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As far back as eighteen,
I realised that if I were To stay like I decided, in order To make more money Than being just above the breadline, I had to work for myself. To have any shot at happy, Or have a fulfilling purpose in life, I had to be my own boss. It was almost a cinch, To initially get a job. It was never well paid, Or I took jobs that were not desirable. Revolving door jobs. That was the two Options I was left with. Be miserable and plod on, Waiting for a lottery win or I risk it all to follow my heart. The heart wins. Last edited by Lunatyc; Nov 14, 2020 at 11:33 AM.. |
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In order to survive and get by
I had to go against the grain. I never planned on Staying anywhere or putting down roots. So I did appear, at times To be aloof and distant. I was still divided. Part of my knew Where as the other part Tried to get back in the game. A persons pay packet Does not always reflect How tiring a job can be. Some low paid work Is still exhausting. I was physically worn out From my work. Mentally from trying to write. And emotionally drained From being in a one sided relationship. I couldn't keep it up forever. It was make or break. I didn't expect a second stint In rehab to be my salvation. |
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With my life
I was always going To have needed therapy and Anti-depressants at some stage. I convinced myself That with bipolar, A meltdown was Inevitable at some point. I probably did Hasten the process, But the meltdown Did not have To culminate the way it did. It was unfortunate It spiralled that far. Not everyone finds Their way back. I am certain the artist in me saved me. Without that side of me, I woudn't be here. |
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True, although naturally the heart is emotional and deceitful. It sways like waves.
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