[rebeka]

My Mom kicking my brother who was moaning on the floor.

[Lefty Seven]

All the bad ones, all the time.

[Rive1976]

The only real memory I have of my father forcefully kissing me on the mouth. I still don't recall how old I was or what context it was in though.

[dlantern]

Rescripting works well for me and my system basically just think of it as something from the imagination. Oversize it basically so that it doesn't seem like it is real this is called healing so that it doesn't control you. See it as a teddy bear so that the mind heals and you don't have to seem sooooo empathic when it might not matter right away. The conversation lead can be, from several years ago this use to harm me now it is this or that. Avoid the brother at all cost and anything associated with it, get brother like folks so that at least you will have brother respect just a little we all need to that ...When families are together what is happening? For me the missing you would be replaced with like a clone that is happening on the TMZ of the world this seems like home for me.

[PianogirlPlays]

My worst are the errors in judgment I have made . Some long ago some recent. They hurt so.

My ex thumping the table and the look of fear on my male cat's face

[SorryShaped]

*tw*
Hiding in a shed while they all looked for me. If my father found me, he'd make it my fault, but if the bullies found me, they would hurt me more. I hoped for the bullies because I wanted them to end it all. I had my head centered right in front of a very long protruding nail. I was going to force their hands to kill me.
My father found me. He did exactly as I thought, and I was again blamed for getting beaten by bullies. I made an attempt that night and several in a row after, but nothing ended my pain.
I'm still that scared kid, hiding and hoping the wrong people will end it all for me, with only the wrong encouragement.
I know there's no way solution to this. I know I can't get better. I'm always going to be very afraid and ready to go