[Rive1976]

So I have had a therapist once for 10 years and this new one for 6 months. They both suggested that perhaps I was molested and don't remember. Anyway, whenever they try to talk to me about that I get really uncomfortable. I start with this chatter in my head that says I dont want to be here, this isn't good etc. I dont feel like being in that moment it's so hard. If you didn't remember being abused would just the fact you feel all those emotions with mere mention of the possibility be proof enough to you something happened?

I think it's not full-proof evidence, but it certainly lends to the probable truth. If the feelings are there, then most likely it did happen. In addition to that, IF you have symptoms of sexual abuse, then it is probably true. Keep exploring this in therapy, despite the extreme discomfort. It's necessary to confront it in order to deal with your feelings, heal and move forward.

Originally Posted by Dnester

So I have had a therapist once for 10 years and this new one for 6 months. They both suggested that perhaps I was molested and don't remember. Anyway, whenever they try to talk to me about that I get really uncomfortable. I start with this chatter in my head that says I dont want to be here, this isn't good etc. I dont feel like being in that moment it's so hard. If you didn't remember being abused would just the fact you feel all those emotions with mere mention of the possibility be proof enough to you something happened?

I would be anxious at being pushed to remember something that might not have happened. To me that's being pushed to invent an abuse in order to "fix it." And it's a reason to prolong therapy to fix something that may not even be real. Meanwhile you may not actually be addressing something that needs to be addressed. If your mind is rejecting something, that doesn't mean repressed memories. It might mean that, but it might also just be your brain saying "should I make up something?" And then your heart saying "no that's wrong." So you are in effect creating an internal conflict.

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by clairerobin

I would be anxious at being pushed to remember something that might not have happened. To me that's being pushed to invent an abuse in order to "fix it." And it's a reason to prolong therapy to fix something that may not even be real. Meanwhile you may not actually be addressing something that needs to be addressed. If your mind is rejecting something, that doesn't mean repressed memories. It might mean that, but it might also just be your brain saying "should I make up something?" And then your heart saying "no that's wrong." So you are in effect creating an internal conflict.

Its not about being pushed or not. That subject has made me feel uncomfortable all my life.

[Amyjay]

I think it shows that you have a lot of conflicting feelings around your therapists bringing up that topic.

[Fuzzybear]

I also think it shows you have a lot of conflicting feelings re this topic.

[Rive1976]

Fuzzybear and Amyjay what do you mean? It has been a very uncomfortable subject since I was around 8 years old.

[Amyjay]

Just saying that being uncomfortable about a topic neither proves nor disproves if you were sexually abused or not.

You could be uncomfortable about that topic because you have always felt so guilty about sex and thought your own sexual thoughts were evidence of sin.