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Default Sep 10, 2019 at 12:11 PM
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Your problems caused my problems, but I won't take it out on you or anyone else. It's time for the cycle to stop because, one way or another, I need to heal. I just hope that one day, you can see and realize what you've done.

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You are responsible for my ill health and the fact that I am alone today and never met anyone and had a family.You are an atrocious and detestable woman I hate you with all my heart and hate that we are related.
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I hope you will grow up and learn to be nice.

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To my most recent unethical therapist:

Thank you for retraumatizing me and revictimizing me. I never thought there was so much to learn - but your behavior has opened my eyes. Patterns of Institutional Betrayal is indeed a cultural problem when survivors of abuse in therapy seek out help from subsequent therapists. While you have hurt me, you have definitely not ruined me. Now I know how normalized this behavior is. Thank you. I will happily carry this burden, learn to push forward through all the immense pain and suffering, and do what I can to expose it until the day I die in hopes to improve and protect everyone of us; even you. Luckily I got a few tricks up my sleeve - and I have a funny feeling that with tactful approach - your system will be imploding before I even get a chance to make my moves. What I question is how you go about your day, knowing what you have done? Do you sleep at night knowing that you destroyed my credibility and in effect, protected thousands of malicious abusers who continue to abuse with impunity? You have smeared my character, again, and you have perpetuated a workplace culture that normalizes deviance on a grand scale! Well done, my former psychopath therapist. Well done. Clap, clap, clap. Whether you did this for fear of retaliation from your professional body, or because you enjoy seeing me suffer, and or because you yourself have a vested interest in protecting your system for fear of your own secrets getting out; you will suffer the consequences of the largest social movement in history. It is just a matter of time. Our healthcare systems are infected with corruption and abuse. Institutional Betrayal has been the short-term method of keeping said abuse underwraps - and up until this point in time - it has proven very effective. But just like any other mass scandal that eventually comes to light, whenever you give fallible human beings all the power in the world and absolutely zero accountability; the pattern of malfeasance leads others to truth. Hold on, dear psychopath therapists, your time is up. There is an army of survivors conglomerating around the world and their voice is not to be reckoned with.

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Dear Abusers,

You may have scarred me for life, but you all are scarred yourselves. It is sad that you have not learned a different way to relate to people. It is sad that you are too ignorant and blind to see that you have harmed yourself every time you have harmed others. Perhaps you are a vicim-turned-offender, or a psychopath, or just incapable of empathy. You are the reason why intergenerational traumas continue, and why I gave my daughter up for adoption to protect her from you and the witnessing of my trauma-related disabilities that you all caused. I may have lost a lot, but you did not take away my ability to care, my self, or my voice. I may have temporarily been silenced, but I am no longer silent.

If there was a cure for your antisocial, narcissistic, psychopathic, and cruel behaviors, I hope they heal those things in your life. If only you had the ability to genuinely apologize, you would have a powerful testimony and would offer healing to so many of your victims.

Us victims do not want excuses. We do want to know why you targeted us, why you did this, and if you truly are sorry. There is enough forgiveness and intelligence in us to not stoop to your level and wish you ill. We do wish for just deserts in the form of appropriate retrubution (sentencing and therefore justice) and incapacitation (i.e., prison time), or if past the statute, for you to not covertly plead the Fifth whenever you come across your victims. We would not want to stoop to your level by harming you or displacing our anger on others, but we are angry and deeply hurt, hypervigilant and always at the ready to defend ourselves should you or those like you decide to attack us again.

You all have harmed us so much, but we victims are not like you and therefore have a chance at rebuilding our lives and leaving behind a good legacy. You have a bad legacy, and unless you are truly repentant, you will continue to harm others and, by extension, your selves. You harm your selves even if you think you are charming when you actually deceive and then harm. You harm the life you could have had if you were only honest enough to admit your wrongdoings and get help for your behavioral problems. You harm your selves whenever you think your displaced anger on us is helping you with your own traumas or neurological deficits. You will not be remembered long after you have passed, as most people in life focus on the good. You are all terrorists, as you continue to hate among a targeted group of people for your own perverted gain and delusional belief systems.

I have many people on my side, but you only have memories of empty trophies. You deceive your selves to think otherwise. You just keep harming your selves every time you harm others and then lie to them and your selves about what you have done.

