financial independence

another thing that upsets me about these industries is my eye impairment. my eye impairment is a reason why I've not focused on the protective service industry too, which would probably require a lot of movement and damage my glasses.

Imagine if I were driving a car and suddenly a road bump causes my eyeglasses to fall off. And since I'm more interested in truck driving, road bumps might shake the heavy vehicle worse. my glasses are quite slippery. simply looking down can cause them to slide off my nose. when I sort the household garbage, I sometimes put a string around my head so that my eyeglasses don't slide off.

I'm thinking of investing in some contact lenses. at first, I was thinking of simply putting some transparent thread around my head, to keep my eyeglasses in place while not looking too strange. but it's not about my appearance as much as about the chance of my eyeglasses coming off or tilting in a strange angle. I could accidentally crash a truck if that happens, so buying contact lenses would be the responsible thing but also costs money.

so before I begin to work in the automotive transportation industry, I should really calculate the "net?" worth of the investment. I know I wouldn't make much money, but I'd definitely not want to be losing money. If I find some employer to work for (as an employee or independent contractor,) or if I study my neighborhood enough for a positive financial estimate of a self-employment, then I'll definitely buy contacts. My aim isn't necessarily to make a lot of money, but to simply pay at least 7 months of rent in a year.

I doubt I can learn about construction while writing poetry. going from the automotive transportation industry to the Construction Industry might ensure more financial security, but would take time and commitment. I like poetry though. I want to work to not only secure my finances, but to secure a future of poetry writing.

So instead of transitioning to the Construction industry, I might just dedicate time and money to understanding and adapting to changes in the automotive transportation industry. For example, If I'm employed by an employer, and then suddenly there's a new technology that replaces cars whereupon I get laid off, I can use some money in a savings account to learn about the new technology.

A century or two ago, maybe horses were used for transportation. but when cars replaced horses, I wonder what happened to all the horse-riders? If I were in that situation, I would've dedicated some time and money to learning about cars before they replaced the horse transportation industry.

Imagine if aviation technology starts to affect the automotive transportation industry, years from now. well, I'll be prepared!

Studying changes and developments in the Transportation industry, every now and then, is a lot easier than learning work in the Construction industry. And so I'll be able to engage in poetry more.

I will return to poetry, next month. I fear that my affinity with poetry might affect my plans in the automotive transportation industry. For instance, I might try to not be a driver because it's not much literary work. I know some men like me who quit their jobs to pursue work more aligned to literature. So i might also have to dedicate some time and money to applying poetry to my future automotive job or designing a career pathway to more literary work.

i could probably buy contacts and work in the protective services industry, like some men I know. but I don't want to risk life and limb for work, if I don't have to.

I should be a security guard because my mom wouldn't want me to be a sanitation worker? I don't think so.

If I were a protective service worker and I get hurt by criminals, then I'd not only be laid off but possibly in a hospital. I'd have to pay medical expenses, and then recover from the injury. hopefully don't lose a body part. hopefully don't die. and for what? 543$ a month? to go home and then get harassed by my mom like always?

If I had a daughter who loved me or anyone who loved me enough for me to feel a duty to defend, then I'd definitely defend. but money alone isn't convincing enough for me to be a security guard or defender in a neighborhood that might abhor me for my background or mental illness.

It'd be cute to be a security guard for a female employer or public figure maybe. So perhaps it wouldn't be so bad. though female employers are rare where I live: they're a minority.


I read the bible too, and so I know some basic deathly cautions of protective service work. I also know about street gangs and talked to some assaulters, even some that I've encountered in my psych ward stays.

Protective service work is still work, so I'll consider it. but it's at the bottom of my list for now.

federal employment is not that easy ticket that you think it is. permanent employment with any agency is VERY difficult to come by . very competitive. you must be qualified for the position you apply for, even the low entry level ones. benefits are nice, but you pay for them. and then there are some positions which are "seasonal" which include no benefits other then sick leave and minimal time off earned with no guarantee of rehire once the position ends. other positions involve furloughs, meaning periods off without pay. and let's not forget trump putting everyone out of paid work during the shut down. it isn't all fun and games..and most government positions are at a lower pay scale then private sector positions of the same levels. positions are fixed..if you get hired as a 5, you will stay a 5 unless you apply for a 7.

it's not all fun & games. been there, had a hard time buying the t shirt.

and just out of curiosity how are you going to be a car mechanic with training and certification?

What job choices would you make if you did not have your mother's opinions hindering you? She appears to be a common barrier in your life. Although she may mean well, she is doing harm to you by imposing these unreasonable barriers.

