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Grand Magnate
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Location: Mississippi
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I’m just curious if anyone else has wished and hoped for the rainbow and sunshine idea of life. That’s what I refer to as Beaver Cleaver ideas of life.
I’ve wanted and manipulated so much of my life to get to that perfect place. I know in reality it doesn’t exist. That’s my real adult self talking. There is a part of me, right now, that is standing behind a fence and wishing she had the opportunity to actually experience the part of it that could be real. She wants, so badly, to know the freedom of true safety and realness. It terrifies her to imagine herself on the other side of the fence where the light is. She wants to know if she’s the only one who has felt this way. Is she so broken that she can’t imagine a real place in the other side, in the light? __________________ "What is denied, cannot be healed." - Brennan Manning "Hope knows that if great trials are avoided, great deeds remain undone and the possibility of growth into greatness of soul is aborted." - Brennan Manning |
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Location: North Carolina
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I think all of us who were abused long for a better place. But I think one issue might be: Do we think we deserve it?
Maybe we can start being nicer to ourselves, being a loving parent to ourselves...I know that has helped me---plus therapy. Our lives will never be some idealistic place with no problems, but they can certainly be much better. |
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I’ve gotten so close to being June Cleaver. I’ve even cleaned the house wearing heels and pearls! Lol. It’s been a tease. So close and yet so far.
__________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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