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Jun 29, 2019 at 12:20 PM
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I escaped from my narcissistic parents home in september of 2018. I have suffered emotional abuse my whole life. I attempted suicide on september 1st 2018 one day after my 28th birthday. On september 18th with the help of my best friends family i escaped. I lived at my college taking classes from september to december but ultimately homelessness, battling a chronic illness and dealing with the fallout of my parents years of abusing me was too much to handle.i was academically suspended in december and moved in with my best friends family as an alternative to living in a homeless shelter.i love living here.they are wonderful people and have become my "replacement" family essentially. In some ways i feel that's not healthy. But why do i still occasionally struggle with sucidial thoughts? And the feeling that i'm not good enough? Mothers and fathers day were extremely hard for me.i just have a hard time with the thought of "honoring" my parents and celebrating everything they've done for me with all they've put me through. I struggle to remember any major "good" memories that occured with them.i can think of one event in the past four years. Occassionally i will have "minor" memories that come up. But the other thing i often wonder is how can i have good memories when they basically did nothing but abuse me and belittle me?
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Jun 29, 2019 at 02:09 PM
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Hi EightBelles134. Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry you are struggling sometimes with suicidal thoughts. Have you considered working with a support group or therapist?
Here are some resources on Psych Central that may be of interest How I Cope with Suicidal Ideation How Suicidal Thoughts Can Become a Coping Mechanism How to Survive Suicidal Thoughts Tips for coping with suicidal thoughts. __________________ Super Moderator Community Support Team "Things Take Time" |
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Jun 30, 2019 at 06:57 PM
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Welcome to Psych Central, EightBelles.
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Jun 30, 2019 at 07:53 PM
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You don't have to love or like your parents and they do not define you either. It was smart of you to get away from them so you can work on building your own life and opinions.
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