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Default Feb 05, 2020 at 06:35 PM
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For about a year now I’ve been working part time and online for a company that tracks hurricanes and studies areas affected by them. I’ve loved this job because it incorporated everything that I had studied in college: protecting the environment and saving lives from natural disasters. The one deal breaker that stands in the way is my company’s reliance on funding, like an NPO. Back in November my boss told me and my gang to stop working because he was short on the funds, but I thought I could wait until after Christmas, when many similar jobs regain financial stability. But I got suspicious when I tried to email my boss twice, first time he didn’t even respond and from an email I received yesterday he says that he won’t even be able to commence projects for his team again until April, but I would have to check in with him again. The most sobering part of this mess is he also said that he was late responding because he was finishing up projects without me, and his behavior has turned fishy since funds ran out in November. He responded all the time to me and considered me to be one of his favorite workers (which he even said), and now instead of him frequently contacting his gang (varying between 5-10 members, most in school while I’m not anymore) for recent projects he said I would have to ask him again at a later date, completely opposite of my previous experiences with him.

Now that this job is not permanent like I previously thought, I have to scour an aggravating job market for work. Though my field is one of the quickest growing industries, even entry level positions like what I’m looking at require several years of experience, which punishes me for concentrating on my education instead of entering the work force. Now I’m in a nosedive with my current gig this has rehashed many years of worth of bad memories. The last professional entry on my resume before I got busy with grad school was an intern involving punishing physical labor, a boss that was hard to communicate with and cliques that humiliated me the whole time because I was slower to warm up to the group than others and I was not in the best shape mentally. Most of the people in my college that I had to work with in group projects were nothing but a fierce fight for power, and people frequently took advantage of me. Even if I followed instructions given to me by my professor, one little slip up in communication or expectations by my group members could result in these people fighting tooth and nail to complain about my performance, insult me or almost literally get my whole class involved. I immediately moved away from the town where I attended school and lived a sheltered life with my parents to take a break from the college atmosphere, but I’m continuing to sour about my generation in general when I’ve heard about friends sharing similar situations at work.

Sure am hating life at the moment. The one job that I was happy with isn’t going to work in the long term. I might be the only decent person in my generation of 20-somethings, with the rest going to extreme lengths to get me in trouble with higher-ups or render me powerless with every minute difference in work performance, outlooks on life and so on. Now I’m living with my folks where my dad has a temper and all of us have been on edge with my grandmothers recent health issues.

Is it true that I’m not going to last even a ghost of a chance in today’s market? Is literally everybody in the real world and in my generation (I’m almost 25) evil and out to get me like I think they are?

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Default Feb 05, 2020 at 08:28 PM
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You're young and have time to adapt. That's one big advantage. You're quite intelligent as well...always a plus. I hope the current bumps even out soon. You're on the right track in many ways.
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Default Feb 06, 2020 at 06:25 AM
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Sorry to hear about your situation.

I can ensure you that the world is not out to get you and you aren’t the only decent person in your 20s.

Keep looking and you’ll find it. Maybe you’ll need to relocate. My nephew is moving to West Coast for a job and he is 24.

Check out if you can wotk fof a government agency
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Default Feb 06, 2020 at 05:28 PM
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Thank you so much for your quick reply XGII. With everything being so competitive and fast-paced to meet arbitrary deadlines these days, it’s nice to know I can go at my own pace. And I take great comfort in your SUPER kind words to remind me I’m not hopeless. Thank you so much!

And thank you divine1966 for your reply like always. I sure hope that’s the case alright, as you might tell all of these thoughts and feeling lonely in my situation has drove me crazy. As much as I enjoyed being at home, I know I can’t stay here forever anyway. I’m open minded toward any location in my state, but I still may want to start off close enough to home where I can easily access my support group. Hopefully though once my sanity improves I can branch out further. Hoping to someday work in the National Park Service, which has always been my dream job but I’m going to have to stew on working for large institutions due to the political climate, but my dream can still be achieved. Good luck to your nephew!

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Default Feb 07, 2020 at 11:50 AM
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go see a doc and dont waste much more time
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Default Feb 07, 2020 at 09:31 PM
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good luck in finding your future. the nps is a wonderful agency to work for..IF you can get hired. a huge "IF" these days. budget cuts have shrunk park staff levels to a tiny size of what the used to be and what they should be.

i suggest specialized training..if you want to be a park ranger. LE/EMS are highly skilled fields now..seasonal rangers pay for their own training at seasonal academies. full time, permanent rangers get sent to fletc for their law enforcement credentials but that could take some time after being hired.

nps is a great agency to work for but it does have it's issues. pay is not comparable to local work forces. housing in many parks is non-existent or very costly.

go for it, but remember it's a job, like every other job. good & bad.

been there done that, wore the hat

don't mean to burst the bubble..but the bubble is huge..and has changed much over time..now it's harder then ever to get on board. if you are serious about it I recommend getting status via peace corps, military, or even taking on a lower level admin position that is permanent if you can find one. good luck.

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Default Mar 05, 2020 at 01:13 AM
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good luck in finding your future. the nps is a wonderful agency to work for..IF you can get hired. a huge "IF" these days. budget cuts have shrunk park staff levels to a tiny size of what the used to be and what they should be.

i suggest specialized training..if you want to be a park ranger. LE/EMS are highly skilled fields now..seasonal rangers pay for their own training at seasonal academies. full time, permanent rangers get sent to fletc for their law enforcement credentials but that could take some time after being hired.

nps is a great agency to work for but it does have it's issues. pay is not comparable to local work forces. housing in many parks is non-existent or very costly.

go for it, but remember it's a job, like every other job. good & bad.

been there done that, wore the hat

don't mean to burst the bubble..but the bubble is huge..and has changed much over time..now it's harder then ever to get on board. if you are serious about it I recommend getting status via peace corps, military, or even taking on a lower level admin position that is permanent if you can find one. good luck.
The NPS or the State Parks are still a life-long dream that I wish to pursue, at least for a few years, but like you've stated it's a dream that maybe best to put on hold now. Before pursuing a more spatial science route for grad school I considered going directly into the Parks by studying Recreation Parks and Tourism but thank goodness I didn't make any rash decisions with that path. At the time I talked to advisors about that program and my desired outcome they steered me away with news about becoming more selective with job candidates, and then of course more recently the prolonged shutdown. Thankfully I come from a good financial standing so I don't need to stress too much about housing, but I'm at the point where I'm hoping that my parents don't need to come out of retirement haha

But again, the ability to live my dreams defies practicality if I am willing to set my mind to it but maybe I can start closer to home and pursue some of these jobs you bring to the table. I'm sure going into a government-charged agency like the NPS is like moving to a remote island without considering hurricanes and diseases. Thanks for your post!

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