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Twitter is blowing up with this right now.

Because my mother never would have let me out of the house again.
Because I didn’t know I had been slipped a drug.
Because I had no idea how and why it happened.
Because the guy would have denied it.
Because I would have become the talk of the town.
Because I didn’t value myself or my virginity that much.

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Default Sep 21, 2018 at 06:59 PM
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Because nobody would believe me.
Because everyone was threatened.
Because I already didn't trust anyone before it happened.
Because I didn't love me.
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Because he was an authority figure
Because I didn't say "stop"
Because I thought it was my fault
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Default Sep 22, 2018 at 01:38 AM
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Because I didn't want anyone to worry about me.
Because I didn't know if it "counted".

Because I didn't scream or fight back.

Because I don't trust the police.

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Default Sep 22, 2018 at 12:05 PM
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Because I don't remember all the details since I was so young.
Because he was a Catholic priest so people thought he was a good guy.
Because I'm autistic and fear the court would use that against me.
Because if I'm ever ready the statue of limitations is up now anyway.
Because he's dead anyway and can't hurt anyone anymore.
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Default Sep 23, 2018 at 11:31 AM
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It blows my mind how many people tweeted about their experiences. I think it is therapeutic for me to realize how common this is. Here I felt so alone from my experience, I simply put it out of my mind for the rest of my life until recent years, only because my marriage became a huge problem for me and I took a look back in therapy. I believe honesty and transparency has to be a good thing for the betterment of mankind. I hope that proves to be true.

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Default Sep 23, 2018 at 11:54 AM
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Because we were dating and I felt like everyone would think I was exaggerating

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...it is therapeutic for me to realize how common this is. Here I felt so alone from my experience, I simply put it out of my mind for the rest of my life until recent years, only because my marriage became a huge problem for me and I took a look back in therapy. I believe honesty and transparency has to be a good thing for the betterment of mankind. I hope that proves to be true.
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Default Sep 24, 2018 at 01:16 PM
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Because I didn't know what abuse looked or felt like.

Because I had grown up that way.

Because I thought obsession = love.

Because I didn't trust my own body or perception.
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Twitter is blowing up with this right now.

Because my mother never would have let me out of the house again.
Because I didn’t know I had been slipped a drug.
Because I had no idea how and why it happened.
Because the guy would have denied it.
Because I would have become the talk of the town.
Because I didn’t value myself or my virginity that much.
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Because nobody would believe me.
Because everyone was threatened.
Because I already didn't trust anyone before it happened.
Because I didn't love me.
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Because he was an authority figure
Because I didn't say "stop"
Because I thought it was my fault
I seen this happen!
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Default Sep 25, 2018 at 12:32 AM
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Thank you everyone who wrote about their experiences. I absolutely believe you all. Your words help me to feel less alone.
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Default Sep 25, 2018 at 06:21 AM
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I think it is helpful to write a letter of restorative justice......that says...this is what you did, this is how it made me feel. You had no voice when you were young, but now you can speak up (even if the abuser is dead). xoxo
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Default Sep 25, 2018 at 06:39 AM
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Because I was just a kid and was told to keep my mouth shut.
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Default Sep 25, 2018 at 02:06 PM
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because someone "in charge" saw it happen and told me not to worry about it
because when i did say something to someone else, they suggested there would be no point in reporting it
i was an adult already and i feel disappointed in myself that i just didn't report it
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At least Cosby got 3-10 years. It should be much more, but that may be all the time he's got left. I'm glad they did report
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Default Sep 26, 2018 at 02:57 AM
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I told my twin friends as soon as it happened. Then never spoke again about it.
Because I was too ashamed
Because I thought I was to blame
Because I was too scared
finally because I ended up forgetting for decades, until a few years ago.

I just tried to tell someone. Waited for more than 4 hours to "chat" with someone from RAINN. I understood it must be very busy with all that is going on. Finally when My turn was up, it was a guy who said "can I help you" His name was Aaron. I said "you are a guy?" he said yes and asked me if I was comfortable talking with a guy. I said not really. Then there was nothing. He did not respond. So after waiting 4 hours to finally tell, I just left. That was RAINN online help line. IDK why but I felt too ashamed to talk to a guy about this.
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I took my post off because I am not sure if it was abuse (like all of the posts on here--I am so sorry this happened to all of you) and because I am not proud of my role in it all.

So while it may help many to speak of these things and I do believe that when we are truthful it is healing--there are also situations where people are not ready talk about these things because it brings it all back and makes them feel traumatized or just embarrassed. While I am not trying to hide the truth, it is also OK if I am more comfortable keeping some things private. This is everyone's personal choice in that we have to decide what works best for us. For many of you, I know sharing is healing (though we never completely heal, only learn to accept, cope, be stronger). A lot of my experiences have been colored by the fact that I have very extreme anxiety and realizing that helps me understand more about why the first time was not a positive experience.

One of the worst things about abuse from my POV is when abusers deny their role in it all. When there is "he/she said he/she said" someone is lying and this is as bad as the crime. I find stories in the news where I do not know who is lying to be very triggering but also want to add that I do believe everyone here. No one deserves to go through this.

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I’m not sorry that I didn’t report. It’s a very personal decision each much make. I wonder if I’d have come forward all these years later if he were being considered for Supreme Court Justice. I suppose I would. What he did was certainly not character becoming a position of top honor. But, my case had facts that were definitely illegal.

I also did tell my best friend the next day. We both didn’t think about rape and didn’t understand there were drugs that I didn’t know were given to me which had that effect. We both just brushed it off as a creepy incident.

All these years later, I came to learn (through facebook) that he had a bad life as a drug addict and unsuccessful at anything. It made me cringe to see his face, but it gave me some satisfaction to see he was a failure; like justice had been served.

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