I know you are all incapable of understanding and comprehending this letter. You gaslight me because you do not want to admit your wrongdoing. But this letter is not to benefit you. This letter is to help me heal. This letter is a step toward closure. This letter represents my self-worth and self-love. This letter is justice. This letter is indirect forgiveness. This letter is born out of hope, not hate.
 
 
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Your problems caused my problems, but I won't take it out on you or anyone else. It's time for the cycle to stop because, one way or another, I need to heal. I just hope that one day, you can see and realize what you've done.
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Default Oct 10, 2019 at 07:49 AM
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You take your mental illness and your fake disabilities and fake mental abuse and your fake physical abuse to take it out on other victim and those who are real victim of emotional and physical abuse are prevented from getting help because of people like you. The law turn the blind eye on you.
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Default Oct 15, 2019 at 12:41 PM
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I will live my life, I will achieve my ambitions and I will be free of you at last!
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Default Oct 21, 2019 at 12:09 AM
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You killed my father with your abuse. You almost killed me too but I’m stronger than you.

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I have listened to you say the worst things imaginable to me. I have taken your punches and your threats. I have worked my *** off at two sometimes three jobs. I have tried my best to shield our five amazing children from your horrendous outbursts. I have even completed my masters degree so I can hopefully one day earn your respect. All you have ever done is spit in my face. You talk about your internal battles but you wage war in our home. You prey on every weakness you can find of mine and when I refuse to fall into self pity you attack the people I love. You are so hateful and mental ill that you describe in detail the horrible torture and hell you wish on me including my own death. Then for a few days you become a night in shinning armor, and nurse my wounds with your "undying love", just so that you can ensure pain when pull that band-aid back off with twice the aggression. I want to look at you and feel nothing but hate, I want to rid myself of hope for our marriage and throw out all fear that you have instilled in me. I want to leave you, I want to feel no pity as I walk away with our children and live a happy, love filled life. You will likely destroy me, you will continue to drag me to my knees. When the two oldest graduate you will start hitting me more, just like you use to do. You will never change for the better you will only get worse. You will NEVER understand or feel full remorse for the pain you have and will cause. You are a horrible man and no matter who you try to impress, your family knows you are no better the evil we all suffer through.
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Don't think that because we are talking again that I trust you again and that you can hurt me again because I won't let that happen.
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I can’t even call them abusers— just people who don’t really care for me. I just really want them to love me as much as I love them. I love them, they treat me like I mean nothing to them (because I do), and my self esteem won’t allow that, so they don’t want to talk to me anymore.

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In the past I would have said you ruined my life. I never did say those words now I realize that gives them power. I would like to say I'm glad I'm not like you. Rot in hell.
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Why didn’t you just kill me like you kept saying you would?

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And you - abuser - said I ''ruined'' her life. Thanks a freakin bunch you up yourself, lying, ******** A hole. It's closer to the ''truth'' that you
''ruined'' my life (and hers too). All those YOU statements, the mark of an abuser, tainted with poison. **** off

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The way you treated me was wrong and it really hurt me. Back then I was too afraid to stand up for myself but I'm not going to let your past actions control me any longer.
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I actually have two of them. You took my innocence and then dropped me off like I was a used piece of paper. Now for the 2nd . You were supposed to be family. You have tarriozed me all my life. Your a very sick person
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You said horrible things about me online. You said triggering things about me online. You told me triggering things online. You called me horrible names. I was scared leave my home. You ruined my life. You pulled me down. I felt horrible every day. I suffered from PSTD, anxiety attack when I go online. Your words hurts. Slice right through me. How can I ever forgive you? How can you have so much hate?

You lied about everything that was said about me. All over a disagreement. There was no place I could feel safe from you.
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You treats me horrible. My self esteem went down. I began to suffer from depression. I start having physical health problem. I start having night terrors. How could you do this to me?

You must have called yourself all those horrible names. You might have been suffering from a mental illness and blaming me and other people because you couldn't handle your mental illness. You must have been very lonely because you have no friends because of how horrible you treat people around you. You must have been very angry person.
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I was innocent and ignorant of the sheer scale of your jealousy and the evil in your heart. I didn't know either how much
you really hated me. I can keep you at a distance now and detach from you. I don't want or need you. I will make damn sure that you never
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