Financial independence may involve doing what is best for yourself, even if it is not what your mother wants for you.

i'd probably honestly be a refuse and recyclable material collector like offer to help sort people's recycle, move their heavy garbage or unwanted furniture. I was also thinking of shoveling snow on sidewalks during the winter, like the Department of Sanitation does on the roads. Or maybe I could've been a janitor for some company buildings.


The awesome thing about the sanitation industry is that it's an all-year industry, especially in dense cities like where I live. People will always have waste, i guess.


you're right, I have to realize that my mom can have an effect on my financial situation. I actually plan on going to a homeless shelter if my SSI gets cut before I find work, and then maybe getting some work there instead.

"federal employment is not that easy ticket that you think it is. permanent employment with any agency is VERY difficult to come by . very competitive. you must be qualified for the position you apply for, even the low entry level ones.
benefits are nice, but you pay for them. and then there are some positions which are "seasonal" which include no benefits other then sick leave and minimal time off earned with no guarantee of rehire once the position ends. other positions involve furloughs, meaning periods off without pay. and let's not forget trump putting everyone out of paid work during the shut down. it isn't all fun and games..and most government positions are at a lower pay scale then private sector positions of the same levels. positions are fixed..if you get hired as a 5, you will stay a 5 unless you apply for a 7"

Unlike private employers, federal employers/contractors are more legally obligated to not discriminate against people like me. I think some federal contractors have to have a certain percent if disabled workers in their workforce. I might not have a choice anyhow, as I'm pretty sure federal contractors/employers are greatly involved with the Ticket To Work program.

oh, I'm not worried about pay. some men like me were slaves in the past, so I'm not expecting to make much money in my work. I don't have kids or any liability, so I won't need much money anyways. I've always told myself that my diet and exercise is my only health insurance, so I take both of those seriously. then there can be work hazards, but eh: what can we do?



I'd honestly be lucky to get hired by federal contractors, as i think they reserve some jobs for veterans, especially disabled veterans. It makes sense because I guess the federal government feel responsible for their fighters and so gives them priority.


"and just out of curiosity how are you going to be a car mechanic with training and certification?"

yeah, I kind of realized that I wouldn't be a car mechanic because of the training costs. Instead I'm planning on being an employed truck driver, a fast food deliveryman, or grocery deliveryman. A lot less training costs: might only need to get a CDL.

then rent a car or truck, buy contact lenses, oil/gas, maybe even parking. but the transportation industry is quite promising, so I'll be making a net profit.

feds are required to hire disabled but that said you still must be able to perform the position. you can't be hired for a position that you have no qualifications for...just because you are disabled (it happens rarely but usually the person hired does not last long). even with accommodations you still must be able to perform duties. the gov't is not a free ticket. and once you are hired you must show up for work, maintain standards etc.

good luck with employment, I wish you the best. I hope you find something, maybe find an agency that helps the disabled locate jobs.

I just came from an employment network agency that can accept my Ticket To Work. it can give me free CDL training. it also can let me meet sale representatives. the downside is that I'd need a driver's license before it can help me get a CDL, so it might not want to work with me.


With or without its help, I will get a CDL or at least a driver's license. I'm only working with this agency because applying my Ticket can suspend my medical review. Also, as a mentally ill person, I feel that it's my responsibility to work with vocational agencies for work.

some men like me are taxi drivers, but not many. I'm interested in the automotive transportation industry, and got excited about transporting people rather than just foods, parcels, sanitation, or stock because the Department of Small Business Services promotes city tourism and so positively influences the automotive transportation business of transporting humans, especially those that can't walk around with a ton of luggage and baggage from airports.

however, my city also has a commission that supervises taxi and human transportation services. even worse, that commission has identified discrimination within that business. I've honestly even considered it myself, as some people might not want to be in a car with me because of the way that I look or culturally behave.


the human transportation business is great, but it's also more social than other transportation businesses. and I'm realizing that heavy social environments can come with discrimination affecting a business. So it's probably best I stick to transporting foods, goods, and other things.

the employment network prefers me to be a security guard rather than a truck driver, because I can't drive. meh. I did some calculations and it would've took about 2 months to get a driver's license.


I doubt I'd get hired for security work anyways. veterans are more likely to get that job, with their combat experience. also, since security guards don't need much qualification, it's probably more competitive.


but eh, I didn't know how to drive, so yeah. Also, they are giving me free help, so it's not going to be the best quality help. i'm pretty much getting a free job though! i should be excited about that . . .


I can try getting a driver's license on my own, honestly. I was thinking of running some local business where I deliver groceries to people with a car. I could also target some physically disabled persons with that business, since they can't leave their homes. but i'm going to do the responsible thing and continue working with the employment network, primarily.