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Default Oct 09, 2014 at 12:14 AM
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I've been stuck with deeply morbid suicidal ideation for over 6 weeks now. I have an eating disorder and can't take medication because it doesn't work for me unless I eat.

The level of sadness is overwhelming and I cry in public uncontrollably. I'm not much fun or worthy of companionship. I've been in the psych ward 3 times so far this year. Once involuntarily. I just want it stop and leave me alone. I feel like I want to die but when I've tried to kill myself I'm terrified by what I'm doing.

I overdosed on narcotics this week and went to the E.R. in an ambulance but I just didn't care that I could have died. The only scary part was not being able to breathe.

I can't seem to identify the source of this black cloud hanging over me but the starvation due to anorexia is big possibility.

Life generally sucks right now.

Lauren Ann
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Default Oct 09, 2014 at 08:00 AM
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Hi Lauren, I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through but I'm glad you're still here with us. Are you in therapy? That may be something to consider.

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Default Oct 09, 2014 at 07:24 PM
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Hi Lauren, I too, am glad you are still here. I believe somewhere down the road things will get better even if it doesn't seem that way now. Hoping you get some help and that you will feel better soon.
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