoc and being an ID10T in her presence. I finally confessed this to my T and PDoc. Neither of them “fired me”. However, I did get suicidal and go in patient for a bit. My PDoc is moving away. I will have a new PDoc that I like, but I cannot deal with my PDoc leaving and I still fantasize about and want her. Have not said anything more and will not act on this because it would be bad for both of us. But how do I stop obsessing over her and get over being heartbroken she is moving away?

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Default Apr 05, 2018 at 06:01 AM
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I was in a constant state of arousal thinking about my PDoc.
I noticed no one answered you. Therapy can be an emotional experience--with time, you might not obsess as much. Though you feel heartbroken , maybe her leaving is a blessing because it will never be!!! Have you ever thought about going to a male therapist instead?
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Default Apr 05, 2018 at 07:31 PM
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I noticed no one answered you. Therapy can be an emotional experience--with time, you might not obsess as much. Though you feel heartbroken , maybe her leaving is a blessing because it will never be!!! Have you ever thought about going to a male therapist instead?
Thank you, I am working on letting go. I have considered a male but really have trust issues with men. Turns out my dad was bipolar too. My departing PDoc has identified her replacement. She is cool too and knows my whole history. They are both uber professional and that is one of the reasons I respect them both. I know they are both helping me with this and I will survive, just sucks and hurts.

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Default Jun 13, 2018 at 06:46 PM
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I'm no doctor, but I think this may be "transference". I would think your pdoc would have brought this up with you when you confessed to her. I find that the more I understand my symptoms, the less power they seem to have over me.


BTW, I get this way too though so I understand how you feel. If you can make yourself just think about this a little less often, slowly over time it can pretty much go away. It's tough, but you just kind of have to shut it down in your head a few times at first until your brain understands what you're doing. Then it gets more automatic. This technique helps me anyway.

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