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I don't even know how to put into words how much this makes me hate my life

I can't even be human I can't even function, I wish I could hold a job or hold motivation for anything for over a month

Thanks for sharing your score. I hope being here on PC can be of some comfort & support to you.

What exactly is the problem..?

I feel exactly the same bbpoltergeistt! It may be helpful if you are willing to share even some of your scores or, as KarmaOG says, if you can, please describe what is upsetting you about life. I have a feeling that it's part a high amount of depression, as I can only associate with your feelings and I feel despair and hopelessness today.

I will try and keep busy this evening, take breaks to relax and just 'be' with myself. If you can talk to someone on here, pick up the phone to anyone?? - That would be a great benefit to your overall mood/mental state right now.

I know the people on here are fantastic and I only joined on Sunday night, I was having a BPD Crisis and needed just 'someone' to turn to. I felt alone, I wanted to die because I hated my head and life so much! I still feel very low now, but others on here can understand, empathise and only imagine how my feelings would have been 'amplified' that day.

The threads I have personally posted on (if you see in my profile), have been full of wonderful human beings with amazing support for me. I would recommend anyone feeling so low, to turn to the guys on here first.

I am in a lot better place now, the anger has somewhat reduced, I need to work on the rest!! But, now I have friends and help on here - truly gold dust. Please consider my advice. x

Wishing you feel better soon.