daily check in for women

I was really stressed for a while today. I finally got the letter. I had to sign for it. Then I immediately deal with it. I think I have everything worked out. I'm pretty sure. Just need a confirmation. That should come in the mail next. Hope all of you are well today!

Well, I overslept and was still tired but probably needed it because I guess I didn't sleep until after 2:30am...that's kinda late. And fingernail picking was keeping me up. Sigh! and I think I had some unpleasant dreams, but I must be repressing them because I only get glimpses and negative feelings. :/ Going to try to make the most of today though!

wanted to see the kitties again today and watch Lucifer. Looks like I'm not going to get time. :/

This might not make a lot of sense because I'm copying and pasting different thoughts throughout the day and distracted as I compile all this. oops!

I'm a little anxious today. I have a doctor's appointment. I don't really want to go, but I will. It's for my carpal tunnel and I really want to do something about it. It's just that I don't want to leave my house today. More than that, I don't feel like getting dressed. That's the really hard part. Hope all of you are well. Best wishes for a happy Friday!!

Doing Okay this morning. I went to bed early. Now I'm up early. I hope to get some more sleep soon. Hope all of you are well!

I'm beginning to dislike my job. Not the work itself, but the insane management. It makes me irritable. I had a good night in kendo so I got to work out a lot of stress.

My sleep is all goofy. I go to bed late and can manage to wake up early, but when I sleep at an earlier hour, I oversleep. Or is this just my way of compensating? I wish I could just have a normal schedule, but there are just too many variables that happen in a night that determine the amount of sleep I need...or am I just being stubborn? One person has told me I should get up same time every day no matter what (Well, obviously not if I'm very sick or up all night for something). Is that smart? Or do I just have enough of a disturbance on a regular basis that this is just impossible? I really don't know. Feel free to share your two cents or if you have more questions...

My sleep is a mess too. I didn't sleep well. Every other week we shift from nights to mornings at work. Plus, I have trouble letting go of the day once I lie down and I'm thinking about what needs to be done or worried about the future.

Well, it sounds like you have a legit excuse though with switching from nights to mornings every other week. That's gotta take a toll. Me, I'm just out of control of myself. I dunno. :/

I struggle with a sleep schedule too. I go to bed early evening and then I'm up at midnight for a while. Then later I go back to bed until the sun comes up. I've been told I need to get up at the same time each day too. I guess I can try to stay up later and sleep through midnight. But it's hard. Some times I wake up no matter what. Some suggestions have been to set an intention to sleep right before going to bed. I will try that tonight.

i was just thinking that part of the reason I don't sleep through the night is...well, that I don't sleep through the night. I wake up several times. But the problems are worst when hubby has to get up for work in the early morning/work from home or when he sometimes has to work in the middle of the night, but also when he's up late too playing video games and whatnot. I can't sleep unless it's quiet and dark, with the rare exception. So i usually have to make it up later in the day. The days that I do manage to stay awake even with little sleep are sometimes very difficult...

I wish I could give myself some advice right now, but it seems my sleep is dependent on my husband's schedule, and since that's not always regular, there is the problem. sigh! :/

I'm finding myself very agitated right now. It was not a good day. I did not sleep well and so I cancelled a flight since there was no way I was good to fly. Next, something that I set up for a friend fell through due to administrative stupidity and I feel that I let her down. It's not my fault, but I feel responsible. Also, she is my best friend and I watched her abused by her boss into leaving the organization. So, I see far less of her. Her husband is jealous of our relationship and the time that we spend together so I see even less of her and I feel her slipping away. I've mentioned that I'm very shallow emotionally so I don't feel sad, but I do feel agitated and cranky.

My sleep isn't great either. Lately, I am screaming in my sleep in the middle of the night again. It's a symptom of PTSD I guess. Also, I was pretty depressed but I am feeling slightly better now.

I didn't sleep well last night. I'm pretty tired this morning. But I feel Okay. I was able to do some chair yoga. It was really nice. Hope everyone has a great Friday!

I'm better than I was. I had a long talk with my friend and she assured me that I'm stuck with her, which made me feel a whole lot better. Work is still a mess and will be for the foreseeable future, but I think I care less as a survival mechanism.

Ok, so I'm kinda disturbed at the moment by this particular season of a show I started watching...guess it illuminates some fears for me. I ugh, expressed my fear to someone online and they said the show isn't that bad. But see, this is from the male perspective and now I'm a little scared that I shared my fear. I dunno. Hopefully I'll get over it. I've been Googling all night trying to find ways to overcome fear. I feel a little bit better now...

Oh! but what brought me to this forum was to admit that while watching the show, I was engaging in my picking "ocd" thing again (for those who haven't read it yet, I haven't officially been seen nor diagnosed about this yet since it's really only been concerning since this year/couple of months). Anyway, so I suppose fear, which is kinda anxiety, right (?) is a trigger for my obsessive compulsive tendencies.

On a happier note, got to see my precious kitties again and shy Blackie was hovering around me even more again tonight. I realize that I might only be loved because I give out treats, lol, but this was even before that and after as well! <3 <3 <3 Too bad I can't live with him and possibly help him completely overcome his shyness...I suppose he's better with my folks too, but I know he still even gets jumpy with them. He won't even play with his toy on a string because it scares him! um...well, that wasn't a very happy ending....

How about this- does anyone else know someone who's smile just lights up their day?? They can be people you know or people you don't (like celebrities). I have a few and I just think of those happy smiles and it warms my heart! Happy smiles (and hugs) to all who need them/want them!!

I wanted a man to act like he was in control more than completely passive, which was what I got. I’ve either had mad love for the elusive, or repulsion to the unchallenging.

I’m so freaked out from sex, I can’t do it anymore.

I don't have much motivation today. But I'm pushing myself to get things done, like taking my meds, injecting my insulin and getting a shower. It will be a bonus if I wash dishes today. At least I don't have to clean litter boxes today. I'm looking forward to when I can just relax in my bedroom and read with my cats. Hope everyone is well today!

My cats like when I read to them.

Feeling much better. My drama factor is down and I had a good flight and workout. I was doing low altitude training at 2000' and got to see whales. What a treat.

It's early this morning. I couldn't sleep. I hope to start on my chores soon. At the moment I'm setting up my laptop. My desktop died on me. I'm pretty bummed about that, but it's under warranty. Hopefully I can have it repaired within the next two weeks.

I always forget this thread in my time of need...well, maybe I don't want to tire you with my troubles though as it happens every month but...

Decided against putting this one in my journal as it's not news to me, unfortunately, and I could share some love with the group.

I'm cramping and it hurts. Mood is okay. Will be great if hubby can bring home dinner. Right now I'm a bit anxious waiting for his response and worried about stressing him more since I know he's been having long days lately. Ok, now I'm a bit sad...but hopefully we'll get some food, maybe Chinese??!! And then it's Nancy Drew night, so thats always fun!

Hugs to all who need or want them! *hugs