Thoughts of death

I'm so sorry you are struggling with so much despair. What can I say? The good thing about fur is that no matter how many times the blighters shave it off, it will always grow back... (get knocked down 7 times, get back up 8...)

Hang in there Fuzzybear! [Bear hugs].

Fuzzy! Hope you're feeling better, dear bear.

(((Fuzzy bear))) I have noticed that you have been feeding into a lot of negative messages you have received from people in your past. You seem to be at the stage of "naming" the abuse you suffered and the abusers and it's important that while in this stage you don't give these negative messages more power over you. These individuals had no right to treat you the way they did in the first place, they were the ones that were lacking and stupid not you. Healing is painful, but it's not supposed to hurt you more, healing is learning to identify the hurts you have in you and finally understanding these hurts were normal reactions to being around people that were not capable of giving you the right love and attention ANY child deserves. You are just human Fuzzy and did the best you could with whatever you had to live through in your past. Healing is about giving your self the patience and care others failed to give you. A lot of people struggle MOSTLY because the people that they grew up around "parents" or caregivers lacked the knowledge and ability to give them the proper support and love to help them thrive. A lot of bad things get handed down through generations simply because that is all that parental figures themselves experienced and tend to continue the same mistakes and practices they themselves experienced. People give what they "know" Fuzzy and that never means a child is not worthy or not deserving of more than what a caregiver knows. I think you are near my generation and a lot of us did not get our needs met not because we were not worthy, but instead because of a lack of overall knowledge in our parent's generation. Understand?