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Default Nov 27, 2020 at 08:59 PM
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Still here, to **** you off!
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Default Nov 27, 2020 at 09:48 PM
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You have hurt me, I worked through it in therapy. I still take medications for it and go to groups. I tried to comprehend what happened, I read books and therapists explained it to me, but mostly it just hurts and I have nightmares where I see your face. I hold no resentments towards you and I sent you an amends for my part in all of it. I feel like this letter is letting me wallow in self pity and I thought I was over that when I cried. There's just so much pain and confusion, because I can't remember everything and nobody in authority believes me. I feel so lost and helpless. I'm grateful mom took the keys.

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Default Nov 28, 2020 at 01:25 AM
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I sent this video to him tonight: I said it sums everything up.

Guster - "Either Way" [Live Acoustic w/ the Guster String Players] - YouTube

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Default Nov 28, 2020 at 09:46 AM
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how do you live with yourself? you will always be alone and I will never be your friend
 
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Default Nov 29, 2020 at 07:16 PM
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STOP trying to manipulate me with your twisted version of what happened. I know what went down. So don't act like I am naive and stupid. You can no longer feed me your BS lies and manipulations. I see right through them and I see right through YOU.

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Default Nov 30, 2020 at 09:52 AM
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threats, manipulation and fallacy won't get you what you want. to get what you want- within reason, all you need to do is ask. you threaten me, you threaten the people I care about, you violate me, you are the problem here. try dealing with the situation that bothers you without use of manipulation and lies. you are lying to yourself and you feed on fear. you don't scare me anymore.
 
 
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Default Nov 30, 2020 at 01:27 PM
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Well, I have given this a lot of thought. And what I have realized the most about you is how much you lay bait in hopes I will give you a reason to paint me as the bad one.

Oh I do have a lot of anger, but most of what I feel is "tremendous disappointment".

Mom tried to tell me and it just devastated me. I did not want to believe it, but YOU proved her right over and over again. The things you chose to do are not things I could ever think to do.

You laid so much bait that was so incredibly toxic. And no matter how much bait you lay, I am never going to give you what you want. You needed me to be the bad guy so you can play the victim. I have never met someone so mean and cruel. God, you never wanted siblings, that's why you tried to kill both of us. You wanted them all to yourself. Are you happy now? You had planned everything to enact this sickness you never got rid of. You made sure you got all the control and you made sure to punish both of us in the worst cruel ways too. You got their bodies, control over all their personal possessions, and you took as much of their money as you could and when you were asked to account, you blamed me. You would not even let me visit their home and sit and grieve, it was such an inconvenience for you that you refused to leave me alone. You would not even let my husband be with me, you WANTED to get me alone so you could punish me.

Sorry I disappointed you that I broke down, that our brother could hear you from the basement below and came up to stop you. You were hoping that by having the police there that if you kept baiting me I would get angry so you could run out and play the victim. Instead our brother seeing what you were doing had to go out and ask the police to tell you to stop harrassing me three times. And then he stayed with me to protect me.

I think the only reason I can see the bars on the crib and then nothing is because you tried to smother me like you tried to smother my brother.

No, I am never going to be able to give you what you want. You can carry that evil all by yourself.
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Default Dec 01, 2020 at 06:27 AM
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Your begging and pleading has no value or meaning to me. You continue to lie through your teeth to me about your infidelity - or is it plural? Was it more than once, and I only caught you with the last one?

I am divorcing you, and there's no way you can ever come back into my life - not ever ever again. Beg and plead all you want. Everything is YOUR doing and YOUR fault. You made your bed, so now lie in it and stop bothering me with your fake tears and your fake remorse. I have a life to lead and a far better life without you in it.

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Default Dec 05, 2020 at 04:53 PM
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What can I say? I haven't come up with anything useful to combat bpd or dark triad... I just lay low and grey rock my way through it. What do I want to say? Well, that's hard too because I don't want to fuel the fire and that's all any response (off of their script) would do.
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Default Dec 05, 2020 at 06:30 PM
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Why can't you control your anger? Why can't someone who lives with you call the police and report you for physical abuse and threatened people just so you are force to face your consequence of your actions?
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Default Dec 07, 2020 at 05:14 PM
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Stop trying to come back into my life. Now you're throwing a pity party? So that I feel bad for you? Now you want me to help you AND feel sorry for you? Sorry, it doesn't work that way. You tore my heart to pieces with your little side fling. That was the last straw for me on top of the abuse. And what do you think would happen IF I took you back? I could never trust you ever again - not with my heart, not with my life or my money for that matter. You're impossible. Please just leave me alone.

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Default Dec 08, 2020 at 08:17 AM
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The woman who lives above me is a sexual predator. I have re-arranged my life to hide from her. She is sick and should be on the sexual offenders list. I may not be able to change her behavior but I will continue to report her. In this instance her schizophrenia is a terrible and perverted affliction and I believe she should be accosted!
 
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Default Dec 09, 2020 at 12:16 AM
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I do not need you in my life and I will no longer care about the fact you have little regard for me and show you don't care,and also I am no longer going to give so much and get so little regards,love and affection in return.If you want me you know where I am its up to you to show concern for me and to make an effort.
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Default Dec 09, 2020 at 12:34 PM
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Get Lost JERK

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Default Dec 12, 2020 at 02:24 AM
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I am well rid of a nasty malicious offensive odious squirt.Good riddance you lousy man!
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Default Dec 12, 2020 at 12:37 PM
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You are SO ****ing predictable

You keep on hurting me and you just don't give a damn do you

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Default Dec 12, 2020 at 01:58 PM
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so you couldn't deal with me possibly leaving, so you had to line up the next woman before we ended. You needed a cushion to fall back on if we broke up. And I got hurt as a result. Shame on you. And pitiful. So sad and pathetic that you cannot exist on your own two feet for one second and just had to line up the next victim while still with me, and while claiming to me how much you love me. Shame on you... oh yeah, but you have NO conscience. And zero character. This is in line with the character I see in you, which is very flawed. You lied numerous times and you even stole from Home Depot, AND from me for that matter. ZERO character. I deserve SO much better.

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Default Dec 13, 2020 at 07:08 PM
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You send me sweet romantic notes, and romantic songs, and you tell me to remember the way we were when we first met and fell in love.

And I do remember that... but...

I also remember the many times you spat in my face, and held a knife at my throat, and when you ripped my daughter’s bra off her, and when you threw us out of our home, and when you smashed holes in our furniture, and when you drained our joint bank account, and how you tried to rip apart every relationship.

And then I shake my head and go back to whatever I am doing in life that does not involve you.
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Default Dec 16, 2020 at 02:01 AM
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People can change and I have faith that you did and I wish you the best in your new life. I apologize for hurting you with my drinking. I'm sorry it couldn't work out between us.

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I am NOT INTERESTED IN YOU!
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