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Default Oct 08, 2018 at 10:18 PM
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Because I didn't want to believe I was assaulted twice, by two separate people, on the same day.

Because I never should've let a stranger drive me home
Because even though I said "I don't want anything sexual," I let him keep flirting
Because when he [ trigger ]stopped the car next to an empty field and stuck his fingers inside me[ /trigger ], I froze up instead of fighting him off
Because I was wearing lacy lingerie, so I must've wanted it
Because [ trigger ]he made me come[ /trigger ], and he knew it
Because I eventually consented to [ trigger ]give him head[ /trigger ] out of fear he would hurt me if I didn't (though he pushed me further anyway)
Because I thought "it was more coercive than nonconsensual"
Because I didn't want to have to explain the rest of my recent sex life to the police
Because by the time I realized I had been violated and wasn't just freaking out about nothing, I had already blocked his messages and forgotten his name

Because he was supposed to be my friend
Because we had already been kissing
Because I wasn't sure that "I'm not comfortable with you [doing the specific thing he started doing two seconds later]" was an explicit enough no
Because how was I the victim [ trigger ]if he went down on me[ /trigger ]?
Because once I realized it was assault, it was two weeks before he was supposed to leave for Europe
Because he was really popular in my college dance scene and I thought the organizers wouldn't believe me and everyone would hate me
Because I didn't want to "ruin his life"
Because my own mother told me that letting him into my room was implicit consent
I believe you! That was wrong of your mother to say. You matter. You deserve to be comfortable. If letting strangers into your room was implicit consent, many more people could have had sex with me... I hope you recover. You deserve to feel safe.
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Default Oct 09, 2018 at 01:52 AM
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Because she was my wife and we were supposed to be trying for a baby.'
-that baby is now my amazing four year old daughter who lives with her mum

Because no one would believe me if I did, she was older and I was drunk and had been flirting with other girls that night.
Because she said that she could ruin me if I did anything that would hurt her.
Because she later tried to bribe me.

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Default Oct 21, 2018 at 12:57 AM
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Because i thought it was normal
Because i was afraid of my Dad
Because i was afraid of other peoples reactions
bcause i thought i didnt deserve to live a happy life

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Default Oct 21, 2018 at 01:00 AM
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I was 3, I was 5 , I was 10, I was 18. I was all the ages in between.

I did report. I was told to shut up.
I did report. I was told I was lying.
I did report. I was told I would it would kill my mother, kill my father, destroy my family.
I did report. I was taken away from my home, blamed for the destruction.
I did report. I was told I was crazy, threatened with being locked up.
I did report. The social workers didn't believe me. The therapist didn't believe me.
I did report. I was branded a liar, a home breaker, disturbed, crazy.
I did report. I was returned to the abusers care by the state anyway.

I stopped reporting.

Do you know what NOBODY did?
Nobody cared.
Nobody believed.
Nobody comforted.
Nobody reassured.
Nobody listened.
Nobody protected.

Amjay i wanted to give you a hundred hugs. youre story really touched me

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Default Oct 25, 2018 at 02:37 PM
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Because I was 5 and my grandma convinced my mom not to say anything.
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Default Nov 10, 2018 at 05:41 AM
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Because he was a cop.
Because I received death threats from the group home for trying to report it.

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